-Disclaimer: InuYasha is the property of Rumiko Takahashi
Hey, I'm back! I've been getting a lot of interesting comments in PM's and reviews! WOW! Not one single hate message !! You guys were way less understanding when I had a bomb blow up Sesshomaru, his kid, and Kagome and InuYasha's unborn kid in Loss a year ago! LOL
Anyway, I've been getting some questions and comment's, so, hopefully this will help answer and explain some of this.
Many hugs and Puppy Luvs!
I'm off to write some COMEDY!
Mitsukai no Suno--CJ
The Final Scroll II
-It's so unthinkable, Kagome on drugs?
Kagome had many factors working against her. The biggest being that Kagome's first taste of heroin was forced on her by Tek, the man who introduced her to drugs that she met at a party at the university.
Kagome was already drinking heavily, drugs were a next step for her. She was crushed by Sota's death, coming so soon after the loss of the life that she had come to love so much in the Sengoku Jidai, with the loss of the ones she loved, who were now literally dead to her, she had lost everything that was important to her, and she had lost InuYasha, the man she loved desperately. Tek had shown her a way to be rid of the pain. Kagome had been through so much for years, the pain of InuYasha and Kikyo, fighting yokai,constantly being in danger, being kidnapped, having her soul stolen...everyone has a breaking point. Kagome found hers.
- Is Heroin Withdrawal really that bad?
It is worse. I had planned on writing it chapter by day. As in each chapter would have been a day of withdrawal, but after writing the first day, I just couldn't do it. It was too draining. I have never dealt with heroin use, or withdrawal, but I have dealt with other drugs and this was an extremely depressing and difficult project for me.
-I have a hard time seeing Kagome doing any of the things you had her doing when she was on drugs...she's too principled.
Drugs go in my friends, principles go out. As I said at the beginning of every chapter, drugs change people into something ugly. Even perky princesses. That's why I wanted to use Kagome for this story and why I used the nice dreams for prologues to emphasize the drastic changes. As the story progressed into withdrawal I changed the dreams into ugly nightmares to be symbolic for the fact that there is nothing nice, nothing pleasant about that stage of recovery. The memory I used in the final scroll of Kagome's first trip through the well was meant to give a feeling of coming full circle. Kagome's journey with InuYasha beginning and ending in a sense in tragedy.
-Wasn't it a bit soon to have them end up in bed together?
I felt that they were two people who were desperately in
need of the feeling of being loved. Considering the brutality she
allowed with her body in order to get drugs, Kagome needed to know
what it felt like to be touched with love, by someone who loved her
as desperately as InuYasha did. She needed to feel beautiful, like a
beautiful young woman instead of a machine that performed sex acts in
return for a needle filled with dope. Remember that she always
dissociated herself when she was having sex with Gineo, her dealer,
because she couldn't stand the pain, yet at the same time she wanted
the pain as her punishment for killing Sota. She had desperately held
onto this one small piece of herself, her technical virginity, saving
it for InuYasha, on the small prayer that he might save her one last
time. And she held onto that for weeks, and it kept her alive and
For InuYasha, he believed he had screwed up every bodies lives with his decision to seal the well. Despite the fact that his intentions had been purely for Kagome's well being, he blamed himself for every thing down to the last sex act she had performed to get her last fix. It killed him to see her standing there, so painfully thin, her body still showing signs of the abuse men had done to her , that she had allowed them to do to her, and she was blaming herself for what he believed was his fault. When Kagome started calling herself an ugly monster and saying she couldn't and wouldn't be with him, InuYasha got scared of losing her again. He felt a desperate need to show her how beautiful she was to him, and his natural response to that was to take her as his mate for life, an unbreakable bond. Though I guess I could have made that clearer, it was pretty vague as I was nervous about writing that part, I didn't want it to even qualify as a lime.
-Hey, you promised us a happy ending!
Yeah...I kinda caught a lot of people with the ending. They were sure Kagome was going to be dead after the scene in the bathroom and that InuYasha was going to become the next heroin addict or die outright from ODing on the same dragon that Kagome used. But thing is, InuYasha is not a stupid guy, not to say that Kagome is mind you. But Kagome had different factors against her as I already said. I knew that InuYasha would tell the dragon to fuck off. There had to be some victory. But I wanted to show the temptation to InuYasha, the longing to be with Kagome, the pain. and it was an opening to explain where Kagome got the drugs... (Likely, InuYasha was looking around him and figured out because the bathroom was all torn apart like she had been looking for something desperately.)
And, Speaking as a writer, it was an interesting as hell challenge to get into the mind of heroin and attempt to think for it, I couldn't resist doing it one more time...it was to be honest, the only sorta fun part of this project. LOL
As for Kagome...To be honest, I went around and around...I considered everything from HIV, to AIDS, to get busted trying to buy drugs, to her getting shot, stabbed, etc etc etc..finally I decided that she needed to die of an OD.
It wasn't until I was halfway through writing the epilogue that I decided to have her in a persistent vegetative state. I wasn't very clear I guess. Her condition is that she is awake and aware of what is going on around her, but she can't speak, has very little movement, she can see what is happening, follow people somewhat with her eyes and recognize them, she has no control of her bodily functions, she does breathe on her own.
So much of fanfiction is all or nothing. I thought it was time someone left a little to the middle of the road.
Why didn't InuYasha use the Jewel to save Kagome?
To be realistic in the important part of the story. People who OD on drugs don't have a magic jewel to save them. But, I thought I could use it to symbolize the sacrifices the people who love them have to make to take care of them, the things they give up and the hoops they have to jump through, like InuYasha and Shippo giving up their Yokai heritage.
-You left a tiny ray of hope...will there be a sequel?
NO! NO! NO! LOL
And if anyone starts bugging me to write a sequel I swear I will write one where after Kagome's mother dies, they bury her and after the funeral InuYasha smothers Kagome with a pillow then runs off with HoJo who he has been secretly been having a love affair with for twenty years while wearing polyester suits and going commando while Shippo who is also gay is shacking up with both Sesshomaru and Jaken!
Seriously, This one was difficult and depressing enough to write, I don't think I could do it again. I desperately need to write some fun stuff for awhile...as the above should prove.-