Title : Love After Love
Author : Elaine
Date : 28.01.07
Chapter: 1 / 15
Rating : M
Characters : Ronon, Ellie, the People of Atlantis and the SGC.
Archiving : If You want.
Spoilers : None I Am Aware Of.
Disclaimers : Only Ellie is mine, the others, unfortunately, are not.
Summary : Will Ellie and Ronon's love stand the test of time and all that fate has to throw at them?

Chapter 1

"Are you even listening to me?" Dr Rodney McKay huffed as he turned to see why his colleague Dr Ellie Harrison had not replied to his question.

"No" Ellie replied as she watched Ronon, Sheppard and Teyla leave through the Stargate.

"Ha, you see, now I know you were listening" Rodney said almost triumphantly and Ellie sighed and turned to face him.

"Rodney I don't know why you're even asking me, you never listen to me and you always have to be right" she said folding her arms.

"I know" Rodney replied and Ellie tutted.

"You are so annoying" she mumbled, heading for the door.

"Hey, where are you going? I need your help with this" Rodney said indicating to the chart on the screen of his lap top.

"I'm going for my break, I'm tired, I hardly got any sleep last night" Ellie replied, her steps halting as Rodney said,

"Please, I do not want to know about yours and the Caveman's' sex life".

"It has nothing to do with that" Ellie blushed and Rodney waved a hand at her.

"Whatever, just don't be too long, this experiment isn't going to conduct itself".

Ellie resisted the urge to kill Rodney and instead headed for the room she shared with Ronon.

Once inside she sank down onto the bed gratefully. She hadn't been sleeping well lately because there was something she wanted to ask Ronon and she didn't know how to go about it. They had been together now for around seven months and she still wasn't sure how he felt about her. He always kept his feelings well hidden and he hadn't mentioned the word love as of yet and she had reached the point where she wanted to know where they were headed.

She drifted off to sleep and was awoken some time later by the feeling of someone sitting next to her on the bed.

"Ronon?" she mumbled, struggling to sit up. As he came into focus it dawned on her that it was in fact morning and she groaned.

"Oh my god, Rodney is going to have a fan dance about this one!"

She rubbed her eyes and looked at Ronon as she realised he was being strangely quiet.

"Are you OK?" she asked and he shook his head.

"I need to tell you something" he said and Ellie felt her stomach lurch.

"What is it?" she whispered, getting the feeling she didn't really want to know.

Ronon knew he had to tell her what had happened but he also knew it would change things between them forever.

He cupped her face with his large hands and brought his lips down upon hers as though it was the last kiss they would ever share. It might well be.

Ellie melted the moment Ronon kissed her as she always did and she momentarily forgot that something was wrong, that was until he wrenched his mouth from hers and stated,

"I had sex with Teyla"

"What?" Ellie blinked at him, confusion crossing her features.

Ronon knew she had understood him and felt no need to repeat himself as he continued,

"The planet we went to...something took over our minds..Teyla and I...we didn't know what we were doing, you have to believe me..." he looked at her, anguish clear in his beautiful brown eyes but all Ellie could do was stare at him numbly.

Eventually she shook her head as if trying to clear an unpleasant image from her mind and she managed to say,

"Are you sure it wasn't just a... a mind trick...or..or something?"

Ronon shook his head.

"Sheppard found us together... Ellie, I'm sorry"

He went to touch her but she sprang up from the bed and moved away from him.

She stared at him as though he was a stranger and it was almost more than Ronon could bear.

"What do you want to do?" he asked.

For a moment Ellie remained silent. She had to think.

"I, er, I need to get to the lab. Rodney will be wondering where I am" and she moved into the bathroom and closed the door behind her.

Ronon put his head in his hands. He needed to make this right but he didn't know how. He wasn't even sure how Ellie felt about him, they
had never really discussed their relationship or where it was headed.

When Ellie emerged from the bathroom he watched as she changed her clothes and stood as she moved toward the door.

"We need to talk" he said and Ellie paused.

"I don't know what to say" she replied, closing her eyes as she felt the heat from Ronon's chest suddenly at her back.

"You have to believe me about what happened" Ronon said, breathing in the scent of her hair.

Ellie forced herself to stay indifferent to him and opened the door.

"I have to go" she said and then fled before he could respond.

Ronon punched the wall beside the door, growling as pain shot through his hand and arm.

He didn't like feeling out of control. He didn't like it one bit.

End Of Part One