"Soooo.. dish. You said we needed a night out with our person, and here we are. " Cristina looked at Meredith expectantly, taking a swig of her beer.
" Oh, you know, I just thought you wanted to talk about the getting married and stuff." Meredith told her friend with a nervous smile as she toyed with the neck of her beer bottle.
" Do I look stupid? You didn't ask me out to talk about me, you need to talk about you. So okay, whatever… talk."
Meredith sighed. Cristina could always read her like an open book. It was why she was her person. Looking around the quiet bar, she looked once more at her friend.
"Well you know I died. And then I wasn't dead anymore. And Derek is… well Derek is having a hard time about this. And I mean I can understand the whole being afraid of losing me, yadda yadda. But I mean well, here's the thing. And I can't believe I'm telling you this. Because it's not even an issue anymore, I mean it's totally a non-issue , its something that.. "
"Just tell me already" Cristina interrupted.
"Okay, Okay. Well that morning Derek thinks I tried to drown in the bathtub, because of my mother, and then he thinks.. I think he thinks, that I did this on purpose. And he's hovery, and and so , so always there. And always watching me, but not even like 'oh I want to get in your pants' watching me, it's a watching me like I'm going to swallow drano watching me. And he's very distracted. And I know its because of me. But I mean ok I did get tired and I did quit swimming, but I was pushed by a patient, and now I realize how stupid giving up was. And now I know I don't want to die.", she finished all in one breath, then took a long pull on her beer.
"Okay, so why don't you talk to him?" Cristina asked. She was surprised to hear that Meredith was saying she could have tried harder to get out the water. It made her chest ache to think about it. Part of her empathized with Dr. Shepherd, and she could understand where he was coming from.
"And say what? I mean , well and say what?" Meredith asked.
"I went a month without talking to Burke, don't ask me what to say." Cristina answered. She appraised her friend for a minute and then set her beer down and looked her full on in the face.
"Meredith, why in the hell would you quit swimming? That is so fucking stupid. I mean you finally were back with McDreamy. He's head over heels in love with you. You're on top of the intern game. You have great friends. What the fuck."
Meredith looked down , ashamed. " I just let what my mother say to me, affect me to much I guess. It was stupid I know that now. And I know how lucky I was too have the chance to fix it. "
"Then your only choice is to tell him." Cristina shrugged, problem was solved as far as she was concerned.
Meredith pursed her lips and thought for a minute, and then nodded. They exchanged a smile, before Cristina changed the subject. "We decided to get married with a JP, at city hall, and just you and McDreamy can be there. "
"Aww, you only get married once , you gotta have a wedding. Think of the agony your mother will be in. Think of the hell she will pay you back with. Besides you'll look hot in a wedding dress." Meredith raised her eyebrows.
Cristina nodded, mulling it over. "I dunno, I'll think about it."
"That's all I'm saying." Meredith agreed.
The two close friends sat together, gossiping, joking and forgetting their troubles.