Time stood still as Lorelai waited for Luke's answer.
He reached over and touched Lorelai's arm. It was the first time he had touched her since the formal handshake he had given her months back.
She broke eye contact momentarily to look down at his hand.
"It's just easier to get a new one, it's broken pretty badly Lorelai" he said gently
Lorelai shook her head, "But don't you get how I feel Luke? I know it's tough and I know it will be tough, but today I realized something. Some things deserve another chance. Is it not even harder to move on and look back knowing that our new lives can never been as good as our old ones?" she asked.
All jeep metaphors had fully gone out the window, they were talking openly about their relationship now.
Luke shook his head trying to come up with his answer "Lorelai" he pleaded, "don't..."
"I've tried Luke, these past months, I packed boxed and boxes of 'Luke stuff' and tried to just shove them in the garage, I couldn't even throw them out. And I stopped thinking about you and us and about the past two years, heck I tried to erase ten years. I told myself that I didn't love you and somehow convinced myself that you don't love me. I married Christopher. If I could ever be happy with someone who was not you then it would have to have been him." tears were streaming freely down Lorelai's face by now. "I didn't want kids with him; I didn't want to have a proper wedding with him, because the only person I had dreamed about doing those things with was you"
Lorelai realized the grip Luke had on her arm had gotten a little tighter. She scanned his face in search of some kind of answer.
After a few moments she wondered whether or not one was coming. She wiped the tears off her face and sighed as Luke began to comfort her, rubbing her arm soothingly.
"I don't think I could take breaking up with you again Lorelai" Luke said finally, "as hard as it is to let you go now, if we were together again, I couldn't let you go"
"Then don't Luke, don't let me go" Lorelai whispered, "the next time you see me walking away, make me stay."
She could see the hurt instantly on Luke's face as she brought up the memories of that painful night, that night they broke up.
"No" Luke replied, he seemed determined to block out any of the memories of them, other than that painful night and the morning she told him she had slept with Christopher.
But Lorelai could see underneath all that. She knew he wanted to be with her.
"Luke?" She questioned. He looked up.
"Do you love me?" she asked
"Yes" he replied softly without a moment's hesitation.
"Ask me if I love you" she said sincerely
"Stop Lorelai, just stop" he said raising his voice.
"No" she said raising her voice also, "Not until you admit that you want to be with me as much as I want to be with you" damn, she thought, she hadn't meant for it to come out like that.
"It's not that easy" he paused, "what if something happens again?" he asked, a hint of fear evident in his voice.
"We made our mistakes" she said as she scooted closer to him. She reached over and took his hand. "Now we know that…" she paused for a moment and laced his fingers through her own "…that we need each other" she finished.
Luke offered no response so she continued, "It's not just about dating or how much we enjoy spending time together anymore. It's about me wanting to spend the rest of my life with you, and I know that despite everything you said and how much I doubted whether or not you felt the same way, that you do feel that same way" she paused "about me" she finished shyly.
She scanned his face quickly, "Tell me I'm wrong Luke, tell me I'm wrong and I'll go"
They stayed like that for about a minute, Luke deep in thought. Just when Lorelai began to wonder if she should get out of the truck, Luke tightened his grip on her hand.
His voice came out kind of broken, as though he wanted to cry
"Don't go" he whispered. He leaned in sliding his free hand to Lorelai's cheek. "Don't ever go again Lorelai" he said, with a clear amount of vulnerability present in his voice.
"I won't" she promised. She flashed him shy smile as he closed the gap between them.