A/N: okay so this is my story i had it in my head forever and i finally wrote it down. No, i am not finished with The Kidnapping, i'm working on it, i've had band camp for the past two weeks and school starts next Thursday. Okay so in this story, Bella never put her mortality up to vote and Edward never proposed, i'll be adding more chapter as it comes to me so keep reading this isn't a oneshot, i'll add more than one chapter.

Disclaimer: fan: YOU OWN TWILIGHT?!?! voice dripping with sarcasm oh yes and i'm the queen of Spain end sarcasm NO! stupid i don't own Twilight or New Moon

BPOV

I sat on my bed thinking about the current situation that has been haunting me since Italy. I am so breakable, why on Earth would Edward even want me to stay this way? So that eventually I die and oh my gosh, so he can finally move on? Is that why, so that he didn't have to have me around forever. Did he not want me forever. I want him, I love him. Tears slowly began to brim over my eyes, and slowly one by one, I looked to my hands, which were folded neatly in my lap. I let each tear fall onto my jeans. One tear for every lost year that I get older, the more I thought about it the more tears fell onto my lap. I heard a noise in front of me. I looked up to see Edward, kneeling in front of me. His hands found mine. He looked into my eyes with a gazed filled with pain.

"What's wrong Bella?" His voice dripped with concern.

"You, you don't want me?" It wasn't a question, it was an accusation. That was the only reason that he wouldn't change me, that made sense to me. His eyes widened in horror. He pulled into his strong embrace.

"Bella where on Earth did you come up with that silly question. You know that I love you and will always want you", I was sobbing now.

"That isn't true, because it's impossible, you want me forever" He pulled away so he could look directly into my eyes.

"Bella I will be with you forever, never doubt that, I'll never leave you, ever, I will stay with you forever, not a day less", He was staring at me with a direct look of love and passion. Another tear rolled down my cheek.

"I'll have to leave you some day, is that what you want?" Terror struck his face followed by pain.

"If, if you out grew me I'd understand" I put my hand on his cheek.

"I could never out grow you Edward, but I meant I'll have to leave you" his eyes widened "When I die, I don't get a forever like you Edward. Humans just can't " I whispered "No matter how much I wish we could" I looked down. More tears falling.

"But why would you not think that I wanted you?" He was so confused.

"You won't change me, the only reason is that you don't want me forever. You seem willing enough to leave me be the way I am, normal, breakable, mortal. You think that I don't know what's best for me or that you don't want to do this to me, but why? Because you don't want me forever no matter how much I want you, want this" More tears fell. He kissed each one away.

"You truly want this? You really want to be a cold, soulless, monster, like me?" He looked into my eyes hoping I would say no.

"You are not a cold, soulless monster, because you love me don't you? And yes I want to be with you always and forever. Because being human is pure torture" more tears, God would these tears never stop. He wiped the tears away.

"But what about your family?" I smiled.

"You know that I would fly away one day, because I have trouble keeping my feet on the ground", I laughed.

"Oh and why is that?" He smiled that gorgeous half grin.

"Because our love gives me wings" He pulled me into his arms, and kissed my forehead.

"Silly Bella all angels have wings" He kissed my hair and sadly sighed. "By the way I'm sorry"

"For what?"

"Angels should never cry", He said as he wiped away another escaped tear. "Bella you know that I really do want to change you, but I don't want to hurt you, I am a naturally greedy creature, of course I wanted you from the beginning forever" Was he really going to give me what I wanted?

"Edward you know that I trust you, I can do it, you can do it, the pain means nothing to me I know that I can take this risk, with you. My wings aren't broken any more, I'm not broken, I can fly Edward, so let me." He looked into my eyes and then kissed me with the most passion than I have ever experienced before.

"Okay Bella, I'll change you, I love you, as long as we both shall live, and much longer" I threw my arms around him. He picked me up and ran me to his house where we were greeted by a smiling family. Alice was practically having a seizure in her seat they already knew why we were here. Everyone congratulate Edward and I. He swept me off to his room, but he stopped at the door and starred at the king sized wonder that was in front of us.

"I thought you might like that, it'll come in handy", Alice said as she walked past the door winking. Edward carried me over to the bed, and climbed up next to me. He pulled me close to him. I snuggled into his shoulder. He started to sing a song to me, one my mother used to sing to me when I was little.

"You are my sunshine, my only sunshine, you make me happy, when skies are gray, you'll never know, dear, how much I love you, so please don't my sunshine away." He kissed my hair. "Bella you are my sunshine, my bright and shining light, you are the moon in my starless sky, my sun, on a cloudy day. I love you Bella"

"I love you too Edward" I kissed him, he kissed me right back, crushing himself to me. He made a trail of kisses down my jaw line, to my neck, he kissed it then, where he kissed, he sunk his teeth into my pale skin.

"I love you Edward thank you" He kissed me one more time.

"Please don't take my sunshine away" Then I drifted into unconsciousness.