Chapter 6: Decisions

It's like you're a drug
It's like you're a demon I can't face down
It's like I'm stuck
It's like I'm running from you all the time
And I know I let you have all the power
It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
It's like you're a leech
Sucking the life from me
It's like I can't breathe
Without you inside of me
And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

Addicted by Kelly Clarkson.

Is this really my fault…No…but it is…sort of…I think… And I should have been more aware. Heck, with Jake I should of taken the knife with me! I also should of have stayed with Jess… But Dean didn't have to go place a damn deal on me! I can't believe he even felt guilty when he had no idea what really happened…well…at least now he can finally think of himself and others than just me all the time…now that I left. Sam thought as he sat down on a bench in a nearby park.

All of a sudden Sam felt a familiar pain assault his skull. It felt exactly like the last time when he exited the Drug store only this time it was way worse. Time seemed to slow and he couldn't breathe. All he heard was the thumping of his own heart. Immediately his hands rose to his head and he doubled over so much his eyes could see the sitting part of the bench. A couple seconds passed but it felt like hours and he started to thrash around on the bench and moan in pain. Besides the pain that was overwhelming him Sam was grateful that no one had been around this part of the neighborhood at the time because if someone would of seen him like this that would be one looong trip to the hospital. As the pain started to lessen Sam slowly lifted his head to look at the other end of the street when some cars passed by with their headlights looking like a haze of smeared bright paint. That's when he saw her again. The girl. Only this time her image seemed much clearer than last time. As Sam looked at her with curiosity she smiled at him. Sam couldn't help but to notice it made her whole face change. She looked so sad but now she seemed joyful. All though looking at her eyes made him wince. The small misty green orbs looked at him making him feel as though they were penetrating his soul. Before long Sam felt emptiness in the back of his mind and then he started to hear what sounded like a ton of faint whispers until there was only one.

I remember you Sam Winchester.

"W-what? W-who are you" Sam asked speaking aloud and staring at the women in shock.

I think you know…uh oh…

"Uh oh? W-what do you mean by that?" Sam asked, worry coloring his features.

Tick tock…Time is up…better run Sammy…You wouldn't want to miss the dog show.

"I don't understand." Sam said, standing and looking at the girl with confusion written all over his face.

Why…from what I hear, you care about your elder brother Sammy…hmm…guess I was wrong…

"He can die for all I care." Sam said anger visible in his features.

Now you know you don't mean that…your just angry at what he did. But it's not like he did it for himself…he did it for you.

"Shut up." Hissed Sam.

Hmm…you really aren't the same anymore are you? You did change. And now you've become more Angered. Tired. Impatient…a pain in the ass…

"Shut up!" Sam yelled his voice echoing down the abandoned street.

You better rethink what you're doing here Sam……you'll need your brother…sooner than you know…

"How do you know?" Sam asked fuming and his eyes starting to water.

The girl smiled wider. You'll see…

In a blink of an eye the girl vanished.

It's like I'm lost
It's like I'm giving up slowly
It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head
Are mine alone
And I know I'll never change my ways
If I don't give you up now

Sam sighed. What the hell am I supposed to do now? Go find Dean? Well…I guess I could… Sam thought as he started Walking down the street towards the hospital to see if Dean was still there.

An hour later Sam walked inside the hospital's halls towards Dean's room and found that there were a ton of police officers surrounding Dean's room.

"Hey, what happened?" Sam asked unhesitant to the nearest nurse.

Before the nurse responded he heard a voice calling his name.


"Jaye-lynn? What happened!?!" Sam asked the minute she was right in front of him.

"Dean! He disappeared! We don't know where he went!" Jaye-lynn said panicked.


"Excuse me?" asked Jaye-lynn.

"It's…nothing…I'm going to go find him. There's a good chance we won't come back though." Sam said without looking at Jaye-lynn and starting to go back to the elevators when Jaye-lynn stopped him.

"Wait……Sam in case you guys need any help…I-I'd be more than happy to help the both of you again." Jaye-lynn said giving Sam a piece of paper with her name and cell phone number on it.

Sam kindly took the paper and said, "Thanks. I'll call you if I need help with anything….Well…I guess I'll see you later…" Sam said, feeling his cheeks start to burn up.

"Yeah…Bye." Jaye-Lynn said before giving Sam a kiss on the cheek and smiling.

"Bye." Sam said turning and heading for the elevator.

Once Sam was outside again he crossed the street and starting walking towards an ally nearby to get to another block on the other side while he tried to think of the nearest possible crossroad. Once he was in the ally he heard footsteps approaching him and he immediately turned to face the owner of them. It was the man the Demon had been possessing the other day…or rather the Demon.

"Hey there Sammy." The Demon said smiling as a tint of yellow flashed in the man's eyes.

"What do you want?"

"Now…why would you ask such a question?" the demon asked still smiling and staring at Sam with a look of pure hunger and restlessness. "Now Sam…I would think of all others you'd know what I want correct?" The Demon said still staring at Sam.

"Look…I don't know why you're here still and bothering me but I have to go find my brother…and I think you've heard plenty of times…maybe not from me…but I'm not coming with you and I'm not going to go around killing things for some Demon…now back-off!" Sam shouted starting to get impatient.

"Now Sammy lets not jump to conclusions…Oh and let's get some things cleared shall we? You may not be a killer Sammy and you might not act like one…but what you carry is like this…this…disease. Get what I'm saying? You may not kill people but you cause death itself. You're an unlucky charm. Simple as that. Now…as for me…well you know what a Demon is right? And no I'm not talking about Demon's being some kind of horrible monster from hell. What I'm talking about is what a Demon is…you see what we are is basically nothingness that has a look to it. Now tell me…can you destroy that?"

Sam looked at him blankly.

"I thought not…it's not logical…I mean let's say you blew up the whole universe with this bomb right? And there's nothing left…well that's exactly it. There's nothing left. So technically there is something left. Nothing. Now you see what you're dear brother did about a year ago to me…was…well. All he did was send me somewhere where there's almost nothing…it wasn't exactly what you'd call hell. Get the picture." The Demon asked grinning at Sam.

"I still don't understand…why are you here…how did you get here? And what exactly do you mean by an unlucky charm!?!" Sam asked really annoyed.

"Ok. Well I think we all know pretty much why I'm here. And how did I get here? Simple. I slipped threw some holes. Now about the unlucky charm. You do know your brother's dead because you're here right? You do know that you killed Jake with the gun your hands held right? And you do know the reason that I killed Jess and your precious mother was because of you right? Or are you just blind?"

"Don't say that ever again." Sam growled looking at the Demon straight in the eye.

"What's the matter…you don't want to face the cold truth Sammy? You afraid that Dear old me is going to go shopping in your nightmare's later? Or are you regretting the very last thing you said to your brother. I'm telling you Sammy you'd be better without him…anyone. You'd be better coming with me…so…what do you say…me…or…whatever it is that you've got left."

It's like I can't breathe
It's like I can't see anything
Nothing but you
I'm addicted to you
It's like I can't think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts
In my dreams
You've taken over me
It's like I'm not me
It's like I'm not me

"No…I'm not going with you." Sam said staring hard into the Demon's eyes.

The Demon smiled, "You sure about that…come on Sammy…it's Decision time."

I'm hooked on you
I need a fix
I can't take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
I'll handle it, quit it
Just one more time
Then that's it
Just a little bit more to get me through this

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- Emberseve