A/N: The italics are both set in the present and past. Im sure you all can tell the difference. If not let me know..Emma and Shalimar were once together but they let their pride blind them..
It's catching up to me right now, Everything that I've said, The night I left her there, When I said I wanted out.
" I can't deal with this anymore with you.."I said as I stood up from my bed. Shalimar looked at me with so much pain in her eyes. "What?", Shalimar barely spitted out. I grabbed my jacket and said softly.."I can't..." And with that, I left.
I was angry and upset, And at the time I couldn't care less about staying there, I had to prove I didn't care, As much as she thought I did.
I showed her, I let my pride take me Far away from the only woman I loved, I showed her, Now she has found someone new...
Days turned into weeks, weeks into months and I watched the woman I loved with all of my heart be in someone elses' arms. I could barely take it. But my pride got in the way. I watched Shalimar cuddle with Maggie, another feral. I watched them closely from the computer monitor and sucked back my tears. 'I won't let her see me cry..I don't care'
And her life will go on, And I'm all alone, But I showed her.
I hear that she's in love...
I heard from Brennan and Jesse that Emma was always out with a mystery woman named Lauren. I cringed at the thought. Jesse comes up to me and says, "I think Emma's in love. She seems so happy.." I rolled my eyes as my heart sanked at the bottom of my stomach.
But it took a while for her to get over the hurt, Now I know that I messed up, I was trying to give us time...
"Shalimar you really don't understand do you?" Emma questioned me. I looked at her and then my eyes dropped to the floor. She spoke up and said "I hate running around in circles with my feelings. One minute you want me and the next you brush me off." I quickly said, "No..I just-I'm sorry. I was trying to give us time.."
But I see she took that time to find somebody else, What happened to the things she felt for me, Am I really a part of her past
I watched as Emma trained with Lauren. She used to always train with me. Lauren was taking the only person I've ever loved and I want to yell and scream at Emma. But I wont show her my feelings. I just can't..
I showed her, I let my pride take me far away, From the only woman I loved...
I don't care. She can be with whoever she wants. But everytime I look at her, I melt and I want to grab her and tell her that I love her and that I am sorry. But I don't. I just don't care..
I showed her, Now she has found someone new, And her life will go on, And I'm all alone, But I showed her...
(Both women stare at one another as both Lauren and Maggie left sanctuary. Emma was looking down at the floor until she felt the ferals emotions run through her. She connected eyes with Shalimar and they both searched each others eyes. Not a word came out of their mouths...
Emma and Shalimar's POV:
I showed her. I let my pride take me far away, From the only woman I loved, I showed her, Now she has found someone new, And her life will go on, And I'm all alone...
And with a word not said..Both women turned and walked away into their rooms showing each other their pride and not their love.
I showed her..
A/N. Thank you all for taking you time and reading this fic. Means alot. Especially since its my first fic.