A/N: An odd song fic, one shot, Sonic…

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A hundred days have made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face…

And I have to wonder… cause I did wonder if I would ever do so again.

A thousand lies have made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same…

Because it was all a lie, wasn't it? My life was a joke, and even the plans for my demise weren't based on reality… and you and the rest expect me to go back to where I was before?

But all the miles that separate disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face…

But that's something I'm not going to tell you. Even if I'm sure you figured it out after our last encounter.

I'm here without you baby, but you're still on my lonely mind…

I wish I could get you out of there, but no such luck.


I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time…

More than dream, actually. You fill my fantasies, my daydreams, my nightmares.


I'm here without you baby, b
ut you're still with me in my dreams…

Do you realize that, I wonder. Do you have any idea what's it like to want and not have?


And tonight it's only you and me

But you've still got to figure that one out. And be it my damnation or my salvation, I simply can't go on like this…


The miles just keep rollin' a
s the people leave their way to say hello…

Or goodbye. Or simply leave or not say anything. Is that what you were planning to do?


I'
ve heard this life is overrated but I hope that it gets better as we go…

See? I'm back at being sunny side up, dependable fucked up Nick Stokes.

Everything I know, and anywhere I go, it gets hard but it won't take away my love…

There. I said it out loud. I admitted it to myself. I love you. Shouldn't that make everything better?


And when the last one falls, w
hen it's all said and done, it gets hard but it won't take away my love…

In the end it doesn't even matter if you love me back or not. I cannot change what is, anymore that I can change the fact that I nearly died down there. Or the fact that I love you. Or the fact that I'm such a bloody coward I might never tell you Sofia.

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A/N: "Here Without You" is by 3 Doors Down. The madman ramblings are all my own. The madman, however, belongs to CBS or whoever owns CSI rights.