I never realized that so much can happen between a friendship.
You can be really good friends with someone and then in the next point, you're feeling such strong emotions for that person that you can't even stop it.
Then you realize that the saying that your best friend could be your perfect match is true, you just feel the sense that maybe the feeling you have for your friend is true. You realize that so much can happen between you two and it can scare you.
I for once have changed ever since I thought about my feelings for my best friend. I really like him and sometimes that jumping feeling inside me just wants to shout out to him that I like him, but the more I try to block the feeling, the more I want to just hide.
Liking your best friend is like liking your brother. I like Oliver a lot and I never knew that anything could happen until that one day that changed it all.
It happened when we were hanging out at my house, just fooling around, and Oliver started to talk to me about random topics about life and how much can happen in so little time. Of course it shocked me that Oliver actually sounded intelligent and interested in how life is, but then this certain subject that he brought up just changed my point of view toward donut boy.
One single word that has so many meanings to it.
I never realized that Oliver could be so deep when he wanted to. That was definitely a good thing which made me feel happy for some strange reason.
Oliver brought up about how long we've been friends and if this friendship would last forever. He brought up how our feelings toward a lot of things would last forever. Finally, he brought up the one subject that made me realize so much; if we would only be friends forever.
At first it didn't make sense, but then when I started to think about it, maybe there was a point to why he said it.
We've been friends for such a long time and maybe if we really thought about it, maybe some feelings between us could blossom into something so much more. I don't exactly know if this was what he was talking about, but it just made me think that maybe there was so much more to Oliver than to what I led on.
I walked along the beach, looking out on the horizon for an answer, an answer to how I felt. Forever seemed like a really long time and Oliver and I have been friends for a long time. It's kind of amazing how our friendship lasted from our preschool time to our high school year.
I smiled to myself and crossed my arms, slightly shivering to the coolness of the night. It's nice hanging out at the beach like this, just watching the waves as it came tumbling down toward the shore.
"Forever…" I whispered and closed my eyes, thinking about the day Oliver actually made me think about it.
"Lilly?" I hear my name being called and I slowly opened my eyes, turning to the side, seeing someone running toward me.
"Yes?" I called and soon the one guy that I had just been talking about came to my side.
"I've been looking for you everywhere, they already started the bonfire." He said and smiled.
I smiled back. "Oh, sorry. I just wanted to be alone for a minute."
It was true; I wanted to be alone just to think about this. I know I've been acting different ever since the talk about forever, but it seemed that Oliver didn't mind. He's been acting slightly different at times, but he's a boy. Most boys act different at times.
He ran his hand through his shaggy brown hair and looked down on the sand.
"Lilly?" He said and I looked at him with slight interest with what he now wanted to talk about.
He lifted his gaze from the ground, and smiled. "You look cold, maybe we should go back?"
I nodded. "Sure, it is getting really dark out here." I said and started walking off.
He stuck beside me and soon I felt his arm around my shoulder.
"Hey…" I stared at him for a while and he blushed.
"Like I said, you looked cold." He simply replied and I sighed.
Things have definitely been awkward between us. We usually do this and joke around, but now it's pure silence. We could never look at each other straight in the eye without saying sorry and we can't seem to laugh about things like we used to.
I think that it all has to do with that talk I had with Oliver. For some reason, everything has been going back to that and it's confusing.
A part of me wants to say that maybe he's feeling the same as how I feel about him. I'm not afraid to admit that I like him, but no one knows. Oliver, maybe he's just hiding something deep inside him that he's afraid might ruin the relationship I have with him now.
I shook my head and felt his grip on my shoulder tighten.
"You alright?" He asked and I shrugged.
"Yeah, I'm absolutely fine." I replied with a fake smile on my face.
We continued off toward the big bonfire which had many people crowding around it. We spotted Miley right away and Oliver quickly removed his arm from my shoulder.
My shoulder suddenly felt cold, missing the feeling with Oliver's arm around it, but I tried to ignore it.
"What kept you two?" Miley asked as soon as we approached her.
I shrugged and sat down beside her on the log and she placed her head on my shoulder.
"We were just walking."
"Oh cool, did you guys have fun?" Miley said as she raised her eyebrows at me.
I laughed and rolled my eyes. Miley doesn't know that I have a thing for Oliver, but she definitely suspects it. She's been on my case for the past few days about it and I kept denying it. I'm in denial whenever it comes out to confessing how I feel, I really hate to show too much emotion to Miley, but that time when Matt Marshall stood me up was an exception. I was depressed and that was the first ever time a boy did that to me.
"Yeah we did. I mean, it's not like we would be on the beach, singing out butts off with one of Hannah's songs." Oliver laughed and I shook my head.
"Sometimes I think you need help." I told him as I patted his knee.
"Yeah, I know, my brother's been telling me that a lot lately." He shot me one last look and stared off at the bonfire, getting lost in its flames.
I continued staring at Oliver as Miley lifted her head off my shoulder.
I liked how Oliver's face glowed from the reflection of the fire.
Maybe he is shy about what we were talking about. It was just a few days ago and since then he just can't look at me the same way. It doesn't matter anymore. I wonder what would happen if I did make a move on him.
He would most likely freak out that I did, but it makes me think.
He looked over at me and his eyes lit up.
"You okay Lils?" He whispered and I grinned.
"Yeah, I was just thinking about something."
"You're always getting lost in your thoughts now, aren't you?"
"Yup, but I'm fine. Just relax" I lastly said and turned to the bonfire.
Maybe I should see how things are between us. I don't want this crush to get in the way, but maybe, just maybe, I could loosen up a bit and ask Oliver what's wrong with him. For now, I'm curious to know how the other side of Oliver is.
A/N What do you think about this chapter? Should I continue it?
Well, I was reading a book and I finished it and then it gave me this idea. I mean, at first I was going to write another Lackson, but I realized that I definitely needed to make up for deleting my other Loliver fic. So here it is. Tell me if I should continue it or not.