I will say these things in advance: I have absolutely no rights at NGE, but you should have already known that.

The story itself is basically a re-telling of the original storyline, but twisted into my way. While at the beginning there seem to be only few divigances, it will become more with each episode. The people, their motivations and the backgrounds are while holding true to the basic layout, changed at my imagination in many details, so canon-purists now are allowed to flame me.

NOTE: I hate both, the ending of the TV series, and how End of Evangelion turned out. So don't expect any of those outcomes.

This will be Shinji/Rei.

For all the work I put into this, I would like to get reviews. I will always try to respond to every review I get.

But enough...let's start.

NOTE: This chapter is the re-uploaded version. It not only eliminates countless grammatical errors, but also adds in new parts or changes existing ones in order to reflect my grown writing abilities and improve the story flow.

Going another Way


...GEHIRN, 2004 AD...

"Ohhh... big mecha!"

That was all what three-year young Shinji Ikari could say when seeing the prototype EVA his mother had been working on since his birth through the big viewing window in the command center. He was too young to really understand what they were planning to test today; he only knew his mother was doing it. He did not know as well that he merely was present since the woman who usually was responsible for him when both his parents were at work had fallen sick and they'd been unable to find a replacement on such short notice.

"Yes, Shinji, a big mecha. Your father, I and many others worked very hard to create it," his mother, Yui Ikari, told her son while walking into the control room in the experimental plugsuit.

She couldn't help but feel naked in it, as much as it was hugging her skin due to the seal. She had seen Gendo giving threatening looks to several men who'd dared to look at her ass. She'd be all too glad once this was over and they could refine the suit to be less exposing.

Shinji laughed when seeing her. "Squeaky rubber!"

Yui had to admit, the suit was squeaking. After all, it still was in the experimental stage and they still had to refine it to remove all the quirks in it, but they were coming along. Her colleagues Naoko Akagi and Kyoko Zeppelin Soryu were reporting progress on their fronts as well. Naoko had made good progress with their experimental computer systems and even admitted that her daughter Ritsuko was slowly becoming a good help for her. Yui couldn't help but to note that the young woman seemed to be uncomfortable with all the attention she got.

Soryu meanwhile was, while being busy with rising her daughter all on her own - no thanks to her worthless excuse of husband using his time to instead chase other women - also making good progress with her own project, an advanced version of EVA, which could prove to be a significant improvement over the two models they'd built up to now. However, that would still need refinement and she didn't expect any fast results there.

"Be nice to your mother, son. She is going to do something big today," Gendo Ikari said to his son.

He hoped that Yui was right in her assumption and that she would be safe from what she was planning to do. If something would happen to her... no, he wouldn't survive it. It would be like pushing a stake through his heart. She HAD to make it!He could not go on without her.

Yui knelt beside her son. "Will you be a good boy, Shinji, and wish me good luck?"

"Good luck, mom!" Shinji said honestly .

With a smile she left the control room, walking up the catwalk to the entry plug. She hoped that she was right. At first, everything had made it clear that only children born after Second Impact could use an EVA. Something about a taint that allowed them to connect to an EVA in a strange way. Yui didn't want to believe that. She and Gendo had no desire to send children in such danger. The idea alone was disgusting and wrong on many levels. It would be like turning them into child-soldiers.

She didn't want to force Shinji to a life where he would be more a soldier than a child, losing his innocence in the process. So she had brooded over the problem and probably had found the solution: since she had been pregnant with Shinji, a potential pilot, she now should be able to pilot the EVA as well, since Shinji must have shared what made him able to pilot while he still had been inside her.

Gods, she hoped she was right. Otherwise her son would lose his mother and Gendo... No, she didn't even want to think about how devastated he would be. He always had been a little emotionally fragile, so losing her would destroy him on the inside.

She HAD to be right!

Getting into the plug, she heard it shut and then it filled with LCL. She had to suppress a very strong gag reflex. The first few times she had been in there in order to get used to the stuff, she had thrown up at least four times. Even now it almost made her sick, but she managed to keep it down. Despite the many advancements they had managed to accomplish, they had been unable to give the LCL a different, better taste. It still tasted like blood, which it essentially was.

No, she wouldn't think of that beast Lilith right now, cursing that to much knowledge was a burden.

In the control room meanwhile, everything up to now had went according to plan. Every indicator was green and her life signs were stable and calm. "Ready to start, Yui?" Gendo asked her, the inside of the plug shown on the big screen.

"Yes, start the procedure...now we will see if I was right."

"All right...start synchronisation process," one technical said. "Careful... Doctor, you will reach the borderline in 0.5...0.4...0.3...0.2...0.1... Borderline reached!"

"Stable so far! We get a reading of around 19 percent so far!"

Yui was just relaxing, thinking that that her experiment had been a success, when suddenly her whole body cramped, and pain shot down her spine. She let out a scream of pure pain. "AAAAAAAARRRRRGHHH!"



"Alert! Alert! The synchronisation is getting out of control!" Alarm klaxons blared while the technicians tried hectically to do something.

"ABORT!" Gendo screamed.

"We can't! System blocked!" "Oh God! 150...170...250!"

Yui screamed in agony while her body felt aflame. Shinji! Gendo! Oh Gods, what have I done!

Then suddenly, to the horror of everyone, as soon as the instruments reached 400, she simply dissolved, fading away, until only her empty plugsuit was swimming in the LCL. Everyone was silent, while all instruments turned back to 0. Shinji looked with tear-filled eyes at the empty plugsuit. He had no way to understand what had happened, only that something had taken away his mother.


Beside him, Gendo had collapsed in shock, something inside him breaking at this very moment.

...deep within the EVA...

Yui left like she was shot naked and with high speed through a water pipe, which essentially was like her dark surroundings felt like. However, despite this she felt no pain, nor did she feel like she was drowning. Further and further she went, until all stopped. She was disoriented. Where was she? It was dark and she couldn't hear a thing. She could only feel her surroundings and it felt like she was floating in warm water, surrounded by flesh walls.

It was...yes it was like she was back in her mother's womb, not born yet.

She tried to gather her thoughts. My God, what happened? I heard 400...then nothing. Am I dead? No...it felt almost like I was taken apart. She swallowed quite some water, when she realised what had happened. It absorbed me. We had speculated that the core could do this... and now I'm in the EVA!

She wondered why she was feeling so calm despite this dire situation. After all, her body was no surely just a collection of cells stored inside the EVA and her mind was... well, wherever it was right now. The worst was she could blame no one but herself for this disaster.

Is this the punishment for my arrogance? she wondered.

Yui felt so weak, the passing into the EVA had really exhausted her spirit. She had no strength at all to reach out to whatever she was surrounded of, thus the womb to protect her, as she was as weak as a baby. She would have no choice but to wait until she was "born" into whatever awaited her.

Gendo...he will be heartbroken... And Shinji... my little Shinji. Please forgive me that you have to grow up without me. It was my own foolishness that took me away from you. I beg you to forgive me my son... I failed you. I wish there were another way for me to say it. I can only hope... someday... someplace... where your hand waits for mine.

Curling into a ball, she slowly cried herself into deep sleep.

to be continued...

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