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It was nearly 3 a.m. in the morning and Bella was sitting in the dark kitchen, smoking her eighth cigarette that night. She was humming some melody under her breath; her eyes closed, tears rolling down her cheek. She wiped the tears, smashed her cigarette in the ashtray and walked barefoot to the fridge, taking a bottle of vodka.

"I didn't know you drink. Nor smoke, while we're at it." A voice came from behind her. Bella turned and met Edward's gaze, holding it.

"And what makes you think," She said in icy-tone while crossing her arms, "you know anything about me?"

"I know you Bella." Edward responded softly, his topaz eyes glittering in the dark. Edges of her lips curled upwards into an ironic smile.

"You knew me. But ten years is a long time, don't you think? People change Edward."

"Not you Bella, not you." He said gently, shaking his head slowly. He raised one eyebrow. "So what happened?"

Bella uncrossed her arms and turned her back on him, leaning on the kitchen counter. She was silent for a while before she spoke.

"Life hasn't been easy on me since you left. Maybe you know, maybe not, but I tried to commit suicide. Jacob saved me. He saved me in many more ways than that; he taught me how to feel, love and breathe without you. After you left, I was completely devastated; I couldn't think, I couldn't feel, I couldn't live without you. But he was there for me, he taught me all those basics again." Bella bit her lip, making a pause before continuing again. "He helped me gather shattered pieces of my heart and put them back together but, by the time he did that, I was already damaged in a way none could ever fix me again. So I started smoking and drinking. I quit both six years ago, while my first pregnancy, but lately I've been under a lot of pressure." She swallowed and closed her eyes, waiting for Edward to respond, but he remained silent. She turned to him and frowned as if suddenly remembering something.

"But what are you doing here?"

Edward smiled, but smile did not reach his eyes, and spread his arms in a helpless gesture.

"Well, I believe I did tell you I will never leave your side again."

Bella didn't smile.

"I believe I did tell you it's a little bit too late for that. Good Lord Edward, why are you doing this to me? Why did you decide to return now, after all these years?"

"Because I finally got rid of Victoria and I wanted you back." He said simply. Bella started to laugh helplessly.

"Don't tell me; you thought that ten years after our break-up, when you told me I'm not good enough for you and that you don't want to see me ever again, you though I was still waiting for you?"

"Sort of."

"Edward! I am a human and I don't have an endless amount of time to waste! I have only one life and a very short one if I may add, and I can't afford myself to wait for you, not knowing if you ever plan on returning again! I love you, God knows how much I do, but I just can't afford myself to wait for you to make your mind."

Bella walked again to the table and took another cigarette and a lighter.

"Stop it Bella." Edward took the cigarette from her mouth, smashing it between his fingers.

"No! Don't you dare to tell me to stop! You have no right Edward, no right! God damn it Edward, look what have you done to me! Look! For six hours already, I am waiting for my husband to return and I'm not even sure will he return at all, smoking cigarette after cigarette because my life is falling apart and I see no way out! I'm in love with two men; with one I have children and with other I am tempted to run away and I just don't know what to do!" She broke off and started crying again, her entire body shaking with sobs. Edward reached for her, to hug her, to console her, but she shook his hand off.

"Don't. Just go away Edward. Leave me alone."

He stood there for a few second, motionless, turning away.

"Bye Bells."


Aww man, this was sad. At least to me. You wouldn't believe how much energy and effort I put into this chapter. But that's not the point. The point is: review! Please, it means a hell lot to me so make this sacrifice for me! Until next chapter, bye!