Disclaimer: I do not own any characters from That's So Raven. None. Also this is a femslash. If you don't like the paring of Raven and Chelsea then please don't read it. I do not appreciate negative comments about something that you were warned about in the summary. Now lets get to the story.
She had no idea what she was going to do. She had lost her over something stupid.
Devon had come to town for two days. That was it. She had to tell him about Chelsea. He would expect them to hook up and that was the last thing that she wanted to do. It was an unsaid agreement that they had come to. They weren't dating anymore. It had been hard with all of the distance between them so they finally called it quits, but they would hook up if he came to town. It was different now, she couldn't do it anymore she loved Chelsea too much to do that to her. He was on his way over right now and this was going to be hard for her to do. He had been her first everything.
She walked to the door and slowly opened it.
"Hi Rae, its so good to see you."
Raven led him to the couch and they both sat down.
"So how's life going with you?" he asked quietly. He knew her well enough even with all of the distance to know when something was on her mind.
"Fine, I mean it's really going great. Donna Cabonna has promoted me from intern to designer." her face slowly started to light up. Fashion was her passion. She had been designing clothes since she could pick up a pencil. Then her thoughts went back to what she had to do and how hard it was going to be and the light faded.
"Rae is there something wrong?" he asked calmly.
This was it she had to tell him, he knew that something was up. "I...I can't anymore." she said hoping that he would understand what she was talking about.
"You can't what? I don't know what you are talking about." he looked at her, puzzled by what she was trying to tell him.
It was barely more than a whisper but she finally managed to get it out. "I can't hook up with you anymore. I'm seeing someone and they mean so much to me. To do this would be like stabbing them in the back." she knew that it was a shock to him. He had no idea.
"What? You mean to tell me that you started to see someone and you didn't even bother to tell me?" the hurt was evident in his voice. "What about me? Does that mean that we aren't going to be friends or just not, well for lack of a better term, fuck buddies?
"No Devon, I always want us to be friends. I love you, I really do. I just am not in love with you. Do you understand?"
"But Rae, I love you and want to be with you." he whispered.
So many things went racing through her head all at once. He loved her and wanted to be with her. They broke up, yes but did he only do it because she had said how hard it was for her and he thought that that was what she wanted to do? She was in love with Chelsea there was no doubt. Every time that she saw her she got those butterflies that just wouldn't go away. Not even after they started dating. She was not in love with Devon.
"Oh Devon, I am so sorry. I just can't do it anymore. I really love her." she said without thinking.
"Her? You are leaving me for a girl?"
"No, we aren't together anymore. I'm not leaving you for anyone. I'm happy though and I wanted you to be happy for me."
"How can I be happy when I know that you are leaving me?" he was struggling to keep his temper in check.
"Devon, I'm not leaving you. I will always be there as your friend just not as your girl friend. I understand that you must be shocked about all of this. Especially when you came over expecting one thing and getting the total opposite." she stated sadly. He wasn't taking it well and she knew him well enough to know that he was just afraid of loosing her and he wasn't ready to let her go yet. He really wasn't in love with her. Him saying it though really threw her off.
His mind was racing trying to figure out what he would do to keep her in his life. Out of everything that he was thinking one thing kept popping into his head. "Kiss her. She will realize that she loves you if you kiss her."
He reach out and pulled her close so quickly that Raven hardly knew what was happening. He leaned in and she tried to pull back, but his grip was to tight. Their lips met. He tried to push his tongue into her mouth but she refused to let him enter. Then she heard the door knob turn "Oh shit!" she thought, "it's Chels"
A small smile on her face, she got out of the car. Thinking only that her and Raven were finally going to get to have some time where they could finally be alone. To not have to worry about what other people thought of them being together. She walked up the steps and let herself in since she practically live there anyways.
Her mouth dropped open. She couldn't believe what was happening. Raven, her Raven, was kissing… Devon!
Her face crumpled and the tears began to fall.
"Rae how could you?" Chelsea choked out.
Raven finally got her hands up against Devon's chest and pushed with all of her might to get him off from her.
"Chels! It isn't what it looks like!" the panic raising in her voice.
Chelsea turned and ran to her car.
"How could she do this to me? she thought to herself, "I love her, I thought that she loved me."
She drove without knowing where she was going.