AN: Okay, so i've had this fic just kind of sitting on my computer going nowhere for a while now. I don't have the end worked out yet, but I do have most of the chapters already written. I know I haven't posted anything in a while and well that's because I'll start a story and then I just can't finish it, I don't knwo where to take it. So anyway, myabe by the time I've posted all these chapters I'll have the ending written. Without further interruption I give you yet another story I'm not quite sure about but hope you like none the less.
-All These Things That I've Done-
How did we get to this point? How did I let things get so screwed up? How could I have caused so much damage? And why am I asking you? The truth is I honestly never meant what I said. I know what I said, and I cannot fathom how it all came out so wrong. I had it perfectly prepared in my mind, and then it all went to shit. I still don't understand how that happened. And then there was you, I hurt you so much, and it killed me that I did that to you, I hate myself everyday for it.
So right about now you're probably wondering what the hell I'm going on about. Why, after a little more than a year, I am reaching out to you. It's hard to explain, it really is. You see, in order for me to understand it myself, I would have to know how this whole mess happened, which I don't, so I know this will be even herder for you to understand. You were my everything, and I broke you, I broke us, and it pushed you away, and out of my life forever. I caused that. So here's the part where I try and make you understand.
I said that I still had feelings for Lucas – I didn't. Sure, as a friend I still loved him, but never as anything more. I don't even think I was ever in love with him, I think he was just as close as I could get. But that ended up hurting you. When I told you, I didn't mean for it to come out that way. I didn't mean to say that I had feeling for him. What I meant to say was, you know I honestly can't even remember anymore. All the pain I have caused has some how deemed me unable to remember what I had originally intended to say. So I don't even know anymore.
What I do know, is that it was always you Brooke. You were my best friend, my sister, my confidant, my everything. I felt like you were slipping away, so many times over the years, and I couldn't handle that. Everyone else had left me, but you never did, until I caused you to.
Your home is in Tree Hill Brooke. You know that, I know that. I am the reason you left your home. I want you to be able to come home. There are people here who love you, who want you to come home. I am one of them, but I know I hurt you too much. So without going into more detail and spilling all that I would like to, for fear of hurting the both of us more than I already have, I won't go there.
Brooke, you belong in Tree Hill. For all that I have done, for everyone I have hurt, for all the pain I have caused, I know I can do this one thing at least for you. I am giving you your home back. There is nothing left for me here, there hasn't been since the day you left. This past year has been one of the hardest of my life, but you don't need to hear that. This us your chance Brooke, come home. I'm trying to move on, and I can't do that here. You can come back to Tree Hill, you can come back and never have to deal with me again, and with the pain I have caused. I know people miss you, Lucas, Haley, hell, even Rachel misses you. They need you Brooke, and I know you need them.
So come home, back to where you belong, you deserve all of that. I won't stand in your way anymore. I won't hold you back; I won't be the cause of your pain. Take this Brooke; it is all I have to give. There is nothing to keep me here, so I'm leaving, and giving you back what you lost. Your home, your heart. Let me do this for you Brooke, let me do this one thing right.