Standing Still - Chapter 1
Kei's thoughts turned over and over again in his mind. As he walked towards the train station, his thoughts turned to Mizuho and Koishi. "What do I do?" he said to himself. Koishi had called him down to the station quite late at night. He was pretty sure that she liked him, and if she did, he was not entirely sure what he would do, or what he could do. What if she wanted to continue what had started earlier...?
As he walked his thoughts again turned to Mizuho, and the last several months. Sure they lived together, and sure he liked her, but he didn't know whether those feelings were something akin to love, or if they were because she was incredibly attractive. "Maybe it's a little bit of both," he whispered to no one.
But then his thoughts turned to Koishi. He had known her since they had been very little, and had always been friends. He was very close to her, almost if not more so then Hyosuke. He had had a slight crush on her, but then this whole Mizuho thing had started and that had kind of been set to the wayside. However, as he grew nearer to the train station, he began to have those same feelings again. She really was quite beautiful, and honestly, if Mizuho had not shown up, he would probably have asked Koishi out. He chuckled as he remembered some of the fun times that the two of them had had. That date downtown really had been fun. Kei sighed. What am I supposed to do?
In the distance, he saw the station, and quickened his pace. His heart was actually racing. What is she going to say? What is she going to do? As he walked up the steps he took a deep breath. Well, he thought, here goes everything. Turning the corner, he saw Koishi.
"Hey Kei," she said somewhat shyly.
"Hey," he replied equally as shy.
Wow he thought as he took her in. She really was quite attractive. Incredibly and breathtakingly attractive. Why hadn't he noticed this more before?
"I'm sorry for calling you so late," she started as he took a seat next to her on the bench, "but you disappear often, and I didn't want that to happen again. Its like every time I blink, you disappear again..."
Kei could feel his heart racing faster and faster. "Well... uhh... I have low grades, and um, well I'm really busy you know..."
"I see," she replied softly.
Kei couldn't keep his eyes off of her, my God; if she does anything I think I may not be able to restrain myself. He had to get out of there. He started to get up, "Look... um I don't have a lot of time so..."
As he got up however, she grabbed his shirt, and put her arms around him. "This is the first time I've ever felt something like this. I just don't know what to do." she was sobbing now, "just watching isn't enough, just talking isn't enough, or even walking with you or being your classmate. Whenever I look at you my heart races so fast, and I get this feeling... that I don't know what it is, but I want to feel it even more!"
As she said this something inside Kei snapped. Everything finally came into focus. God he had been a fool for so long. All of the signs he had missed, all of the advances, all of the looks, the blushes, all these things that had been going on for so long. Suddenly he realized that he shared those feelings. That he cared for her too, but he had never really noticed that until now. He... loved... her, and here she was in his arms, opening her heart to him.
"I... love... you..." she said softly into his shirt."But... I don't know what to do... so you can do anything you want..."
As he looked down at her tear soaked face, his heart melted. God she was so beautiful. And her eyes. "Such pretty eyes..." he whispered. Koishi looked up again. Pulling her closer to him, he began to wipe the tears from her eyes. "You really are beautiful when you cry... you know that..."
Koishi blushed, "Kei..."
He leaned forward, "Shhhh..." he whispered, as he held her head, he leaned forward. As their lips touched, he felt her shudder. Pulling her closer, and putting his arms around her, he deepened the kiss. Finally he felt her return the kiss, slowly at first, but becoming more and more passionate. His need for her had never been this great. Her lips were so soft. Clutching her hair as their kiss deepened even further still, he let his tongue out, gingerly, and let it explore her own, shy but passionate.
Pulling away for a second to catch their breaths, Kei once again took her in. A soft moan of need escaped her mouth. He felt that same need. He kissed her again. It really was a hot night he thought, they were both sweating. He gazed at her, taking all of her in. Beads of sweat ran down her chest and into the crevice between her breasts. Her skin was literally shining from the perspiration, and he loved every bit of it.
They kissed again, but this time she was the instigator. She pushed him backwards on the bench, and leaned forward into him, supporting herself with her hands. Why hadn't he done this sooner!
"Kei..." she managed to breathe as she parted again, "Do you really think I'm beautiful?"
Kei nodded, "Yes... you're the most beautiful person I know... I just never realized it before..."
She put her head on his chest, sobbing again. "I'm glad..." she whispered, "I'm so glad..."
Kei leaned back, stroking her hair softly. Leaning forward, he kissed her on the forehead. He suddenly thought of Mizuho, and what this all could mean. However, for tonight, he just wished that this moment could last forever.
"Kei," Koishi whispered, "just hold me."
"Sure," he said.
Looking up at the stars, Kei felt something inside him stir, not unlike his standstills, but this was something different, something warm, something bright. Then he knew. So this is love, he thought.
As they lay entwined, Kei gazed into the stars. And for just a short while, time stood still.