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A/N: Another chapter as, well, I didn't promise it, but I did say that I was going to focus on one story and finish that before moving on to the next one. It helps me prioritize. :) Also, another thing, thanks so much for the kind words you leave me. They help. :)
Sentimental (part 8)
''You give me warm sunshine when I say I like the moon, and you give me a rainbow when I'm feeling black and blue, but still something's happening; I'm falling, and does that make me sentimental?''
Max purposely delayed taking a deep breath until she had already gone ahead and knocked on the door, knowing that she would have merely seconds before Logan would open it. She also knew that her nerves would keep her preoccupied enough so that she wouldn't get the chance to really focus on what she was about to do, or, better put, doubt what she was about to do.
She had her hands balled into tight fists that she kept hidden behind her back, so no one would question the calmness and collectivity that seemed to characterize her, even though Alec saw right through it before he rounded the corner. He was gone by the time the door opened and, by that time, Max's hands were right back at her sides and she came over as sure and self-confident as ever to Logan.
''Max… What are you doing here?'' he asked, his tone sharpening instantly. Max noticed his back straightening as well, as if he was bracing himself for whatever blow she had come to deliver to him this time, and it made her feel even worse than she already did.
''Actually,'' she began, ''I cam to talk about things.''
''Don't you think it's a little too late to talk things through, Max?'' Logan returned ungraciously.
She shook her head. ''It's never too late, and I didn't come here to talk things through.'' She shrugged. ''I just came to talk about things with you. I figured it was about time.''
''You figured it was time?'' he repeated.
Max sighed. ''Look, can I come in or not?''
Logan looked at her for a second before nodding. He even held the door open for her as she entered, after which he closed it again and leaned against it with crossed arms and a fixed stare. ''So, what do you want to talk about?'' he asked, putting emphasis on the last word.
''I want to talk to you about Alec and me,'' she told him right to his face.
''Max, I really don't—''
''We're not together,'' she ignored him.
''Well, I hate to admit it, but that doesn't surprise me at all. I mean, Alec isn't the most reliable guy on the planet.''
Max shook her head, her tone of voice somewhat disappointed as she said to him, ''I thought you had better faith in people.''
''Not if that person's Alec.''
Max threw him a dirty look.
''You know that's being unfair,'' Logan voiced his opinion. ''Before you got together with him you brought him down constantly and never even thought about jumping to his defense.''
She shook her head. ''You know I was only playing, and, just for the record, we're not together.''
''So you told me.''
She shook her head again. ''No, I mean, we're not together yet, as in we were never together in the first place.''
''But you said that—''
''I lied,'' Max admitted to him.
That really caught Logan's attention and he began moving away from the door and closer to her, all the time searching for something to say and ending up with a single word: ''Why?''
''Because I needed space, Logan. I needed some time alone. Things were getting too much.''
''You mean I was getting too much, don't you?''
Max shrugged and nodded at the same time. ''Yeah, you were overcrowding my space, so I took a little time off.''
''By telling me that you and Alec had something, Max.''
''I know it was wrong,'' she told him. ''And I came to apologize. Better late than never, right?''
Logan shook his head. ''I can't believe how nonchalant you're being…''
''Look, I'm sorry. I'm really sorry, but I didn't want to hurt your feelings by telling you the truth—''
''Right because pretending to be Alec's girlfriend didn't hurt me at all.''
''…even though,'' Max continued, ''I realize that I ended up hurting you anyway, and I really didn't mean—''
''Alec was in on it, wasn't he? I saw you guys together at Crash and you were…''
Max nodded her head and he didn't have to actually say it. ''Yeah, he was in on it. He didn't want to be a part of it at first, but I talked him into doing it, into helping me out because I've bailed him out so many times, so he kind of owed me.''
Logan nodded. ''You two were really convincing as a couple.''
''Yeah…'' Max looked away, though she kept talking. ''Actually, there's something else I want to talk to you about.'' She forced her eyes back on Logan's. ''See, Alec and I kissed, for real this time, and I think he likes me…''
Logan snorted, but she ignored it. ''And I like him back, Logan. I know how crazy it sounds, but we've hung out a lot lately and we've become friends.''
''I think you two have exceeded the friends thing by now.''
Max nodded. ''I know, and I really hate what I've gotten myself into, but I really want to be able to be honest with you about this thing with Alec. I care about you Logan and I'd really like to stay friends, unless you hate my guts too much…''
Logan sighed. ''I don't hate your guts, Max. I just need some time of my own to get used to the idea of you and Alec being a couple,'' he said it while frowning as if he was still trying to grasp the concept.
''We're not a couple yet,'' Max said.
''And neither are we anymore, are we?'' It wasn't really a question as much as a validation.
''We haven't been in a while now.''
Logan nodded, admitting it to himself. ''Like I said, I'll need some time.''
Max nodded. ''I'll get out of your way.'' She began to move, planning on leaving him alone, but he didn't get out of her way, slightly frustrating her. ''What—''
''I didn't say I needed space, did I?'' He offered up a smile, one she returned even more carefully. ''What do you mean?''
''Are you hungry?'' He walked past her and she turned to look at him. ''Logan, that's really nice and big of you, but you don't have to.''
''Then why are you doing it?''
''Because I still care about you, too,'' he said while putting his hands in his pockets, ''and I know how you forget to eat when you're preoccupied,'' he added with another smile. ''And I used to make dinner for us all the time before anything romantically ever happened between us.
Max nodded, accepting it. ''Well, I did have some fried chicken before I came here,'' she ran a hand across the back of her neck, ''but I could still eat something.''
''Then dinner it is,'' Logan said with a nod and turned his back to her again as he headed for the kitchen.
And she followed.
Please review? (: So, I can't really say anything about the next chapter, when it will be uploaded and all that because school just started up again and that always manages to keep me pretty busy, but I will do my best. Again, thank you for the reviews and I hope that you'll let me know what you thought again. Oh, what I can say about the next chapter is that it will be all about Max and Alec. :)