AN: So guess what? I SUGGEST YOU READ THIS… This is the last chappie!! AHH! I'll certainly miss this story. So tell me what you think of it. :D
That morning Remus left. Sirius cried. And even though Remus left with only one embrace, one kiss, and two tears, Sirius could still feel the longingness coming from him.
He didn't watch him leave.
He ran away so he didn't have to see it.
Sirius slept on his bed that day. He cried and slept and didn't go to his classes. It was like he was almost waiting for Remus to come back and somehow rescue him but knew he wouldn't come back. He hadn't even asked where Remus was going to live now that he was expelled.
It was later than seven at night when Sirius stirred in his bed, groaning in his sleep and nightmarish dreams.
"Sirius. Sirius. Sirius, wake up." James said blandly, prodding Sirius in the shoulder.
"Leave me alone, James." Sirius mumbled, turning on his side.
"You've slept all day long and have just cried and mourned."
"I said, leave me alone." Sirius snarled, turning away farther from James.
James didn't leave. He just stood there.
"GO AWAY!" He shouted out, and James finally left softly, his footsteps being tender thumps.
Two minutes later James, Peter, and Lily came back up the stairs.
"Oh my god, would all of you just fucking leave me alone??!!" Sirius exclaimed angrily, sitting up in his bed and trying to rip closed the hangings.
Lily gently pulled them apart again and sat on the edge of Sirius' bed. Peter copied her awkwardly at the opposite side of the bed. James was even more audacious and dared to sit on Sirius' feet. Sirius tried to kick him off.
Lily smiled softly. "It's not like he's gone forever, Sirius… You'll see him soon."
"Shut up, Evans. I don't need your sappy romance talk. I'm not in a contemplating mood." He dismissed, trying to close the curtains again.
"For Merlin's sake, Sirius!" James said loudly. "He's just another guy. That you will see again! You have to learn to be enthusiastic again, mate!"
"Just another guy? James, just because you beat the living shit out of Remus and then hated him doesn't mean that I don't love him." Sirius said venomously, narrowing his eyes.
"You'll see him in thirty days time," Lily repeated soothingly. "It's just a month."
"A month without Remus. That month with Remus because James told him to break up with me–" Sirius made a small scowl towards James. "–was living Hell."
"But he still loves you. He still wants to be with you."
Sirius was quiet for a moment, looking at his sheets.
"I'll never leave you, Sirius. I'll always be with you." Remus gave Sirius' heart a little pat before burying his head in his shoulder.
"But not… not in the way that I could hug you or kiss you or tell you that I love you."
"But you'll know it. You'll know that I'll want to do all of those things, Siri." Remus reassured him carefully, a lump in his throat forming.
"But you won't be there…"
"Just go through the rest of the year, Sirius. Then you can come and see me."
"Why can't I leave with you?" Sirius asked angrily.
"Because I don't want you leaving James or Peter or Hogwarts. Leaving the things you love behind hurts." Remus said gently, forcing himself not to cry in front of Sirius.
"But I feel like your slipping away from me, like I'm letting you go. Like someone is stealing you and I can't rescue you." Sirius gulped, a hint of tears on the edge of his voice.
Remus cried silently, moving farther into Sirius as he entangled all of their limbs together protectively.
Sirius pushed Peter aside, getting up from the bed and walking gently a foot away, looking downwards thoughtfully. He stopped.
"Who knows?" He asked. "How do you know that he hasn't fallen for some other guy that's better than me?"
Lily walked towards him. "Because he loves you, Sirius. He can't just dump you for some other guy when he loves you.
Sirius fumbled under his bed, grabbing for his bag.
"What are you doing?"
"I'm leaving," Sirius answered shortly, shutting his trunk and locking it. He began packing things into his bag. "I can't stay here any longer."
"Sirius – it's only been thirteen hours." James addressed, some real worry in his eyes.
"I don't care."
"Sirius, are you sure you're okay?"
"Positive. Now would you stop standing there like a bunch of dopes and help me pack?" It was more of an order than a request.
All of them still sat paralyzed on the bed.
"Sirius… it more… more or less seems like you're addicted–"
"Look, if you're not gonna help, leave."
"But Sirius, this is really an impulsive and rash–" Lily started.
"YOU ALL DON'T GET IT, DO YOU?" Sirius screamed out. "I DON'T CARE ABOUT EDUCATION ANYMORE! I LOVE REMUS, AND RIGHT NOW HE'S THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS TO ME!" Sirius shouted out.
He took a deep breath before continuing, and then zipped closed his bag. He held up his bag and trunk and raised his eyebrows expectantly to his friends.
"Well?" He asked them. "Aren't you coming?"
Lily and James exchanged glances, and Peter looked at both of them. Lily had doubt in her face as though she simply couldn't leave Hogwarts, and how she couldn't leave her Head Girl position for such a thing, and James looked as though he couldn't leave Lily. And Peter just looked surprised.
"Aren't you?" Sirius pressed, waiting to hear their declines. If they weren't going to come along, then Sirius was at least going to make them feel guilty about leaving their friend behind and letting him go alone. "Or am I going alone?"
James grabbed Lily's hand. "Of course we're coming, Sirius."
Sirius grabbed wickedly. "Then get going," His hair whipped around as he turned, running down the stairs. "Give me a second."
He came back two minutes later, breathless, carrying James' broom, his own broom, and two school brooms. He tossed James his and gave Lily and Peter one too.
"You remember Quidditch lessons in First Year, right Evans?" Sirius asked Lily, and she nodded elusively.
"Good. You should." He tossed one to Peter too.
"Are… are we flying?"
"Yeah." Sirius said, walking over to the large windowsills and cracking a window all the way open. He mounted his broom and whipped his head around.
"Are you coming?" He asked.
James nodded, coming right behind Sirius, so Sirius jumped and flew expertly out of the window and hovering outside of it.
"Right behind you, Sirius." James said, and slipped outside of the window as well. Peter and Lily went last.
There was a warm summer breeze that just seemed to make Sirius light-headed and inspired. He asked Peter to toss him his luggage.
Tying his luggage to his broom and making it feather-light with a spell, he motioned for the others to follow him as he flew fast over the horizon of the sunset and into the darkening sky.
It was just this morning that Remus Lupin had moved back in with his parents, retelling the whole story in a much more elaborate way than he had done in his letter to them saying that he was moving back in.
They had had a lavish meal of pasta and chicken that night in courtesy to his mother, who was positively thrilled that Remus was back. She simply wanted to smother Remus all evening, but Remus wanted to relax on the porch and just take in the last week's events.
"But Remus, you're finally home again, you should spend some time with you're family!" His mother had fussed.
"But I'll be here for a long, long time now, so they'll be plenty of family time to be done in the future." Remus had reminded them, and had finally wriggled out of his parents' grip and been able to retreat to the balcony in the setting sunset.
And it gave him quite a shock to see four blurry blots in the distance, screaming out.
He sprang up, seeing the blurs dip lower to the Earth gently. His eyes popped out of his head, as all of the blurs came down lower, something black billowing behind them, and a scratchy brow tail of some sort hanging out at the end –
Wait a moment. That wasn't a tail! Those – those were broomsticks –
"SIRIUS!" He screamed, jumping up from the patio and running down onto the cobblestone sidewalk, waving his arms wildly. And he didn't even have to strain his ears to here a voice screaming back:
"REMUS!! REMUS, CAN YOU HEAR ME?!?"
"SIRIUS!" Remus yelled again, hopping up and down with his lungs exploding from his loud yelling. "DOWN HERE!"
He doubted that they Sirius would know where 'down here' was, but he kept on jumping and waving in the warm summer breeze, screaming out in disbelevingness and happiness all coursing through him.
The blurs were coming closer and closer, until finally Remus could see Sirius, James, Peter, and Lily all beaming down upon him. They had left. They had left Hogwarts for him. For him and Sirius.
All too soon Remus was no longer waving and jumping up and down at the sunset, but Sirius had landed his broom with a loud laugh and had wrapped his arms around Remus' waist, pulling him into a tight embrace and smiling into his shoulder.
Remus was crying out of happiness.
"What's wrong, Rem?"
"Nothings wrong, Sirius. I never thought that you would come here for me." Sirius chuckled, brushing his lips to Remus' for just a fleeting smiling moment.
"I didn't come for you, Rem, I came for us." He said, and Remus innocently wrapped his arms around Sirius' neck, his smile so broad he was sure that his lips would rip and Sirius had been smiling for so long his mouth was aching. But they both didn't stop grinning.
Remus almost felt as though there should be clapping.
And definitely music.
Remus broke away from Sirius, slipping his arm around his waist and feeing Sirius doing the same. He smiled at Lily, James, and Peter, and they all beamed back. Suddenly Lily broke and ran forward and hugged both of them, laughing and smiling and tearing slightly.
"Oh, this is like a reunion love story…" Lily said, sighing dreamily. She let go of their hands and went back over to James, letting her head fall on his shoulder. Remus beamed back at them.
"They really do look perfect." Peter commented, standing alone but still smiling in the corner with his hands behind his back.
Remus snaked his hands back over to Sirius, who sighed contentedly and nuzzled his neck.
"Come on, guys. Unless you want to go back to Hogwarts, I say I'll get you settled up in the guest room. James, Lily, Peter, you can leave in the morning, I guess." Remus said to them, smiling, and looked over at Sirius.
"So will you go back tomorrow?" Remus asked him with a tap on his nose.
"Are you kidding? I don't belong there." Sirius told him as they entered the house.
"You belong here." Remus finished for him, as everybody followed Remus upstairs and into the Guest Room.
All of them helped spruce up the Guest Room for Lily and James and Peter, and it was past ten when they were all done with their renovations. They all had a snack before going to bed.
That night, Sirius and Remus slept in Remus' bed in his bedroom. Even though the light was off and the room was bleary, Sirius seemed to bring so much light and color into the room.
Remus snuggled up closer to Sirius, digging his face in his chest as Sirius stroked his hair gently.
They whispered to each other rather nonsense-full sayings that made both of them smile into each other's skin until they both were back to kissing and 'I love you' back and forth until they both fell asleep in each other's arms.
Because they belonged together, and not alone.
HAPPY FIRST LONG STORY ENDING TO BTN! (BTN is what I use for Belong To Nowhere, by the way) This is the first big, big story I actually finished! If you read the beginning of the chapter Author's Note, you'll
know that this story is DONE and that I will indeed miss it…
Hopefully some of you liked the ending and liked the story in
general. :D Tell me if you do, and if there should be a sequel... and if yes, what should the sequel be about??
Until the next story...
JULIA :D ;O :P