Okay yeah this is a little late, but my computer has been having a lot of problems lately and hasn't been so I know everyone is currently kinda angry with me. But here is what happened through Namine's eyes…let's see what was going on in her head. This is going to be the last chapter from Namine's POV. Hope you all like.
Bold Italics- Inner self
'What have I done?'
That question continued to run through my mind as I looked down at the dull stone ground below me, only faintly aware that someone had knelt down in front of me.
"Namine…what happened to you?"
A soft gasp escaped my lips as I instantly recognized the owner of the voice…probably the last person that I wanted to deal with at the moment.
I forced myself to look up at his face, tears already streaming down my face like a waterfall when our eyes met. It was hard for me to maintain eye contact after what I had done, what would he think of me when he finds out? I swallowed the lump that had formed in my throat before speaking.
"So good of you to finally join us Riku," Xemnas's voice sounded through the entire area.
Riku turned around instantly, forming a sort of protective stance in front of me. Xemnas didn't seem at all intimidated by Riku's actions, a small smirk forming slightly on his blank face. I noticed his evil eyes glint mischievously before he spoke again.
"It seems Saix was truly no match for you after all…though it seems you didn't escape that fight unscathed," he stated.
It was then I noticed the rather large gash on his side. My hands came up to my mouth to cover the silent gasp.
I watched his hand move to cover up part of the injury. Though it was not bleeding at the moment, the wound could open up at any moment. I looked up to the back of Riku's head, his silver hair danced slightly in the wind as he stood.
"Riku y-you're…'hurt'" I couldn't finish my sentence, tears were threatening to fall once again as I gazed at him with concern.
"What the hell did you do to her?" I heard him question.
My eyes widened, he was badly injured…and yet he still was concerned with what happened to me? I lowered my head to the ground, I didn't want him to fight anymore…he didn't have to fight for me anymore. I had betrayed him, the person I loved, I didn't deserve his protection.
"The memory witch's power has allowed me to uncover the memories I need to finally open the door," he explained as he begun to lower his arms, "It was all thanks to her that I will finally be able to achieve my goal!" he exclaimed and broke into a fit of laughter.
I couldn't control my tears any longer, now Riku knew the truth. I had allowed my powers to be manipulated by Xemnas for his evil plans. I could feel Riku's strong gaze boring down on me, even though I wasn't looking at him, which only seemed to increase the guilt in my heart.
"Namine," Riku's spoke, his voice monotone, I couldn't comprehend the emotion he was feeling through his voice, and I was too scared to look into his eyes.
"I-I'm so sorry Riku," I whispered so only he could hear, "I didn't mean to…"
'But it happened, and there was nothing to prevent it…he's going to hate you.'
'N-No that's not true.'
'You betrayed him, you allowed Xemnas to use you…how do you think he will react?'
I lifted my hands to my head to stop my mind from moving to such things. The thought of Riku hating me felt like thousands of hot knives piercing through my chest, I couldn't bear it.
"I'm sorry…I'm sorry…I'm so so sorry," I continued to ramble, completely unaware of Riku kneeling down in front of me.
I broke from my trance when his hands made contact with my shoulders. I took a deep breath before bringing myself to look at him and immediately moved my eyes over to the side, unable to bear the strong power of his aqua orbs.
In that brief moment of eye contact I could see both concern mixed with pure rage.
"Please don't look at me like that," I spoke as more tears fell from my eyes, "How can you even stand to look at me after what I had done?"
He was silent for a moment, which only seemed to make the air around us tense. Maybe it was better if he didn't respond, then I didn't have to know of the anger he must be feeling towards me.
"Namine…" he began, but stopped as I started to violently shake my head.
I felt my heart began to rip in two and placed my hand over my chest, my grip tightening as the pain increased. Was this what it was like to have a broken heart?
"Please don't say anything Riku," I said while moving my head to meet his gaze, "I can't bear to hear you say that you hate me."
I noticed his eyes widen at my response.
"Namine I-" he stopped mid-sentence, his eyes narrowing a slight fraction.
Suddenly I felt Riku pull me against him and moving me away from my spot on the ground. The sound of a blade clashing in the area I was just sitting in reached my ears. I leaned against his chest for a moment, why did he save me?
"You okay?" I heard him ask as he helped me to sit up.
I was in a complete state of shock that I couldn't properly respond to his question. I just sat there, paralyzed, unwilling to allow myself to move. I kept my eyes stationed on Riku's feet as I contemplated the reason for his actions.
"I think you have bigger things to worry about Riku," Xemnas cut in, followed by the clashing of weapons.
The occasional sound of keyblades colliding with each other passed through my ears, but it didn't break my concentration.
'Why did he save me? I thought he would have hated me after he found out, but…he still saved me anyway…Why?'
"Namine!" Riku called out to me, his voice sounded as if it were in pain.
I made a small head movement to indicate that I was listening to him, though I was still too cowardly to look up at him.
"I don't hate you."
A soft gasp escaped my throat and I began to feel shivers travel up my spine. But it was my fault that Xemnas had regained his memories, he had every right to despise me. I heard him grunt painfully as if attempting to move out of the way from an attack.
"It wasn't your fault," he stated as he continued to fight against his adversary, "You don't have to blame yourself for something you couldn't control!" he exclaimed.
It wasn't my fault? For some reason those words meant a lot to me. Slowly I felt relief begin to wash through me, happy that Riku didn't hate me as I initially thought. It was enough to break me from the despair and guilt that held its hold on me.
"It seems that are evenly matched Riku," Xemnas spoke, "However this time…I have the upper hand."
His words caused me to look up to them, my eyes widening in fear. The wound on his side had been reopened at some point in their fight. I noticed Xemnas's blade hastily move to that area of weakness.
Flashbacks of the dream that I had so many nights ago speeding through my eyes and haunting me again…except this time it was Xemnas and not Saix.
'NO!!' My mind screamed as Xemnas tore through the flesh of Riku's side, blood flying in every direction.
"You were never any match for me boy," Xemnas said as he prepared for a final attack.
I stood up, my heart crumbling as Riku fell to the ground. This can't be real…my dream can't come true. A small bit of relief filled me as Riku weakly pulled himself up to his knees. Xemnas stood several feet away from him, charging his blades before making his strike.
"This is the end of the line Riku," Xemnas stated before running to make the fatal blow.
"NO!!" I screamed and took off in a run, desperate to reach Riku and heal him before Xemnas killed him.
I was determined not to allow what my powers had shown me to become a reality, I would make it no matter what.
"Die boy!!" Xemnas exclaimed as he lifted his weapon to finish Riku off.
'I won't let him die!' I thought as I stopped in between them, my arms spread out to protect him from the hit.
An overwhelming pain suddenly overtook my entire body, and it had grown increasingly difficult for me to breathe. I allowed my eyes to look down to see the cause of this agonizing burning only to see an aerial blade had pierced my through the chest. My vision slowly began to grow darker and I began to make several coughing sounds as an attempt to intake air into my lungs.
My eyes slowly moved to Riku, his eyes widened in shock at the scene in front of him. I felt my body growing weaker by the second…at least he was safe. I yelped in pain as Xemnas pulled his blade out of my body, I had never experienced such agony. Without the support of his weapon, my body began to fall, collapsing into Riku, who had moved me into a comfortable position. I struggled to intake oxygen into my body as my eyes started to close slightly.
"Why?" I heard him ask and felt him begin to shake me, "Why did you do that?!" he practically screamed.
I struggled to open my eyes to meet his worried ones, I was so happy that I made it…and I didn't regret taking the hit for him. My arm felt like it weighed a ton as I extended it upward until my hand was touching his face. I savored the moment as my thumb caressed his jaw line, he was so warm compared to me.
"I d-didn't…want my d-dream to become a reality," I whispered as I allowed a single tear to fall down my cheek.
His eyes narrowed at my response, secretly telling me that that wasn't a good enough excuse. I felt my body functions begin to slowly shut down, I didn't have much time left. I summoned a healing spell to my hands, allowing the chakra to flow through Riku's body.
'I…need to stay alive…at least long enough to do this,' I thought as my MP began to drain from my dying body.
"You…You should heal yourself Namine. Please," I heard him plead, now fully aware of what I was doing.
I smiled, not complying with his request, I only had enough power to heal one of us. It was Riku's destiny to fight Xemnas, not mine, besides…I loved him and I was not about to let him stop me from doing this.
"I'm…so glad that…I-I was able to protect you…a-at least once…Riku," I whispered, my voice had begun to grow weaker.
His eyes narrowed at me when I didn't listen and wrapped his hand around my own in an attempt to pull it away from him, "Namine…enough, you won't be able to heal yourself if you continue," he said as I fought back to keep my hand on his cheek…he was so warm compared to my cold skin. I didn't even feel the pain of the fatal wound in my chest anymore, I felt nothing except the warmth of his body. I could feel that he was almost completely recovered.
I let out a small breath, "It…doesn't matter," I said as I kept my eyes focused on his face, I wanted him to be the last thing I saw before I died.
His brow furrowed in frustration, his face twisted in pain and helplessness, "Yes it does!" he exclaimed.
I chuckled, he sounded so childish right now. My thumb once again began to caress his cheek, now was the time for me to say how I truly felt.
"Y-You know something Riku?"
I waited until his aqua eyes were looking into my own eyes, his figure growing blurry every now and then…I didn't have much time. Even on my deathbed I still felt nervous in expressing my feelings for him, I swallowed my pride…this may be the last chance I have to tell him. He looked at me, waiting for what I had to say.
I felt tears begin to fall down my face, "I-I…I have…I have always loved you," I said as my eyes started to close on their own. I finally managed to say it.
I felt his body tense at my words, "What?"
When I didn't respond right away, he shook me, death wasn't far away now…and I only had a small amount of MP left as well. I willed myself to open my eyes once more, I had a feeling this would be the last time I had the strength to open them again.
"Since the day we first met…I fell in love with you Riku," I watched his eyes widen at the shock of the statement, "I was…always afraid to tell you, I-I guess it was better…that I say it now than never."
I watched as his eyes narrowed, full of rage, desperation, and something else I couldn't put my finger on…I began to intake short breaths, my lungs hurting with the more oxygen I inhaled.
"Stop healing me!! Save yourself Namine!!" He shouted.
My eyes filled with tears, I hated seeing Riku this way. I didn't like to be the one that caused him pain…I wanted to take that pain away, it seemed that only one solution that came to mind, I could feel my heart breaking into pieces.
"I-I'll erase your memories of m-me…it will be as…" I paused to catch my breath, "As if…you never met me."
He leaned down to rest his forehead against mine, causing me to lose my breath…I had never been this close to him before. I closed my eyes, savoring our last moments together.
"I don't want that!! I want you to stay with me!!" he exclaimed.
My eyes shot open at his statement and I felt more tears begin to fall down my face. I'm sorry Riku…I'm sorry it had to end this way, if you only knew how much I wanted to be with you…well now you know, but its too late…my life is almost over.
"I-I want to…so bad m-my heart aches," I paused to take a breath, "I…wish I could stay."
My eyes had begun to close once again and my body felt cold…so this was what it was like to die. It wasn't as bad as I had imagined.
"Namine!" Riku called out to me, shaking me again.
Wait…there was one more thing I had to do before I died. I weakly moved my arm to the back of his neck, pulling myself closer to his face. I felt so weak, I could hardly pull myself up to reach him. His eyes looked to me with confusion.
I placed my lips on top of his, not allowing him to finish his sentence. Kissing him gave me the most wonderful sensation I had ever felt in my life. I could tell he was stunned by my actions by the way his body tensed under mine. I took this opportunity to give him the rest of my remaining MP, his body was now completely healed.
I pulled away from him, allowing a smile to form on my face. He could fulfill what he needed to do now.
"Y-You can defeat Xemnas now Riku," I stated while resting my head against his shoulder.
I felt utterly exhausted, all I wanted to do was rest. I let out a deep breath before closing my eyes. I felt something wet land on my cheek. Was he crying for me? I couldn't think straight anymore, everything seemed so quiet now, my body's functions had fully shut down.
"I…love you Ri…ku."
It was the last thing I was able to say before death had taken its firm hold on me.
'I don't regret saving you…and I would do it again if I had to.'
Well that's it for Namine's story. I was crying as I wrote this…well tell me what you think. If you want to find out what happens next, keep an eye out for Riku's chapter. Read, Review, etc.