Perfect

Summery: One-shot: Featuring Luke Skywalker and the song Perfect by Simple Plan. The song fitted so well with certain parts of Luke's life, I couldn't resist. Takes place during Shadows of the Empire.


Luke Skywalker sat alone in the Falcon's cockpit. He, with the unexpected help of Lando, had just escaped from Kothlis, and then from the Executor. He had just almost got caught, but then the hyperdrive started to work again and they got away just in time. After that brief brush, he couldn't help thinking about Vader… he'd have to come to terms with his feelings after that meeting on Bespin sometime…

Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan…?

"No, I don't think I did," Luke said to himself. If it had been Vader's choice, he probably would have been raised much differently…

And do you think I'm wasting
My time doing things I
Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along…

It was true. Vader didn't approve of Luke's involvement with the Rebellion, and he certainly didn't like Luke trying to be a Jedi…

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me…

Luke really did feel like Vader thought he was good enough, but Luke didn't care… much. He couldn't –wouldn't- let Vader change him. He may be a little confused, but he still knew what was right and wrong… and letting Vader change who he was would definitely be wrong…

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect…

They had lost it all. Vader had gone to the Dark Side and because of that, his mother wasn't alive… Luke didn't even know what she had looked like… and Luke knew for a fact that he wasn't perfect.

"I can never be perfect," Luke realized…

Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect…

Of course he couldn't go back now. He was too involved now. Yes, he hadn't tried to get involved, but he had.

Luke sighed…

I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't
Care anymore

Luke thought about the days when he had been just a little boy, and he'd imagined conversations with his father that he thought was dead. Now, Luke couldn't think about the word "father" without getting angry…

And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing' alright

No, if Luke had to fight Vader again, he wouldn't be able to keep his head. He'd fall, just like Vader wanted him to.

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect…

"Nobody's perfect," Luke mumbled.

Except for Leia. She was perfect. She never made any mistakes, she always knew what to do, and she never second questioned her actions. She was so sure of herself. Luke liked to imagine that his mother had been like her…

Nothing's gonna change
The things that you said…

Nothing could make him go back in time and decide not to go to Bespin and learn the truth from Vader. He'd now know for the rest of his life who Vader really was…

Nothing's gonna make this
Right again…

His life could never go back to normal now. For all he knew, they'd be fighting the Empire forever… until they were all killed off. If it came to that, Luke hoped that he'd be killed off first…


Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand…

It wasn't just Vader who didn't understand; no one understood what he was going through, what was happening inside of him. This confusion and turmoil... would anything ever be right again…?

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect

'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be Perfect…


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