Disclaimer: Don't own TT or "Secret Love" by Mandy Moore.


Once I had a secret love

That lived within the heart of me

All too soon my secret love

Became impatient to be free

How did I end up like this, trying to comfort my crying girlfriend? What had I done to deserve to see her cry? I hated it when she cried. It probably hurt me as much as, or more, than it hurt her.

"Starfire, please, don't cry. It's okay..." I said. Whatever it was.

"No, Robin, it is not okay. Why do you persist in pushing me away?" she asked, wriggling out of my grasp. I looked down in shame.


"We are victorious!" cried Starfire joyously. She turned to me, about to kiss me, but I put a finger to her lips reluctantly.

"Remember what I said? We can't do this in public, Starfire," I whispered roughly. She turned away, but not before I saw a single tear slide down her cheek.

"I remember, Robin."

End Flashback

"Starfire, I'm not pushing you away now, am I?" I said desperately. She shook her head.

"Why can we not tell this to the world, Robin? Are you ashamed of me? Do you not wish to let anyone know that you are 'single' no longer so that if need be you will have another, less naïve girl to go to?"

I was taken aback. "That's not it at all!"

"Then what is? Can you give me a reason as to why no one, not even our friends, can know?"

I pulled her into a hug again, just wanting this to be over. "Star, I just don't want you to get hurt."

She didn't even struggle, but whispered, "I am already hurt."


"I asked for a good reason."

"What if someone were to take you away from me, and torture you, and—"

"You are torturing me, Robin," she said quietly.

"No." I tried to kiss her, and tried to make her forget it, but she pushed me away. She got off the bed, standing unsteadily, not looking at me.

I reached for her hand. "Stay with me," I begged. She shook her head again.

"It feels so wrong, Robin, like I am living a lie. I do not want to live this lie anymore. I love you more than anything, Robin, but I cannot take this." Was she breaking up with me?

"Starfire, please! I…what do you mean? You aren't…" She raised her head, and I got a good look at her once beautiful face, now blotched with tears.

"Good-bye, Robin," she whispered, running out of the room.

I couldn't take it. I couldn't believe it. Starfire broke up with me. Starfire thinks I am…was ashamed of her. Starfire…Starfire…Starfire's gone.

I ran to her room, but it was already locked. I pounded on her door. "Star, open up!" From the inside, I could hear her sobbing, and Silkie crooning. I turned around, leaning on the door and sliding down, knowing I had messed up too bad to fix this time.

"Starfire, please…I need you…I love you…"

So I told a friendly star

The way that dreamers often do

Just how wonderful you are

And why I'm so in love with you

The next day, I woke up, wishing I could never wake up again. I just laid in bed for a few minutes, staring at the ceiling. I am already hurt. You are torturing me, Robin. I am living a lie. Good-bye, Robin.

Then I remembered I had a city to protect, clues to find, villains to defeat. Who cares? I went down for breakfast, knowing I probably wouldn't eat anyway.

The other four were down there already. Raven looked up when I entered, a pained expression on her face. She knows something's wrong, I thought. She can feel it.

Starfire glanced at me when I walked in, but looked away quickly. "Good morning, friend." That sentence cut like a knife. I went up to her.

"Star, look at me," I whispered in her ear. She jerked around, obeying my command. I kissed her, in full view of the others. Even Beast Boy and Cyborg, I saw out of the corner of my eye, stopped playing their video game to gawk at us. I broke the kiss.

Now I shout it from the highest hill

Even told the golden daffodils

At last my heart's an open door

And my secret love's no secret anymore

I smiled at the look she gave me. She couldn't decide if she was confused, angry, miserable, glad, or amazed. The only expression she got through was surprise. Then a lone tear ran down her face. "Robin, why…?"

I wiped it away with my thumb and caressed her cheek. "I don't want to hurt you, Starfire. I don't want to hurt you anymore."

She squealed with happiness, tackling me with a hug. I grinned and pulled her as close as I could.

"Wait a sec, you guys are together?" asked Cyborg in amazement. Raven's pained expression had died away, and she didn't look half as curious as the other two, merely glad she could go back to her book. I rested my forehead on Starfire's.

"Yeah. And I'm going to show the whole world."

Now I shout it from the highest hill

Even told the golden daffodil

At last my heart's an open door

And my secret love's no secret anymore

It just came to me...ah, well. Review please!