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"Edward, please! Just think about it! Is the thought of spending eternity with me that absolutely horrible?!" I screamed. We were having another argument about my mortality, and as always Edward wouldn't even think about changing me. Stupid stubborn vampire.
"Bella, I will not take away your soul." His eyes smoldered at me trying to dazzle me out of the argument. I held my ground staring defiantly back at the absurdly gorgeous creature in front of me. I could feel my resolve slipping as his sweet breath caressed my face.
"Then I- I'll find someone else to do it." I said slightly stumbling over the words. He smiled knowing his persuasion was working. I narrowed my eyes at him trying to show that I wasn't backing down. But, sigh, I knew I was lying to myself.
"No you won't, I will not let you, I will keep you with me all the time if I have to." He smiled and at vampire speed he was in front of me wrapping his stone arms around me. I tried to keep the stubborn expression plastered on my face but a smile crept up instead thinking of being with him ALL the time.
"That doesn't sound too bad." I shrugged giggling lightly. His ringing laugh filled the room at my reply. I soon joined in on the amusement until we were both sitting on the bed in each other's arms chuckling softly.
"I love you Bella." Edward said softly staring into my eyes. I was lost in the topaz orbs in front of me getting sucked in to their endless depth.
"I love you Edward." I murmured leaning towards his cold full lips. He met mine halfway and returned the sweet kiss.
Faster than I could comprehend the light in my room was turned off, I was underneath my covers, and Edward was no where in sight. I heard footsteps outside my door and smiled to myself, rolling over so it would look like I was trying to go to sleep.
"Bell?" Charlie's husky voice asked as light from the hall poured into my room.
"Yeah?" I replied, yawning for effect. I was most definitely getting better at this.
"Nothing, I thought I heard someone else in here." He shook his head and laughed lightly to himself.
"Nah, I was just laughing at an e-mail from Renee," I lied. "Night Dad." I said lovingly rolling to my other side.
"Night Bell." Charlie whispered closing my door softly. Moments later I heard his bedroom door shut and felt a cold body slide next to me.
Edward's arms wrapped around my waist and I sighed contentedly. "Bella?" Edward's musical voice murmured into my ear. I rolled over so I could face him.
I cocked my head to the side in reply. "Bella, why do you want to be like me?" He paused putting a slender finger to my lips as I tried to answer. "Why do you want to be damned to eternal darkness? Bella, this is no life for you. You love the sun and its warmth how would you feel if you could never go outside in the sun again if anyone was watching? You would have to leave Charlie and Renee and everyone you love." His voice drifted off.
"I would have you." I stated matter of factly. "Forever." I stared into his eyes and tried to make him see my love as I felt it.
"You already have that." He said cupping my chin in his hand. I shook my head.
"Not forever Edward. I will die someday. I have maybe eighty years, probably less knowing me and my clumsiness. I will get old and wrinkly my hair will fall out and I won't be able to take care of myself." I said disgustingly, cringing at that thought.
"I will take care of you." Edward whispered stroking my cheek.
"Edward. What happens when people think I am your mom? Yourgrandmother!" I could have gagged at the idea of someone thinking Edward was my grandson.
"I will love you Bella. That's what will happen. We will be happy and together." His body was now securely pressed against mine; one of his hands was on my lower back and the other cupping the back of my head, gently running his fingers through my hair.
"I can't be happy like that Edward. You will be young and beautiful forever. I won't be." I turned away from him feeling the need to cry.
"You will always be beautiful to me Bella." His voice was soothing. Pleading almost.
I shook my head. "It can't be like that Edward." My heart clenched at the notion of leaving my angel, but I knew I couldn't grow old when he didn't. I couldn't live like that.
"Why not Bella?" I could hear invisible tears in his voice.
"Because Edward it can't be like that." I closed my eyes willing sleep to over take me, so I wouldn't feel what I was.
"What would be different other than staying young Bella? What could possibly be better than what we have now?" I opened my eyes knowing there was no way he was going to let me sleep after what I had said.
"What would be different other than staying young Bella? What could possibly be better than what we have now?" I asked hoping to whatever Lord there was that she would see that nothing could be better, nothing could stop our love for each other.
I heard a quiet sigh escape her mouth and she rolled over so her angelic face that was damp with tears could look straight at me. I watched as she struggled to sit up. I put by hand on her lower back and helped her to an upright position before I did the same and scooted back so that my back rested against the wall.
"Do you want to know what would be different Edward?" Her voice was pained. I knew she wanted to be changed but I couldn't take that all away from her. I wouldn't.
I nodded and she took a deep breath, causing her scent to pour through my sinuses. I momentarily dazed and when my vision cleared and I could process thought functionally Bella was now strattling my legs. I blinked a couple of times looking down at her pale skin that covered her slim legs that rested on either side of my legs. Her boxer short pajama bottoms left little to the imagination.
"Edward if I were a vampire like you, you could kiss me without holding back." I felt shock fly over my face at her words. My Bella was saying this?!!! I looked at her through wide eyes. She licked her lips swiftly and I could tell she was debating on whether or not to do something. I waited patiently; I could almost hear my dead heart race. "Edward, if I were a vampire," She took my icy hand in her warm one and started raising it towards her. She took another deep breath. "If I were a vampire you could do this without wanting my blood Edward! Without being tempted." I felt myself freeze in surprise. My cold hand rested on Bella's t-shirt right over her breast. Her hand was on top of mine. I could feel the pulse of her beating heart under my palm.
"Edward we could make love, show each other what we mean to each other physically!" My eyes slowly rose to hers. Her cheeks were deliciously flushed; her deep brown eyes stared directly at me pleading to see it her way. I took an unnecessary deep breath and shakily began.
"You want that Bella?" I hoped she did, in my daydreams I wished she felt that same physical attraction to me as I did to her. But that was imagining this was reality and she had just told me that we could make love if she was immortal like me.
She nodded her head shyly as a deeper blush reddened her cheeks. She smiled slightly and looked down. Excitement, relief, happiness, anxiousness, fear, every possible emotion flooded my mind. I reached my hand reluctantly from where it had stayed to her chin pulling it up gently so her eyes would meet mine.
For a second she looked around but cautiously she looked into my eyes. "Bella, you are the single most exquisite being on this earth. I want to make love to you and hold you and kiss you, but I won't pay your soul as that price." She blushed again but nodded against my hand.
Slowly she climbed off of me and back underneath her covers. She snuggled her back to me and I reveled in how perfectly her body fit into mine. I felt her body relax slowly and soon her heart slowed to how it beats when she sleeps.
I smiled and whispered into her ear. "And I'm pretty sure making love doesn't require us both being vampires." I felt her body stiffen for a second and her heart increased its beating. I saw her smile and she snuggled closer to me. I smiled to happy we weren't fighting anymore. I only hoped that my statement was true.
I loved her. I wouldn't ever hurt her. But could I keep the self control doing that? I didn't know. I cuddled my love to me as she slept thinking of how amazing it would be if she was with me for eternity.
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