-Disclaimer: InuYasha is the property of Rumiko Takahashi
-To Come To Me


-To Go To Kikyo

Kagome woke and felt the absence of warmth next to her on the futon, then brushed her hand down the length of cool cloth next to her. She sat up, her body tensing at the sudden surge of old familiar feelings that she had thought she would never feel again. Absently she picked up her bow and arrows and stepped threw the screen on the empty hut, her eyes instantly fixing on the silvery blue shinidamachu in the midnight sky.

Her throat clenched tightly closed, this felt all too achingly familiar.

She sank down to the ground and pulled an arrow from the quiver caressing it between her fingers. The cold sharp point nicked the tip of her finger and she winced, bringing the finger to her lips, her mouth instantly filling with the cold metallic flavor of her own blood.

A single shinidamachu had separated from the others and now flew around just over her head. It wrapped around her body, cocooning her in soothing silvery soft blue light, whispering a quiet reminder that she was now the one that InuYasha loves into her ear. Kagome smiled and relaxed against the shinidamachu, allowing it to caress her gently.

"Release her now!"

Kagome's eyes shot open to see Sesshomaru, poison claws barred and ready to strike the shinidamachu, while the Shinidamachu tightened its grip on Kagome protectively.

"Sesshomaru...no, it's okay. It isn't hurting me."

Sesshomaru looked at Kagome unsure for a moment if she was being honest or just afraid, then he let his hand lower to the side.

Kagome's hand rose and she gently petted the Shinidamachu "I'm okay, you can go back to Kikyo now. Please tell her thank you. "

The Shinidamachu uncoiled from Kagome and brushed gently against her cheek before flying off into the night to rejoin the others. Kagome smiled softly as she watched it disappear.

Sesshomaru sat down on the grass next to her.

"Does this Sesshomaru wish to know what that was about?"

"Kikyo sent the Shinidamachu to calm me down, she must have sensed that I was upset."

"Why were you upset?" Sesshomaru's eyes were closed, like he was trying desperately to hold his temper.

Sesshomaru looked at Kagome then flew off the ground.

"He did it again? After all his promises he went to his clay bitch and left you alone?"


"I'm going to kill him!"

Sesshomaru's hand was glowing an intense violent poison green, poison dripping down his fingers and he whirled around, some of his poison flew away and caught Kagome on the cheek.

"AHHHHHH!!" Kagome screamed and fell to her knees, her hand over her face.

Sesshomaru dropped onto his knees next to her, hastily wiping the poison from his hand onto his empty sleeve. He pulled her hand away licked the burns on Kagome's face, thankful to see that there were only two and they were each only about the size of a dime, and no poison had transferred onto her hand.

"Smooth move Sesshomaru" Kagome winced as he continued to lick her burns, she would have pushed him away but she knew from InuYasha of the medicine in poison yokai's saliva to cure their own poison burns.

"Planning on disemboweling me as an encore or something?"

Sesshomaru glared at Kagome, failing to find the humor in the situation.

"You, no. InuYasha, perhaps."

"Why are you mad at InuYasha?"

"Why were you so upset?"

Kagome rolled her eyes. "I think that's good enough, you can stop spitting on me now."

Sesshomaru tilted her head into the moonlight and when he saw no marks remaining he let her go.

"InuYasha has left you alone again to go off with that abomination of clay and grave soil, do you deny that this is why you were upset?"

"No. But it's not like you think. I woke up and I forgot...Kikyo and I talked earlier and I told her it was okay. I told InuYasha that Kikyo would be sending for him tonight...I told him it was okay to go."

"for what possible reason would he have...to leave you and go..."

"To say goodbye. By the time InuYasha returns from your trip, she will be gone. Once Kikyo completes my training, she will have no other reason to stay here."

"You are the reason she still lingers?"

Kagome nodded "She made a promise to Kaede, to train me if I would stay on, or to find a new miko for the village if I would not."

Sesshomaru sat heavily on the ground, his head in his hand. "I saw the shinidamachu and felt your tension then a moment later I picked up the scent of your blood. I thought..."

Kagome knelt down and put her arms around him "I'm sorry I worried you Sesshomaru. I admit, when I woke I was a little thrown, confused. I guess I kind of flashed back to that night. But I picked up my bow and arrows only because InuYasha has it so ingrained in me to never leave the hut without them, then when I pulled one out to have one at the ready, I pricked my finger."

Sesshomaru picked up her hand and looked at her finger "You really are rather a klutz are you not?"

"That's what InuYasha says."

"For once we agree."


"I am sorry I over reacted Kagome, but I am beginning to realize more each day it has more to do with my past than with the present."

"The woman you loved?"


"What was her name? The woman you loved?"

Sesshomaru took a deep halting breath.


"I'm sorry I can't go with you. But InuYasha going with you is..."

"A very bad idea."


Sesshomaru laughed "Which of us do wish to see dead? Surely not both of us will survive such a venture."

"Only because your stubborn and pig headed."

"This Sesshomaru is ..."

"Just as stubborn, egotistical and pig headed as InuYasha is. But that isn't the only thing you have in common you know."

"I had hoped we had nothing in common besides a common sire." Sesshomaru tried to smile "So tell me all great all knowing miko of the Shikon no Tama, what is it the baka and I have in common?"

"You have both lost someone you love. "

Sesshomaru looked at Kagome like she had lost her mind.

"Just like you lost Cassayah, He lost Kikyo. Sesshomaru, if there is one person in the world who can understand your feelings about losing the person you loved like no other, it is InuYasha. Give him a chance."

" InuYasha found you." Sesshomaru shook his head.

"But I'm still not Kikyo, I'll never be Kikyo."

Kagome heard a growl in the brush in front of them and looked up to see a very pissed off and furious InuYasha. He stalked over to her and picked her up off the ground.

"Would you get it through your head already you stupid bitch? I don't want you to be Kikyo! I want you to be Kagome!"

He crushed his lips to hers, pulling their bodies close.

He pulled back and rested his forehead against hers.

"I want Kagome, got that?"

Kagome nodded, tears springing from her eyes to fall down her cheeks.

InuYasha bent to pick up her bow and arrows then scooped her up in his arms and carried her back to their hut, leaving Sesshomaru to stare at his brothers retreating back with a grin. He wouldn't be half surprised to find out they had completed the mating ritual by morning.

Sesshomaru couldn't help being slightly impressed by how far his brother had come from that night when he sat in the clearing mourning Kagome's death, seconds from taking his own life.

Hell, maybe InuYasha was the one for this trip after all. Maybe Kagome was right, surely he trusted her judgment, and she thought it was InuYasha that could help Sesshomaru lay to rest his ghost...the young beauty from his past ...


Sesshomaru and InuYasha...Two brothers who hate each other, bullied by Kagome, a woman they both adore, into taking a six day trip together to the palace of Sesshomaru's mother, Lady Shankoutetsu and Grandmother Lady Nagoyaka-Chikara. On the surface it appears crazy, but Kagome knows that Sesshomaru has a deep sliver of pain buried in his heart caused by losing a woman he loved. Who better to understand then one who once had his own sliver of pain, the one that Kagome herself removed? InuYasha.

As the ice melts between them and the brothers bond, through flashback's Sesshomaru will reveal the truth about his painful past, what forced his heart into a deep freeze and his passion to burn into blistering rage. In turn InuYasha will learn just how close he came to repeating a tragic history, four hundred years before when another destroyed the heart and soul of a young beauty named