Coma White

Disclaimer: don't own Degrassi or this song

Something is cold and blank behind his smile

He's standing on an overpass

In his miracle mile

''You were from a perfect world

A world that threw me away today

Today to run away''

A pill to make you numb

A pill to make you dumb

A pill to make you anybody else

But all the drugs in this world

Won't save him from himself

Craig sat alone in his bedroom, feeling sick as he usually did when he was in rehab. He had seen movies, television shows about how drugs were bad for you and how they ruined your life, but when he experienced all the physical pain, the anguish, the guilt and the sickness,he suddenly felt like an idiot who deserved to suffer.
He had tried to smile in front of the doctors and everyone, but his smile was cold and blank. Everyone could tell he was faking it, but they didn't tell him of course.

His mouth was an empty cut

And he was waiting to fall

Just bleeding like a polaroid

That lost all his dolls

''You were from a perfect world

A world that threw me away today

Today to run away''

A pill to make you numb

A pill to make you dumb

A pill to make you anybody else

But all the drugs in this world

Won't save him from himself

In a way, cocaine had done exactly what he wanted it to do.
It had made him feel numb and stupid as long as he wanted it to be.
More importantly, it had made him feel like he was someone else. Someone who didn't get his ex-girlfriend pregnant, so she could get an abortion.
Someone who didn't hurt th woman he loved the most, by pretending his feeling for her were a lie.
He wanted the drugs to save him from himself, but they failed just like he knew they would.