Though he is gone his demands shall still be carried out. His wished will still be granted. His orders are still in effect. Nothing will change. Soubi knows this. Seimei's word is law. Even if Ritsuka gives an order, if it contradicts what Seimei has said, than it will not be carried out. That is what it means to be controlled.
Seimei's hold on Soubi will always be there. Even death cannot stop their bond. Seimei is the master, Soubi is the servant. It is what he will die being. Nothing will ever make Soubi the master. Even Ritsuka's orders are carried out to Seimei's standards. That was how he was taught and that is how it's always been. There is NO changing.
Soubi can still remember every order Seimei ever gave him. He can remember every touch, every sound, every plea. Even through all of this, Soubi knows he wasn't number one in Seimei's heart. That was Ritsuka's position. Even in death, that is still Ritsuka's position. Soubi's always been second best.
Before Soubi met the boy he hated him. This little brat had Seimei's heart without even trying. Soubi did every command Seimei made and he still go nothing. Of course, after meeting the boy it was understandable. Ritsuka was so innocent and so naive that even Soubi had to admit that, even though Seimei was first, Ritsuka would always be a close second.
Because in Soubi's heart Seimei was first. No matter how much he cared for Ritsuka, Seimei came first. That was also a law. Ritsuka had been so mad when he learned Soubi was only there because of his brother. It made Soubi almost want to pretend that Seimei didn't exist. That the order had never been given. But it had.
There was something that annoyed Soubi. Seimei just gave him to Ritsuka without thinking about his feelings. Or maybe he had. Who really knew what was going on in Seimei's mind? It was sick and twisted that like the person who served it. Soubi will easily agree to that. Before Ritsuka he was sick, and twisted, and disgusting. He still was now and then
If Ritsuka was to ever be threatened, Soubi must protect him. Those were Seimei's words. Ritsuka was always first. Seimei was always first. Soubi...Soubi was always second. He didn't mind though. He could live with it. He had been ordered to not show emotion, but that didn't mean he couldn't feel it.
Seimei's goal ,after Soubi thought about it, was to make Soubi as inhuman as possible. He was never to show anger, or fear. He was made to withstand pain. To bear anything that came his way. That was what Seimei commanded and that is what shall be.
Though he is gone his demands shall still be carried out. His wished will still be granted. His orders are still in effect. Nothing will change. Soubi knows this. Seimei's word is law. Soubi will never ask why. He may not like or agree with it, but he will never question it. Seimei said it was to be like that so Soubi will agree. He will follow his master unquestioningly, wherever he may go.
That is what it means to be dominated.
A Loveless Fanfic
Thank you for reading
I Do Not own Loveless
Just this idea.
A/N- This is my current myspace theme. I was thinking about what it meant to be controlled when this idea popped in my head. Then, after reading Loveless Vol. 5, I got the idea for Soubi. This piece is extremely different from other things I've written. Usually it would be some form of romantic, whether it be unrequited or otherwise. Whatever. I don't like how short this is. I meant it to be longer, but then I realized I was repeating myself. I hope anyone who reads this understands what I was talking about. Even with all it's faults I still like how it turned out.