Wow guys, I am so sorry it took so long to update this. I can give you a thousand reasons why but I'm just asking for you guys to forgive me. This is a stand alone ( maybe), therefore it does not go along with Broken Promises. My next update ( hopefully) will be the next chapter of that. This takes place during LIAB ( tear), in Alex's POV. Also, as a treat and hopefully to make up for the lateitude, paige4alex made a vid for this one. Its on youtube. Check it out. Give it plenty of comments because it deserves it. On with the fic!!


Stay With Me

Alex, I'm done…those 3 words have resounded in my head a million times since yesterday. It hurts, a lot. But I can't say I didn't see it coming. Ever since I moved into the Uni House, things have been different. She said she would help me, that I had her, but I never really did.

Raindrops, Fall From, Everywhere
I Reach Out, For You,But
Your Not There

I stayed at Jay's place last night, where else could I go. I used to hate him after what happened with Amy but now he seems to be the only person I can lean on. I'm on my way to the Uni House but I have no idea what's gonna happen. She could either realize that she made a mistake or completely desert me. My money's on the latter…if I had any that is. Taking out my phone, I stop, looking at my background picture. It was of her and me after the dance. We both had wide smiles on our faces. We were completely content that night. Finally, after all the fighting and the drama, we were back together. And it was right. She sent me the picture from her phone with the message 'I love you my sweetheart' though I was standing right next to her. If didn't love her before, I fully and truly loved her then. But now, after 3 weeks, it's over. I send her a quick text letting her know I'm on my way there. I'm tempted to change the picture, but I'm not quite ready to yet.

So I Stood, Waiting,In The Dark
With Your Picture, In My Hands
Story Of a Broken Heart

As I walk, I can't help but think of us. From the movie premiere, to make out sessions instead of study ones, to whip cream fights at the mall, to the night she brought falafel. We may have struggled, but we had it all. We were destined, we were gonna make it. I know that, she knows that. I'll hold on that to truth for as long as it takes. Stay With MeDon't

Let Me Go
Cause I Can't Be Without You
Just Stay With Me

It always came down to her. It's always been me and her. Even when we hated each other, there was always that pull there. There was something in her I needed, wanted, craved since the first moment I saw her. I always thought it was jealously that made me hate her, or just because she was the bitch that she was or maybe even the small amount of fear. But it was that something that took me 2 years to figure out. The attraction, the desire, the love…it was all the reasons why I fought to keep her in my life. That's why I convinced Meerie to let her work back at the theatre, that's why I went to back Degrassi. It was all for her.

And Hold Me Close
Because I've Built My World Around You
And I Don't Wanna Know What's It Like Without You
So Stay with Me, Just Stay With Me

I've done a lot of dumb things in my life, this pass two weeks probably topped them all, but I deserve more don't I? I had plans. I was gonna apply to Toronto U and maybe even Banting. Not sure if I can afford it but I was gonna try. Last year I lost her because I couldn't figure out my future. I decided this year would be different, as it should. We would be together, go to school, get our degrees, and go road tripping after graduation. I would have showed the world that a poor, fatherless delinquent can make something of herself. And maybe I still will do all those things. It won't be same, not without her, but I guess I have got to make my own future now, whether she's along for the ride or not.

I'm Trying And Hoping, For The Day
When my touch is enough

To Take The Pain Away

Cause I've Searched For So Long
The Answer Is Clear
We'll be OK if
We Don't Let It Disappear
I've searched my heart over
So many many times
No you and I, is like no stars to light the sky at night

Paige. There, I said it. I couldn't before because it hurt too much. Paige. My world, my everything. She loved me once. I felt it, still feel it. Other things just mean more now. Cause she fought for me just as much as I fought for her. And then she stopped. And she let me down. Just like everyone else. I'm minutes away from her house now and I'm dreading every second because I'm already crying. I don't even know when it started but now I can't seem to stop.

Our Picture Hangs Out Of To
Remind Me Of The Days
You Promised Me We'd Always
And Never Go AwayThat's Why I Need You To Stay

It was suppose to be worth it, everything I went through in my life. Love was supposed make it all disappear. But it didn't. And I'm alone, as I've always been. I want to hate her. I should hate her. But I can't. I can be angry and hurt and even want to hurt her back but my love for her will still be there, being that something that pulls my heart.

Stay With Me
Don't let Me go
Cause I Can't Be Without You
Just Stay With Me

I finally reach the door but stop for a second before opening it. This it is. This is the moment that decides my future. In the cold of the morning, I face this destiny. Taking a deep breath after wiping my face clean of tears, I open the door.

And Hold Me Close
Because I've Built My World Around You

And I Don't
Wanna Know What's It Like Without You
So Stay with MeJust Stay With Me

Marco leaves as soon as I come in. I guess he doesn't want to be around to see whatever may happen. We used to be friends; he used to care about me too. I guess I'm just not that important anymore. Not being able to meet her eyes yet, I look down and immediately see the only thing I have left in the world…a small, blue duffle bag. Great world eh? My eyes try meet hers, an unbelieving expression on my face, but she can't seem to face me either.

"I think everything's in there," Her voice is emotionless, as if it doesn't hurt. I admit my defeat and set her keys on the table and pick up my bag. "Where are you gonna go?"

"My mom has a cousin in Ajax. I'll find a job. I've got options." I lied of course. And I can tell a part of her knows. But she doesn't want me around anymore so I'll go. She gets up and walks up to me.

"Look, I'm sorry," I don't quite believe that but I'll let her go on. "I thought it would be good for you here."

"Yeah, but I was still alone. Lost into your fantasy world." She looks into my eyes.

"This is the right thing to do," she pauses, "but it still hurts." Kicking me out, yeah, that hurts. But instead of anger I show her my compassion and smile a little, grabbing her hand.

"You make it sound like cough syrup." Leave it to me to try to add a levity to the situation. She smiles, putting her head down. I look into her eyes one last time before walking out of the door and out of her life. I take a seat on the steps, hoping that maybe, just maybe, she'll come after me. After about 5 minutes, I finally decided to get up and leave. But a part of me will always remain on those steps, silently waiting in the darkness for her and our love… for the day that we'll be Palex again.

don't leave
so I stay waiting in the dark...

Not sure how I felt about this one honestly but there it is. Hopefully, I can find some time in the next week or so to update again. Also, I'm looking for some art folks ( those that can make like wallpapers and stuff like that) for my series. Not in desperate need but it would help to have at least one more person. Please, please, please, if you know someone, send them my way!! Thanks for reading guys and all the supports. Much love.