Author note: Okay, this is how I first typed this story. Thanks for reading!

Artist(Band):Good Charlotte


Lost and broken
Hopeless and lonely
Smiling on the outside
Hurt beneath my skin
My eyes are fading
My soul is bleeding
I'll try to make it seem okay
But my faith is wearing thin

Inuyasha had been leaving camp every night after sunset. I'd sit back and watch, saying my goodbye. A cheerful smile would light my face, as I closed my eyes to hide the oncoming tears. I knew he wasn't going for a walk. I knew he was lying.

Does he lie to keep me from hurting? I feel like I'm dying inside. The fact he doesn't even love me enough to tell me tears me up inside. My eyes don't feel the same. The surrounding looks dull through them, the world no longer the place I once loved.

I don't know how much longer I can handle this, how much longer I can wait for his love. Every time he gives me some, he pulls it back just as soon, ripping a part of my soul till the point where it's un-repairable.


So help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me SEW them up

That's why, when he came, I had jumped into his open arms. No, not Inuyasha. He could never repair the damage caused. The wounds he opened.

My despair seems to flow over everything, tainting the world around me. When I tried to use my miko power to heal a hurt baby bird, I made the death quicker.

I try to tell him to go away, that it's not his fault. That he shouldn't have to deal with me.

But he refuses, saying that he can't see me like this. So miserable, so hurt.


I only wanted a magazine
I only wanted a movie screen
I only wanted the life I'd read about and dreamed
And now my mind is an open book
And now my heart is an open wound
And now my life is an open SOUL for all to see

My friends had always talked about, how, when they grow up, they'd have a loving husband. They'd have a perfect life.

But when I tried to get that life, I ended up with no life at all.

And my mind, body and soul are broken.


But help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me

He said I should go back. That, though it pains him, I have a duty with Inuyasha.

But I can't go back, can't let the scabs forming be broken away. My despair still flows onto the surroundings. I sometimes catch Kouga looking gloomy.

Yet I need someone to help me. Someone to keep me from destroying myself inside-out.


So you come along
I push you away
Then kick and scream for you to stay
Cuz I need someone to help me
Oh I need someone to help me

One night, he told me he loves me. Scared, I pushed him away. I feared loving someone again.

He nodded his understanding, granting a smile. But his eyes showed his true thoughts. He was heartbroken, hurt almost as bad as me. Almost.

For he's not shattered inside.

I try and apologize, but he lifted a hand, saying he understands. I scream that no, it's not. I need someone to help me repair. Someone who won't leave me, causing me to get ever worse.

And though he didn't start it in the first place, I can't but help him get involved. Because I need someone to fill in that missing piece of my soul, the broken part of my heart. Someone I love.

I held onto Kouga tight. Yes, he could do these things for me. He could love me. And, as I look into his cerulean eyes, I'm positive I could never leave him. That I love him.


To help me heal these wounds
They've been open for way too long
Help me fill this soul
Even though this is not your fault
That I'm open
And I'm bleeding
All over your brand new rug
And I need someone to help me sew them
I need someone to help me fill them
I need someone to help me close them up

Author note: So, whatcha think? Better or worse than the last one, or about the same? Make sure to tell me in a review!