#004 of The Big Damn Table challenge on LJ - Insides. I'm not making a claim, because I have no doubt my claim has already been made.

Disclaimers: If I owned Torchwood, I assure you, things would have been an awful lot different.

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Inside, Jack longed for love. He longed to be able to hold someone in his arms, knowing that he was theirs and they were his.

Inside, Jack hated himself. He hated the way he made others feel, hated himself for killing Lisa. He hated himself for causing Ianto pain.

Inside, Jack wanted Ianto. He wanted to love him, make love to him and be loved by him. He wanted Ianto to know that he was sorry, that he didn't want to see him hurt, and that yes, he did know what it was like be love - and be in love with - someone. He knew what it was like to love Ianto.

Inside, Jack knew he'd never be loved by Ianto. He knew his dreams would forever stay that way.

Just dreams.

Inside, Ianto longed for true love. He longed to love and be loved. He longed to be held by someone, knowing that they were his and he was theirs.

Inside, Ianto hated himself. He hated himself for not being perfect, hated himself for letting Lisa be killed, and for not loving her. He hated himself for lying to Jack and causing him pain.

Inside, Ianto wanted Jack. He wanted to be loved by him, made love to by him and to openly love him. He wanted Jack to know that he was sorry, that he didn't want to see him hurt, and that he loved him more than anyone else in the world.

Inside, Ianto knew he'd never be loved by Jack. He knew his dreams would forever stay that way.

Just dreams.