Looking Glass

A two-part songfic, by That'sMyFiasco

Part II- Everything I Need

A/N: Sorry I took so long to update- I had this whole thing all but written, when I decided that no, I wanted to end it differently. So the whole last ¾ of the first draft got deleted. Ah, well. I think it turned it out better this way, anyways. Please enjoy!


I've dug up miles and miles of sand

Searching for something I can't see

And I've just got bruised and battered hands

And a brand new void inside of me

Complete with walls I did create

From all the earth that I've displaced

A mess that I have made from what

I've just let pile and pile up

I have not been abandoned, no I have not been

Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you

I need you here

I need you now

I need security somehow

I need you

Like you would not believe

You're the only thing I want

Cause you're everything I need

Explore the cave that is my chest

A torch reveals there's nothing left

Your whispers echo off the walls

And you can hear my distant calls

The voice of who I used to be

Screaming out "someone, someone please

Please shine a light into the black

Wade through the depths and bring me back"

-I Need You, by Relient K

There they are. Again. It's insane that I should expect anything different, that I should think that Inuyasha wouldn't follow her as soon as her scent taints the air. On nights like these, I have to try really hard not to resent her. I don't hate her- after all, we share a soul. But is it fair that she can just come around as she pleases and instantly banish any thought of me from Inuyasha's mind?

I'm not being fair to Inuyasha, I suppose. He has a choice in the matter, of course, and it's not as if he just instantly forgets about me, about the rest of us. It would be horrible to think so, after he's saved each of our lives time and time again.

Still, though I would never force Inuyasha to be with me... I wish he would want to be with me. Is that too much to ask? Sure, he stays with me, but sometimes I just have to wonder whether he's thinking of me, or her. If when he looks into my face he sees me or her. And once again, after what was such a lovely evening by the fire, a soul stealer appears and off he goes.

I can see them from my vantage point here. I can't hear them, but I'm close enough to see the look in Inuyasha's eyes when he looks into hers. And what I can't see, I can imagine.

I'm terribly greedy when it comes to his eyes. I adore them... that deep amber, the flash at the heart of them when I get him angry, that suspicious look he gets when something isn't going as planned. Something in me wants to keep them all to myself... to snatch up every look he gives and bring them to myself. Love does strange things to people, I've been told- I hardly believed it until it happened to me. I've become so incredibly selfish.

Voices from the clearing in front of me pull my attention back to the present. Kikyo was saying... something... I couldn't hear. And then, as I could only stand and watch helplessly as she presses her lips to his cheek. Inuyasha didn't move, but I did, spinning around and running away, my footsteps in time with the pounding of my heart. Trees snatched at my hair, tugged at my clothes, and one sharp branch nicked the skin beneath my jaw. Eventually, I stumbled out into a slight break in the trees. It was cold, tonight, and my small skirt just wasn't cutting it. The moon was bright, the gentle moonbeams slicing through the green leaves.

Across the way, a small creek dribbled feebly across some mossy stones. I claimed a relatively dry one for myself and settled in. I just didn't have the energy to put on a cheerful front for the others, not tonight. I tried not to think about... him. It was dangerous, dwelling too much on what I didn't have- and could never have. Unbidden, rebelliously, a few warm tears slid over my cheeks. I swiped at them angrily- this was ridiculous. My heart quavered weakly- it was unused to this kind of abuse.

Suddenly, I knew he was there. Don't ask me how... but I knew. After trying to wipe of some of the salt hardening on my skin, I turned around slowly- only to be enveloped by his arms, so warm and strong. And as always, as soon as I felt his touch, his fingers spreading across the small of my back and tangling in my hair, I just melted. It's insane, this weakness I have for him. But when he's near me, all I can think of if how much I love him.

Slowly, silently, I began to cry again. The hot tears streak down my face and drop to his neck, causing Inuyasha to pull back and look down at me. I looked up, but after seeing his eyes on me- I had to drop my own to stare at my feet. A touch beneath my chin caused me to look back up- a concerned look was on his face.

"Hey," he said quietly, in a voice more tender than I have ever heard him use, "Is something wrong? Come on, Kagome, you can tell me." I couldn't argue with that- but I didn't know if I could bring myself to tell him. There was a strange... peace, in his eyes, though it was overwhelmed with concern for me. But it was that genuine concern which broke my resolve.

"Inu- Inuyasha..." My voice trembled painfully- the only thing that kept me going was his constant, steady pressure on the back of my neck. Taking courage in his touch, I continued.

"I- I saw you with Kikyo. Tonight." His eyebrows drew together, and I continued, my words coming out in a rush. "I know that you love her, and I know that it's stupid and foolish for me to keep following you, hoping, but I still do, and-"

But there, in the woods, with his arms curled around me and his hair brushing my cheek and his heartbeat fluttering quicker and quicker beneath my fingertips, his warm lips slowly pressed to mine- insistently, passionately, and full of every feeling that had been hidden for so long. I, I couldn't breathe- he had stolen the breath right from me and taken it for his own. One sharp fang scraped lightly against my lip, and I gasped in surprise. After what was either a million moments or just one endless one, he pulled a hair's breath away, and looked into my eyes. I stared back, through a thick layer of tears. A smile tugged at the corners of his lips, and he lifted one clawed hand to brush at the tears on my cheeks. "Please, don't cry, you know I hate it when you do." I shook my head. I was- in a word- confused.

"Wh- what about Kikyo?" My tongue felt thick in my mouth, and I stumbled over my words. "I saw you, together, and..." I trailed off desperately, unable to make myself speak the words. Because if I spoke them, that would only make them all the more real. But- strangely enough- he was still smiling. Was this my Inuyasha? Normally he would be so angry that I had followed him, and spied. Instead, there was an uncharacteristically gentle smile on his face as he looked down at me. Now, he was shaking his head, his amber eyes warm.

Though he had a peaceful look on his face, there was an embarrassed hint to his expression. "She said goodbye." There was disbelief in his words even as he said them. "She said- that she released me, and that she wanted me to be happy. I don't have to follow her anymore." I could feel my eyes widen in surprise- this hadn't been what I was expecting. The smile on his face grew as he witnessed my surprise. "So, I need to tell you something. Important. And I've been wanting to for a long time, but I couldn't with Kikyo still around, and I wasn't sure what you were going to say, and-"

He cut himself off, taking a deep breath. "I love you." My heart lurched painfully, as if not quite sure what this new feeling of hope was. He smiled slightly, as if nervous about my response. I smiled incredulously, still convinced I would wake up from this dream any minute.

Slowly, timidly, I pulled his head down until his lips pressed against mine.

I have not been abandoned, no I have not been

Deserted and I have not been forgotten

I need you

I need you here

I need you now

I need security somehow

I need you

Like you would not believe

You're the only thing I want

Cause you're everything I need

I need you

I need you here

I need you now

I need security somehow

I need you

Like you would not believe

You're the only thing I want

Cause you're everything

Everything

Everything I need