Disclaimer: Not owned by me, owned by MGM, Gecko etc etc.

Rating: K

Song: Save me - Queen (and yeah, I left some of the lyrics out so that it was more appropriate for the story.)

It wasn't meant to end like this. Not this way. It was cruel for it to happen like this. He had died a thousand deaths since that night, since that phone had rung, and that voice had spoken. The voice that had ended his hopes, his dreams, his desires.

She had survived so much. Being shot, tortured, taken as a host by a symbiote…twice, shot again, frozen, sent back in time, shot again, stabbed…but god, for her to be gone in such a mundane…ordinary way. It was an injustice. To her. To him. To them.

He was glad the bastard that had hit her died. Otherwise he would surely have had to do the job himself, though some nights he simply lay awake in bed, wishing that the bastard had lived and he'd be able to exact his vengeance on the man that had ended it all.

He had tried to shut his feelings off, tried so very hard. But after 8 years of shutting them out, and then finally being able to show them to the world, he couldn't anymore.

Groaning he rolled onto his side as he pulled the pillow in towards him, cradling it in his arms, breathing deeply he nuzzled his head into the pillow, and like so many nights before cried himself to sleep.

Getting up had been hard. Getting dressed harder. But saying goodbye was the hardest thing of all. Standing at attention in the cemetery, trying his hardest to stay in control. Not daring to look at Daniel. Or at Teal'c. He simply stared straight ahead. As the guns went off, he didn't even flinch. When people passed by the deep mahogany casket and placed a white rose on top, he simply stared straight ahead. Even when Daniel came over and placed his hand on his arm, he just moved it away and looked at Daniel with such pain in his eyes that Daniel merely nodded and moved off with Teal'c.

Soon he was alone. The only person still standing at attention. Finally his legs moved as he walked over to the coffin and placed his own gift on it. A small tub of blue jelly. And a box. Inside that box was the question that he was going to ask her that night. But that bastard had ended it all. For her. For him. For them.

It started off so well
They said we made a perfect pair
I clothed myself in your glory and your love
How I loved you,
How I cried...
The years of care and loyalty

I love you until I die
Save, save, save me
I can't face this life alone
Save, save, save me...

I have no heart I'm cold inside
I have no real intent
Save, save, save me
I can't face this life alone
Save, save, ooooohhhhh...

Each night I cry I still believe the lie
I love you, 'till I die

Save, save, oh, save me
Don't let me face my life alone
Save, save, ooh...

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