Forever, My Guardian Angel

by: LunarEclipse360

Disclaimer: I don't own the characters or the song 'Memories' by Within Temptation

(A/N: okay for whoever has read 'My Immortal' the song part of this chapter is the other songfic I wrote up. This is what I had planned for it. Anyway last chapter. I had fun writing it. I had fun reading your reviews. I'm sad that Troy died but it happens and there's nothing you can do about it. The song used is a really good song if possible download the song before reading this to get the full effect of the emotion in the song. It's 12 midnight and this story has been out for one month today. YAY. I would like to thank everyone who reviewed the pass 29 chapters. The last chapter was the most reviewed even though one review really upset me. I have to shout out HollywoodRose for all the funny reviews she sent me, for xKittyKAT18x who literally reviewed every chapter, and for HSMlover4ever who has been with me since I started 'Your Guardian Angel.' I love you guys...uh girls lol)

Chapter 30

It's been six years since Troy's death. His body was sent back to Albuquerque for the funeral but I didn't go. I just couldn't see him like that. I'd rather remember what he looked like alive than dead. Besides I don't think I would be able to hold myself together.

I eventually moved back to Albuquerque after my daughter was born. I named her Kathryn after her second cousin. Kat's helped me through a lot since Troy's death and I thank her for it everyday.

A lot has happened since then. Kat and Zeke got married and now they have a little baby boy. Tay and Chad are still going strong. They have one daughter with another one on the way. Jason and Kelsi got married also. They have two sons. My mother moved to Florida but I still stay in contact with her. Annie and Jack are the two I always are in contact with now that I moved back into my old house.

Troy wanted me to have this house for a reason and I was going to respect his wishes for me to have it. I just wish he were here to share it with me.

Izzy and Junior have grown a lot. They miss their father but they're not as emotionally attached to him as I was. The more Junior grows the more I see Troy in him. He's even taken up basketball.

I miss him, I really do. I haven't moved on like I promised. I just don't know how to. He was the only thing I knew. It was easier to move on before because I knew he was still out there waiting for me but now...he's not anywhere. I haven't even visited his grave yet. I just can't. I'm afraid to confirm the fact that he's dead. Seeing his gravestone with his name engraved in it will only make everything real. I don't wanna face reality. Not yet.

"Mom, me and Izzy are taking Kat to grandma and grandpa's house." I heard Junior say from the door of my bedroom.

"Okay just be back by dinner"

"We will." I heard their footsteps leave the house and I sighed. I walked out of my room and into the hallway. I walked into Izzy's room, which was my old bedroom and just looked around. So many memories are held in this room. He's everywhere in this room

I couldn't believe any of this was happening. It felt like yesterday that I was holding him in my arms. I wanted nothing but for this to be a dream. I wanted to wake up and find him sleeping soundly next to me. But it wasn't. This was reality and I wanted nothing more but to turn back the hands of time and cherish every moment we shared together.

In this world you tried

Not leaving me alone behind

He was with me always. Never leaving me alone, never straying from my side. He was my only hope and he made me feel like I was the only one in the world.

I sighed, grabbing my jacket from off the back of my chair. I didn't go to the funeral, I didn't go to his grave. I didn't cry, I didn't weep. I just sat there on my bed, staring out the dark window wondering how it got to be like this. The day he died was the only time I cried.

There's no other way

I pray to the gods: let him stay

I prayed that God would let him stay but he still left me. He still didn't live through it.

I walked out of my house, silence radiating through it. I've hardly spoken to anyone since he left. I climbed into his black BMW and drove away. I had to get away from my house. There were too many memories there. Too many things that held me down.

The memories ease the pain inside

Now I know why

I thought back to the days when we were happy. When nothing went wrong.

"Gabi?" Troy said as he played with my fingers.

"Hm?"

"Have you ever thought of what your life might be like in the future?"

"Not until I met you" I said and looked up at him.

"Same here" he said and kissed the top of my head. "You're the only thing I see in my future" I smiled and snuggled into his chest.

I thought of all the times he would be there to comfort me and tell me everything was alright even though nothing ever was.

"Gabi" he said before coming over and wrapping me in his arms. "My dad told me what happened. Are you okay?"

"I am now." I whispered and he kissed the top of my head. "I was so afraid."

"It's okay. I'm here now." he ran his fingers along my spine, reassuring me that everything was going to be just fine.

"Thank you Troy."

"For what?" he asked and I pulled away.

"For being here for me." he smiled and stroked my cheek.

"I'm always going to be here for you no matter what." he kissed me softly and brought me back into a hug.

He was my only source of comfort. But now it could never happen again. I would never have his arms to run into when I feels lost and alone. I would never hear his voice again. I had to deal with not having him around.

All of my memories

Keep you near

In silent moments

Imagine you'd be here

My memories were my only way of remembering him. I had to live with the flashbacks of the days he would whisper in my ear words of comfort after something bad happened.

"Gabi" he said and hugged me. "It's okay now. I'm not going to let him hurt you ever again." he kissed the top of my head and ran his fingers along my spine. "I will never let you fall. I'll stand up with you forever. I'll be there for you through it all. Even if saving you sends me to heaven." he sang to me and I felt myself calming down.

I wiped away a tear from my eye, remembering how much I loved when he would hold me close. The warmth he gave off was warmth I never wanted to disappear. He made me feel loved.

'Why did you have to leave me?'

All of my memories

Keep you near

The silent whispers

Silent tears

I drove into town, stopping at the first flower shop I found. I walked in and brought a single red rose. Paying for it, I walked back to my car and continued to drive to my final destination.

It was only weeks after that I cried. My heart screamed out for his. My mind thinking of him and only him. I cried for weeks on end refusing to be comforted by anyone, knowing he was the only one who could comfort me.

At times I could hear his voice in my ears, his breath in my ears, his lips on mine. We had shared something special, something that no one had shared before...something no one could replace.

"With this ring I, Troy Bolton, promise to love and cherish you, to honor and obey, through sickness and in health until the end of time." Troy changed the end and I blushed.

"With this ring I, Gabriella Montez, promise to love and cherish you, to honor and obey, through sickness and in health until the end of time" I repeated and Troy smiled.

Made me promise I'd try

To find my way back in this life

"Gabi" I looked down at Troy, his in head my lap. "Promise me you won't give up on life. Promise me that you'll try to move on."

"I can't"

"Please...promise me." I nodded and he smiled.

How could he make me promise that when he knew how much I loved him? I can't move on I just can't. My heart belonged to him and only him and I can't give it to anyone else. And I haven't. I still keep on my wedding ring because my heart is his and always will be his.

I finally reached my destination. Staring up at the black gates that stood before me, I got out of my car and entered the place I never thought I would visit.

I hope there's a way

To give me a sign you're okay

I looked up at the sky. The gray clouds looming overhead. This was the perfect weather for how I was feeling. I looked back at the ground, looking for a certain something among the gray stones around me.

I wanted to know if he was with me, if he was constantly watching over me and if he was okay. Things had become so different since he left and I wished it hadn't.

Reminds me again

It's worth it all

So I can go home

Was it worth doing this? Was it worth coming to see him after all this time? I had no clue how to answer that. Only he could and I hoped that he would let me know.

I hated places like this. I hated being in places like this, especially by myself. But was I really alone? Did I really come here by herself? Why wouldn't he answer me? Why was he making me do this? I came back to Albuquerque because of what was here. Because my heart was here. After he died I didn't think that I could come back here but once Kat was born I had to come back.

All of my memories

Keep you near

In silent moments

Imagine you'd here again

I missed him. I knew she did. I told everyone that I didn't but I was just lying to myself, hoping the pain would disappear. But lying just made it worse. Lying just made me miss him more.

On certain days I could hear him whispering in my ears, telling me that he loved me.

"I still wanna marry you...if you're willing to."

"Of course I am. I don't wanna be with anybody else." he reached into his pocket and pulled out the ring. I smiled and took it from him. He smiled and kissed me again. I backed away and reached for the chain around my neck. I pulled it out and he gasped when he saw the gold ring on it.

"You kept it?"

"Of course I did." I took the chain off and slid the white gold ring next to the other one. "So you'll always be close to my heart." I said and he looked at me with soft eyes.

"I love you so much Gabriella."

"I love you too Troy." he kissed me with so much passion, I felt my knees giving out on me.

All of my memories

Keep you near

The silent moments

Silent tears

I could feel the tears in the corners of my eyes. I wiped them away but more came afterwards. At times I would cry silently in my bedroom, not to alarm the twins. I would remember all of the memories we made together. They were the only things keeping him alive. They were the only things keeping me from falling apart.

Together in all these memories

I see your smile

Every last memory was one of me and him. He was always there, always by my side. Keeping me safe and warm. Making me feel loved and wanted. He was everything and meant everything to me.

I closed my eyes and saw his smiling face in front of me. The same smile that made me cheer up when I was down. The same smile that made my knees weak. I would never forget it. It was forever etched in the back of my mind.

I finally stopped in front of a certain tombstone and kneeled in front of it. I glided my hand over the words engraved in it. I hadn't seen it when it was laid and now it would be burned in my mind, never leaving until my last breath was taken.

I never got to truly say goodbye. I regretted not being able to say it but now I could.

"I'm so sorry I never came to say goodbye. I was just afraid. Afraid of really losing you. Afraid of you not being here for me anymore." a few tears fell from my eyes and I leaned forward, leaning against the cold stone where his name was engraved. "I love you so much"

All the memories I hold dear

Darling you know I love you til the end of time

Tears were falling freely from my eyes to the floor just as the rain began to fall. I kissed the rose and placed it at the base of the tombstone. I ran her fingers along his name one last time before standing up. The wind blew around me and I closed her eyes, hoping to hear his voice.

Until the end of time. I'll always be here for you. I'll always love you.

I smiled and opened my eyes. He was with me, he's always been with me.

All of my memories

Keep you near

In silent moments

Imagine you'd here again

Memories were all I had. They were all I needed. He was there, with me, for me and me only. We always thought we would have a happy ending, not realizing that happy endings never last. I was alone in this ending, forever having to be without him.

All of my memories

Keep you near

The silent whispers

Silent tears

I would never be alone. As long as I kept him in my mind, he would always be with me. As long as I kept my memories close to me, he would always be alive.

'Goodbye Troy. I love you' I smiled and walked away from his tombstone. I knew I would never forget him. He was my protector, my comforter, my hero, my best friend...my first true love. He would always be by my side. He would always be with me.

He would always be...Forever, My Guardian Angel.

The End

(A/N::cries:: I can't believe it's over. I'm gonna miss writing this story. I actually looked forward to writing it when I got home from school. For those who read 'Already Over' the next chapter should be out by sometime this week or next week and don't worry it's not gonna end the same way as this one did. Til next time. Love you guys.)