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Warnings: Kinda none…maybe a little angst, but only cause I'm in an angsty mood. Mwahaha. A little language too. Oh and slash. But der! Anyway, if it becomes offensive to you, STOP, review to notify me…and then go away, cause –points to M rating- Your fault.
Graduation was a sad time for all of them, especially Remus and Sirius, who were officially known as one of the happiest couples in all of Hogwarts, second only to James and Lily. But they didn't count, as they were already doomed to a depressingly boring life together. James intended on proposing on the setting of the sun at graduation.
But Sirius…Sirius didn't have that option. The most he could so is offer a place for Remus to live…with him. But he doubted the young werewolf would go for it. He could hear his babbling nonsense now.
"It's too dangerous. I can't live with anyone. I don't know how the werewolf will react. Bladdy-bladdy-blah."
Sirius didn't want to deal with that. He sat quietly and sadly next to the amber haired boy, his head bowed and his fingers laced into Remus' shaking hands.
Dippet began to call out names, ticking them off one by one. Sirius went first, then Lily and Remus, and then finally Peter and James. Besides the time they were waling up to accept their magical diplomas, James and Lily were gazing into another's' eyes, and Remus and Sirius were avoiding any eye contact at all. Peter was twiddling his thumbs, carefully holding down the sleeves of his over-sized robe. Finally, it was over, and they all shot black and gold sparks into the center of the hall, their throwing up of hats, and cheered. Remus led Sirius out onto the front deck. The sun was still high in the sky, so he asked Sirius for a walk. They wouldn't miss the proposal. James wouldn't let them.
"Glad that's all over, huh, Moony?" Sirius asked, chuckling nervously, his hands snaking into Remus'. "Wasn't sure I could handle much more school."
Remus threw his arms around Sirius' neck and kissed him deeply, letting his fingers roam through his dark hair. Sirius didn't protest, lifting Remus to gain better access to the kiss. He finally pushed him away gently and ran a hand through his thinning and already graying hair. Remus forced a smile.
"What was that all about? Not that I mind…" Sirius joked, noticing the trouble in Remus' eyes. "What's bothering you, Rem?"
Remus shook his head and looked out across the glistening black lake. The dark water rolled in gentle waves with the light breeze of the afternoon. He let his eyes fall shut as the warm sun heated their already flushed skin. Remus reached up to wipe the light sheen of sweat from his brow. Sirius wrapped his arms around Remus' waist and let his fingertips dance along his belt.
"What's going to happen now?" Remus asked quietly, as Sirius thumbed his robes. "Is this goodbye? After all we've been through, is this the end of the line?" Remus turned so that he was facing Sirius, cradled in his arms.
"Not if you don't want it to be, Rem." Sirius whispered back, just as softly. He squeezed Remus' body closer. "That is definitely not what I want it to be. I'm going to miss you too much to let you go."
Remus smiled. "I'd miss you too much too. These past years have been pretty crazy, haven't they?" He glanced up into his eyes and leaning in for a short, quick kiss. The doors creaked open and another couple strolled across the grounds. Alice and Frank. They were so happy, lost in one another, completely oblivious of the world around them. Alice already sported a thick diamond band on her left ring finger. "You see, that's what I want." Remus commented, gesturing towards the happy couple. "Why can't everything be that easy?"
Sirius tilted his head. "You want to get married? It's a fool's life, Remus. You're so bound and restricted and--"
Remus pulled back. "And in love." He finished, his eyebrows furrowed.
"But you're married!"
"And in love." Remus rebounded, putting his hands on his hips.
"What? Are we not in love, Rem? Just because you don't have diamonds wrapped around your pretty little finger?" Sirius didn't understand why he was being like this. They were perfectly fine. Even if it were possible, it wouldn't be probable. He'd want to be pregnant next. Sirius scoffed. "I can't believe this."
Remus frowned deeper and grabbed Sirius' arm and pulled him back. "We are in love, Sirius. I love you, but I just thought it would be nice." Remus gazed as Alice and Frank smiled at each other and disappeared over a hill. Remus turned back to Sirius and wrapped his fingers into Sirius' hair. "Just forget this conversation. It was dumb to bring it up." Remus bowed his head and released Sirius.
Sirius sighed and held Remus' hand. "Where are we going from here, Remus?" He asked, leading him to the old birch tree on the lakeside. The rain had flooded the lake and the water reached up to the roots. The ground sagged beneath them even 10 feet away. Sirius sat on the damp ground and gestured for Remus to sit next to him. Remus cuddled up under Sirius' long, outstretched arm. "Getting married isn't even an option, so let's not waste our time fighting over it. Living together is possible though…"
Sirius cringed as he waited for Remus to reply. This was the touchy subject. Remus wouldn't even let the others be near him over Christmas break at James' house on full moons. He doubted he would even think of allowing a flat mate.
"You want to move in with me?" Remus asked disbelievingly. He sat up straight with wide eyes. "You actually want to share a home with me?"
Sirius sighed. He really really didn't want to go through this. "Yes, Remus, and before you say anything, I want you to know that I didn't givea damn the first moment I found out you were a werewolf and I don't givea damn now. And we'll build you a place to go when you transform and we won't live close to towns or anything but you're going to have to deal with me being around."
Remus laid a finger on Sirius' mouth. He was flushing from lack of air. Remus kissed him and smiled.
"What in the bloody hell are you going on about?"
Sirius tilted his head and furrowed his brow. "You're not going to argue with me?"
"Why would I argue with you?" Remus looked confused. Sirius shook his head and smiled.
"Never mind." Sirius kissed Remus deeply and pulled him to his feet. "Let's go watch that damned Potter kid take the mighty kiss of death." Sirius joked, wrapping his fingers into Remus'.
"At least their in love." Remus grinned. Sirius smacked him playfully in the arm.
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