Title : Love Under Pressure
Date : 06 June 2007
Author : ElaineDex
Chapter : 10 of 10
Rating : M
Pairing : Lt. Col. John Sheppard/Lyssa Hunter/Ronon Dex/Dr. Ellie Harrison-Dex
Archiving : None
Warning : Some sexual content, possible swearing.
Spoilers : This story follows on from Love Can't Hide.
Feedback : Yes
Disclaimer : Only Ellie is mine, Stargate/Atlantis and all their characters are not. Lyssa Hunter belongs to Kazavid and comes from her stories Behind The Mask and Reunions.
Summary : When an accident causes Ronon and Lyssa to forget the past few years how will Ellie cope seeing her husband, Ronon, loving Lyssa and how will Sheppard react when he sees Lyssa kissing Ronon?
Thanks to Kazavid for all her help and ideas for this Chapter - her input into this last part was greater than mine.
When they returned to Atlantis, everyone was subdued.
Ronon and Ellie hardly talked and Lyssa seemed to keep her distance from Sheppard.
Seeing how Sheppard had been acting with Ellie made Lyssa aware of how easy it was for him to move on to the next woman who took his fancy.
Lyssa wasn't like that, and she couldn't stay around to watch it.
She waited a day or two till she was with Lorne's team and then she made her move.
"Lyssa come on", Ellie turned to look at Lyssa and knew something was wrong as soon as she saw the pained look on her face.
"I'm not coming", Lyssa told her.
"What are you talking about?", Ellie asked.
"I mean I'm not going back to Atlantis", Lyssa replied.
"Why not?", Ellie asked.
"Because I have nothing to go back for", Lyssa said.
"You have John, and your friends..." , Ellie began but Lyssa cut her off.
"No, I don't have John and as for friends...", she trailed off as Ellie butted in.
"Look those little scenes you saw between John and I, they were just pretend. They were supposed to make you jealous".
"You mean you deliberately set out to hurt me and cause pain?", Lyssa asked staring at her incredulously.
"Well...", Ellie couldn't answer because when put that way, that's exactly what it was.
"Do you think I or Ronon deliberately did anything to cause you pain? Do you think we pretended not to remember you so as to cause you pain?", Lyssa asked hotly.
Ellie blushed, then paled when she realised exactly how her and Sheppard's behaviour had been viewed by Lyssa and possibly Ronon too.
"Look just come back and see how things go, if you still want to leave then you still can", Ellie argued.
"Sorry, but I can't do that", Lyssa told her.
"What are you doing?" Lorne shouted over and came back to see what was up.
Ellie told him and he tried to persuade Lyssa to come back but she refused.
She took her flak jacket off and gave it to Ellie along with her guns and the IDC.
"Where are you going?" Ellie asked her.
"Home,", Lyssa replied stiffly, beginning to walk away.
"Please Lyssa come back", Ellie called but Lyssa only turned around to say,
"Ellie don't come back through the Gate because as soon as you go I'll be dialling out, so I won't be here if you do come back".
When they returned back to Atlantis, Lorne informed Weir that Lyssa had gone.
"Hey how did it go, no problems I hope?" Sheppard asked coming over to Lorne and Ellie, his eyes looking around. He noticed the flak jacket on the desk along with the guns and the IDC, but he could see that they all had their stuff still with them.
When he looked at Ellie he could see how upset she was.
"Ellie, is something wrong?" he asked, knowing it was something to do with Lyssa.
"She wouldn't come back with us," Ellie told him and he now knew for definite that it was definitely about Lyssa.
"Why.…?", he asked.
"What we did, the little jealousy scenes, they really hurt her. And when she found out that we'd only done it to make her and Ronon jealous she couldn't understand why we'd deliberately do something like that", Ellie replied miserably.
Ronon who had come up behind them, grimaced. He knew how Lyssa felt, he'd felt it himself.
"You only have yourself to blame", Ronon told Sheppard.
Sheppard spun around and stared at Ronon.
"Did she say where she was going?" he asked Ellie.
"When I asked her, she said she was going home", Ellie told him.
Sheppard frowned and looked at Ronon questioningly.
"Do you know where she's talking about?", he asked.
"The only place Lyssa calls home is her own planet. But there's nothing there, not any more", Ronon told him.
"Any where else she'd go?", Sheppard asked.
"She'd go to where she feels safe and the only other place I know of is with Sean" Ronon replied.
"Can you take me there?", Sheppard asked him, watching Ronon hesitate.
"Just to see if she's alright", Sheppard told him.
"Fine", Ronon replied. He also wouldn't mind checking that Lyssa was ok. He hadn't expected her to just up and leave. He thought she may have told him her plans.
"She was here, but she only picked up some stuff and then she left", Sean told Ronon, frowning at him.
"Whatever you did to her must have been pretty bad, I've never seen Lyssa looking so upset," Sean remarked harshly, still looking at Ronon.
"Not me, him," Ronon put Sean right.
Sean glared at Sheppard who looked away from him, feeling like a total bastard.
"Did she say where she was going?" Ronon asked.
"Home, that's the only thing she said when I asked her myself".
"Nobody lives here any more", Ronon told Sheppard as they came through the Stargate.
It was absolutely freezing and Sheppard zipped his jacket up.
Sheppard looked at the surrounding area It was desolate and harsh, any buildings had been razed to the ground either by the Wraith or the elements. He followed Ronon and wondered how any one could survive here.
After walking for over an hour Ronon led him to a cave, inside the cave Ronon saw the supplies that Lyssa had gotten off Sean and the fire that had been built up and left burning.
He dropped his pack down and waited for Lyssa to come back.
"So where do you think she is?" Sheppard asked.
"Probably getting as much fire wood as she can", Ronon replied.
Lyssa was coming back when she saw the movement by the cave entrance. She quickly darted back and waited.
Then she saw Sheppard and Ronon and she slipped back further, she was not going to go back while they were there. She grimaced when she realised that she didn't have a thick warm coat on. She'd only gone for more wood and hadn't intended to stay outside long.
But she'd rather freeze than go back in there where he was.
It was getting dark and Lyssa moved between a large tree and the rock face wedging herself in to try and keep out of the blistering cold wind.
She was freezing and to make things worse it started to snow. She pulled her jacket up around her face and leaned back and closed her eyes, hoping to fall asleep so she didn't have to feel the cold any more.
"Do you think something has happened to her?" Sheppard asked.
"No I think she knows we're here and that's why she won't come back", Ronon sighed, he had an idea she might do something like this.
"Damn it why is she doing this?" Sheppard shouted.
"What did you think would happen after your little scenes with Ellie? You took a wild animal and coaxed it into trusting you and then you deliberately hurt it. You won't get her to trust you again so easily, that is if you ever do", Ronon told him.
Ronon stood up and moved to the entrance of the cave.
"Where are you going?", Sheppard asked.
"To look for her", Ronon replied.
"I'll come...", Sheppard began.
"No you stay here just in case she comes back", Ronon told him even though he knew she wouldn't come back if she saw Sheppard.
Ronon didn't have much to track as the snow had covered everything. He tried to remember anywhere she might be, but couldn't. It was pretty dark and he was having a hard time seeing any thing. He was just about to head back to the cave when he saw the dark shadow against the wall. It was Lyssa, wedged in between the tree and the rock, he didn't know if she was alive or dead, she wasn't moving.
"Damn it", he cursed as he tried to feel a pulse, but it was so cold and her skin was like ice so he couldn't detect anything.
"Ronon, what is it?", Sheppard asked when he heard Ronon curse through the radio.
"I found Lyssa", Ronon told him.
"Is she...is she alright?" he asked.
"I don't know, I can't feel a pulse, she's too cold", Ronon answered.
Fifteen minutes later Ronon came through the cave entrance carrying Lyssa, wrapped in his coat. He laid her down and tried again to feel a pulse.
Sheppard was in shock and could only stand there and stare as Ronon checked her over. She was extremely pale and he couldn't see any movement. Couldn't even see if she was breathing.
"There's a faint pulse. We need to get her temperature back up", Ronon told him.
Sheppard threw a couple of thick blankets on the floor near the fire and a couple more ready to throw over the top of her. He glanced at Ronon and saw him stripping her outer clothes off.
He felt a pang of jealousy at how easily Ronon did this. When she was wearing just a bra and panties, Ronon laid her on the blankets and Sheppard threw the other blankets over the top of her.
Ronon looked at Sheppard and grimaced.
"Fine I'll do it myself, seeing as you're not up to it" he bit out.
Sheppard frowned and wondered what was wrong with Ronon. He watched as he took his top off and then began unbuttoning his pants.
"What are you doing?", Sheppard finally asked.
"What do you think I'm doing? I'm going to warm Lyssa up, since you can't", Ronon told him harshly.
"What do you mean, I can't?", Sheppard asked angrily.
"Blankets alone won't keep her alive, she needs body heat", Ronon told him.
Sheppard then realised what Ronon was talking about.
"I'll do it", he told Ronon, who hesitated and looked at him.
"You're sure? I mean it's no hardship for me to look after her", Ronon said sarcastically.
Sheppard glared at him, then stripped down to his boxers. He hesitated for a second before sliding under the thick covers with Lyssa. He shivered as he came in to contact with her, she was still ice cold. He wrapped his arms around her and leaned his body against her, pressing as much of his body against her as he could.
He closed his eyes trying to block out what he'd almost lost, still could lose he thought as he shivered at how cold she still was.
He pressed his face against her cheek.
After a while he could feel her skin warming up. His own body relaxed once her skin lost the coolness.
He rolled on to his back and pulled her with him, pressing her against his side.
He was dozing when he felt her arm slide over his chest, her head moving to rest on his shoulder and her leg came across his hips.
He could feel her breath on his chest, tickling against his skin. He fell asleep, feeling a little more at ease. When he woke a while later he was alone.
He sat up and looked around.
"Ronon, she's gone," Sheppard shouted over to Ronon.
Ronon just pointed to the back of the cave. Sheppard looked and saw her wrapped in Ronon's long coat, leaning against the cave wall, her knees drawn up against her chest.
"Lyssa", he said her name as though he expected her to vanish before his eyes.
He went to get up, then realised he was still only wearing his shorts and he pulled a blanket around himself as he went across to where she was sitting.
"Why'd you leave Atlantis…..you didn't even give me a chance to talk to you properly?", he said and Lyssa didn't look at him straight away.
She was trying to steel her defences against her feelings for him.
When she had awoken earlier, sprawled across his body she had realised just how deeply she still loved him. But he had hurt her. Badly. He had moved on so quickly from their relationship that he couldn't possibly have had any real feelings for her.
"I wanted to be on my own", she replied eventually, risking a glance at him.
"You're going to come back with us though right? We have to at least talk….alone", Sheppard said, glancing round at Ronon who wasn't even bothering to hide the fact that he was listening to their conversation.
"No….I'm not coming back with you and anything you have to say to me you can say in front of Ronon", Lyssa replied stiffly and Sheppard stared at her.
"But Lyssa…", he began but she stood and moved away from him.
"I don't want to come back to Atlantis. There's nothing for me there".
Sheppard stood and moved closer to her but she just glared at him.
"You won't change my mind so don't waste your breath", she said but Sheppard shifted a little closer.
"How can you say there's nothing for you on Atlantis? You've made it your home, you have made some friends and there's……us", he ventured but Lyssa laughed harshly.
"Us? There is no us. You broke it off with me so that you could move on to Ellie, remember?".
"Ellie and I…", Sheppard began but she cut him off angrily saying,
"I don't want to know….I just want you to leave".
"But I don't want you to be alone", Sheppard said but she moved again, closer to Ronon this time though.
"I don't care what you want right now John", Lyssa said then turned to Ronon.
"Would you just get him out of here?", she asked and Ronon nodded.
Lyssa went to take his coat off but he stopped her, placing a hand on her shoulder.
"Keep it", he said gruffly.
"But you'll be cold on the way back", Lyssa protested.
"You'll need it more than me", Ronon replied.
Sheppard began to dress, not that he wanted to leave but walking around in his boxers and a blanket didn't make him feel in control of the situation.
"Are you sure you don't want to come back with us. I care about you too", Ronon said quietly and Lyssa smiled at him.
"I'm sure and I'll miss you but I can't be around him right now", Lyssa replied and Sheppard glanced at them as he pulled his T-shirt on over his head.
"You know where I am if you ever need me", Ronon said pulling Lyssa into his arms and she nodded against his shoulder, squeezing him tightly.
Part of her wished she could ask him to stay with her for companionship but she knew he wouldn't leave Atlantis now that he had Hope to consider.
They pulled apart and Ronon began to exit the cave.
"Time to go", he called to Sheppard who moved closer to Lyssa.
"Please come with us", he tried again but Lyssa shook her head, quietly determined to not cave in.
"Lyssa…", Sheppard began.
"Just go…..please", Lyssa said and he had no option but to do as she asked.
Ronon and Sheppard came back through the gate to find Ellie waiting for them with Weir.
"I take it Lyssa didn't want to return", Weir said and Sheppard shook his head, looking extremely defeated.
"I told her she could contact me here anytime if she needed to", Ronon said and Weir nodded.
"Of course, that's fine".
As they went their separate ways, Ellie followed Ronon.
"I'm sorry Lyssa didn't want to come back", she said and Ronon looked at her.
"Are you?", he asked, his tone cold.
"Of course I am, why wouldn't I be?", Ellie asked.
"I don't know, maybe it would interfere with your relationship with Sheppard", Ronon said, raising an eyebrow at her sarcastically and Ellie's heart filled with dread.
"I don't have a relationship with Sheppard", she said quietly and Ronon turned away from her.
"Whatever. I'll be by to pick up Hope later", he said walking a little quicker and Ellie dropped back, knowing he didn't want her to follow him.
She wanted to make things right with him but he didn't seem interested. She swallowed past the lump in her throat, praying that she hadn't ruined things totally between them.
He'd forgive her for what she'd done. He had to.
The story will continue here on Fanfiction under the title Love Prevails, written by Kazavid and me, ElaineDex.