Author's Note---Here's the summary of the story-FINALLY. Hopefully this is going to go fast, hopefully only ten or so chapters, but it never ends up being like that, does it? But anyways, I have to hurry up and finish this story because I'll be going to camp all summer-anger management camp. I got so mad at school, that I hit some girl--NO, I'm just kidding. But I have to go to my relatives and be a nanny for my two little cousins. So, if I have time, I'll try to write the other story-Edward as a farmhand, and update it soon. But this story has to be done within a week and a half, so the 'twenty reviews' rule still applies. I'm on chapter four right now and it's pretty hard to write!! To make Bella all depressed and pissed off! But I hope you like it and get my sense of humor or lack of. ENJOY!!!


Bella's mom died after Phil abused her and Bella. Now Bella hates all males and Charlie doesn't know what to do with her. She and him go down to La Push to see Billy. And Jakes there with his friends and of course she's in a house with all males, so she's absolutely having a bad time. But remember, Jake's perceptive, he notices that she gives them all glares. (this is the first story I thought about since I finished Everlasting Scars. She warms up to Jake first. And then goes to school and completely hates the guys-including the Cullen's- and when Emmett accidentally hits Bella with a snowball, she turns all her hate on him and when he says sorry, she slaps him and...(yeah, I can go on and on)


It's been only three weeks since it happened. Three weeks. And I ended up here. In all the god-forsaken places. I ended up here. Forks. Stupid Forks. I still don't see why I couldn't just get a place of my own. Sure, I'm only seventeen, but still. It's better than living with a male. Big, egotistical idiotic male. My father, Charlie. Well, I guess it could be worse, it could be Phil.


A felt a pain go through my heart. Mom. My mother had died because of him. I almost did too. But the police came before he could. Luck. That's what I have left. But now as I look around me, I take that back. My luck has run out. I used it all that night when Phil hit my Mom too hard and just kept hitting. She died trying to send me to Charlie, to get me away from Phil. Phil stopped my visits to my dad four years ago. My weeks without bruises were heavenly, but I always had to go back.

You would think that I would want to go to Charlie, but no. He never saved my mom and me from Phil. He HAD to know that Phil was abusing us. He's a COP for goodness sakes!!!! But no, he never came to our rescue. Never. He used to be my hero, but I soon gave that up when he never came the year my visits stopped. I thought for sure that he would come down and demand that I spend my summer with him. But he didn't. He didn't raise a fuss or anything.

That's when I started hating males. All they are, are let downs and betrayals. Nothing more, nothing less. You can never depend on them. Not even on your life.

Chapter 1

"Bella?" Charlie's voice shook me out of my thoughts. I looked to see him standing in the doorway, shifting from side to side. He was waiting for an answer, but none came. "So, um, I'm going to head down to Billy's, do you want to come?"

Yeah, like I really wanted to go to another man's house. Sure. Like that'll happen. "No thanks."

"Are you sure? Jake might be there. Do you remember him?" He was trying desperately to get me out of the house. I would soon have to go to school. Yah, lovely high school.

"Yeah, I remember him." I looked back outside, staring at nothing.

I heard him sigh, "If you change your mind, I'll leave the directions on the counter. Good-bye sweetie."

I heard his steps retreat and go downstairs. I sighed, he wasn't bad, but I couldn't depend on him. Not anymore. He was my safe haven, but now he's not. Simple as that. He even bought me a truck. I moved here a week ago, one week after the funeral. And it was boring. But safe. I would pick boring and safe over what I had just a month ago. I would take it anyday.

I sighed again and noticed that Charlie had left already. I guess I wasn't paying much attention. I looked at the truck and it looked so lonely sitting there, so I went downstairs and grabbed the keys which were on the counter. I stopped at the doorway and turned around.

I grabbed the directions, "Just in case."

The truck was great, perfect for me. Slow and steady. And safe. Nothing could take out this old thing. And that was what made it perfect.

I was still driving around, when I noticed that I had just been driving to nowhere. I looked for signs, but saw none. So I kept going. After a few more miles, I finally saw one, "You are entering La Push, WELCOME"

I looked at the directions, seeing if this was where the Black's lived. In truth, I did miss Jake. He always asked where I got my bruises from. I think he knew, even though he was younger than me, he always had great perspective and knows when people are lying. He knew me by heart. I wondered if he's still the same. Probably not. After going through puberty, males get so masochistic and dense. All they care about is if their in control or not.

But, I hoped Jake wasn't like that. But as I learned not so long ago, it's pointless to hope. What's the use?

I stopped in front of the house in Charlie's directions. Well, I actually just looked for the cruiser. It wasn't hard to spot, that was for sure. As soon as I got out of the truck, I heard laughter and music. But it wasn't coming from the house exactly, but farther in the woods. I looked to the house and Charlie and Billy were coming out. They sat down and then finally Billy noticed me.

"Hey, Bella!!!" He smiled at me, but when I got to the bottom of the porch steps, I could see worry in his eyes. Probably from what Charlie's been telling him.

"Hi." I said in a low monotone. I didn't even try to smile. I haven't smiled a real one, since….since Jake gave me a peck on the cheek on my last visit four years ago. He told me to be careful when he kissed me. He was such a little boy, but so intelligent.

"So," Charlie looked uncomfortable, trying to say something. "Jake and his friends are out back if you want to go say hi to him."

"Sure." I decided to take my time. Billy and Charlie wanted to get rid of me, it wasn't hard to see. So I took every step with preciseness. I walked through the forest, first not finding a path, but I soon found it. I saw a building through the trees and the music was louder as I came closer. It was country music. The song switched and I heard voices sing along with the song-"Hillbilly Deluxe" I even heard one of them howl along with the dog.

Hey, up in the backwoods, down in the holler,
Old boys feelin' like a dog on a collar,
Keepin' that chain pulled tight,
Waitin' on Saturday night.

I opened the door, so sense in knocking-they wouldn't be able to hear it over the music. I spotted two guy's, but they didn't look like Jake. I finally spotted a pair of legs under a car. That would have to be Jake.

"Hey, would one of you two lug heads hand me a wrench?" I frowned, maybe it wasn't Jake, this guy's voice sounded too deep. But, I guess it could've changed over the years.

"Yeah, sure. Interrupt our song, why don't cha?" The closet and shortest-but bulkiest, said and turned around to the big huge toolbox. "Which one do you want, Jake…."

He stopped talking when he saw me. He immediately stopped what he was doing and smiled at me. "Hi, what'cha doin?"

"What are you talking about, Quil? I said a…" I saw Jake slide out from under the car and he just sat there, looking at me. I didn't think he would not notice me, but I guess I was wrong. Oh well, I'm going back home now. I was turning around to go back to my truck, but his voice stopped me, "BELLS!!!!!!"

Before I knew it, I was lifted off the ground and being swung around. I immediately tensed up, waiting for impact of a fist or kick, but none came. When he finally put me back down on the ground, I collapsed from dizziness. Jake caught me in his arms though, to keep me from falling.

"Thanks." I said breathlessly.

"Whoa!!You really know how to make a girl faint." I heard his friend, Quil, say from behind Jake. I felt my cheeks flare up red. I touched my face, surprised. I never blushed, not since… I can't remember.

"So, don't make introductions, Jake. It'll be okay. We're just your bestest friends." He didn't wait for Jake to say anything, just kept going. "I'm Quil, and this is Embry. But more importantly, I'm Quil."

"Hi. I'm Bella." I stepped out of Jake's embrace and shook Quil's hand.

"Hi." I shook hands with Embry.

After a moment of silence, I asked. "So, what'cha doin out here?"

"Just having a bit of fun. Fixing up a car." Jake looked back at the car, then back at me. "Charlie said you wouldn't be coming."

"I changed my mind." I looked back at the house Charlie was in.

"So guys, I'll clean up while you two go fix supper." Jake sounded uncomfortable and tense. I looked back at him and realized he wanted to talk to me, dismissing his friends. Quil looked ready to object, but Jake silenced him with a glare.

"Yeah, sure, Jake. No problem." The boys grumbled and left to go to the house. I walked over to Jake who was wiping his hands with a rag.

"Hey Jake." I sat down in a somewhat clean chair.

"What's the matter, Bells?" He stared at me, sadness in his eyes.

"Nothin. Why?" I looked away from him, not letting him get to me. I promised myself that I wouldn't trust another male ever again. And I was going to keep that promise.


"JAKE! BELLA!!" We both turned our heads to the shouts. Charlie was calling us. I was grateful, now I wouldn't have to talk to Jake. Sure he was nice and all, but I didn't want to tell him what's wrong. What's wrong? Your a male and suck with understanding feelings.

"Come on, let's go see what they want." He grabbed my hand, but I jerked away from him from reflex. He was surprised to say the least. He gave me a questioningly look, but didn't say anything.

"Come ON you two!!!" Embry showed up at the door, looked at us, then left.

I walked out and heard Jake following. I followed the voices that were at the front of the house.

"Finally!!!" Quil exclaimed. "Jeez, I'm starving!!"

I must of looked confused, because Billy said to me, "We're going out to eat, instead of eating here."

"Oh." I answered and waited for instructions to where we were going. In the end, I ended up riding with Jake, while the rest rode in the cruiser. I followed them to the restaurant, Dickey Doo's. (Real place) We didn't talk at all, just listened to the radio.

When we all got a table, I was on the end next to Quil with Jake in front of me and Embry next to him. Charlie and Billy went to a table a little farther down. Great, I was stuck at a table with three adolecent boys. Just great. Oh well, it beats three boys plus two more.

"So, are you ready to order?" A waiter asked me. I said a cheeseburger and fries, while the rest got the huge monster burger. I rolled my eyes as they made a bet of who can eat theirs the fastest. A couple got up from a booth beside us, sthe girl tripped and fell and her man wasn't paying attention, he was too busy glaring at the table of boys I was at, making the restaurant fill with noise. I went to help her get up, and her purse which spilt over the floor. I gave her purse back to her, and looked at her. She had scars across one side of her face, but she was still so beautiful. I looked at her date, he looked too old for her. Between them, the age difference looked about five years.

"Thanks." She said softly.

"No problem." I said to her. They left and I went back to my now quiet table. They didn't say anything for a few seconds, but soon Quil piped up.

"Why did ya do that?" I gave him a glare in return.

"Are you not going to help someone who's fallen? Are you just going to leaev them on the ground?" He didn't say anything, just looked at me and then at Jake. Then looked down at the table.

I exhaled. This was not a good idea. I should've left and gone home. No, I shouldn't have even came. The food came and Jake won the bet. When I was done, I went to the bathroom on the other side of the place. I was about to come back and sit down when I heard Jake's voice, "Something's wrong. There has to be, Dad. She--"

"I know something's wrong, you can see it in her eyes. But she won't ever tell us." Billy's voice was harsh.

"I noticed something, Dad, she-"

"Of course you did. What did you notice?" He sounded exasperated.

"That she doesn't like to be around people. One type of person in particular."

"What, humans? Jake, she just doesn't like people any more. After Renee died, she didn't like anybody. She doesn't want to be reminded about her. That's why she asked to live with me. Although, I don't think she likes it here too much. I don't know what to do with her."

"No, Charlie. Not people. Just males. Did you see her help Emily? She actually smiled at her! I haven't seen her smile since she got here!"

"I haven't either." Charlie's voice was tired as Billy's.

"But see, she was nice to Emily-a female. Not male. And when Sam didn't catch her, or help her up, Bella glared at him. She hates males!" He exclaimed, trying to get them to believe him.

I decided I better go back to my seat. I didn't want to be caught and have to talk about it. Jake fell silent and came back to our table.

"Ready?" He asked hesitantly.

"Yeah." I got up again. "Let's go."

This time in the truck, Jake tried making small talk, but he soon dropped it after not getting any responses. "Uh, thanks again, Bells. For coming down and visiting. Come by anytime."

He got out of the truck and I left to go home, not bothering to say good-bye.