Chapter 11

Edward clenched his fists in anger as he stood across from my sitting on the bed.

"I could kill him for saying that to you."

I turned my red eyes toward him and whispered "Can you blame him? I deserved that. I'm a horrible person."

Edward shook his head in disbelief and bend down in front of me, taking my face between his hands and looking me deep in the eyes.

"Bella listen to me, you are not a horrible person. You're the sweetest, beautiful, most wonderful girl I've ever met and if any one has a big heart it's you. There's nothing horrible about you, you're my angel."

I shook my head and sniffed, knowing it wasn't true, though still it made me feel a bit better.

"You're just saying that so I won't feel bad."

"No I'm not, honestly I mean that. And it's not just because I love you, though that's part of it, but because it's true."

I smiled and he smiled in return but instantly Jacob's face sprang up in my mind and I turned away with a sigh.

"Then why am I always hurting the people I love?"

"Bella in life someone will always get hurt. Whether it's the child whose father abandoned them or the teacher whose husband left her for another woman, there will always be pain. Everyone goes through their own share of it. It's not your fault."

"So you're saying it's his fault for loving me?!" I asked in half disbelief and half accusing.

Edward came to sit beside me and sighed, closing his eyes and running his fingers through his hair.

I sighed. Edward was just trying to help me and make me feel better and here I was shooting him down with my negativity. There I went again ruining everything. He didn't even like Jacob but instead of gloating like any other boy would have done he was choosing to help me get through this and even suggested I go explain things more clearly to Jacob again. If it were any other boy, he wouldn't want me near Jacob. Then again, Edward had never been like any other boy. He was my beautiful angel, all mine. I smiled at that thought. All mine, I liked that.

I stroked Edward's hair and leaned my face against his cheek.

"I'm sorry Edward. I know you're just trying to help and I'm getting angry with you for no reason."

Edward smiled.

"It's alright Bella. You don't have to apologize. Really I like it when you get angry; it's one of the things I've always loved about you. It's quite amusing actually."

I glared at him but then smirked.

"I'm just so frustrated with myself. I hate seeing you like this and there's nothing I can do to help or make you feel better. I don't want to see you in pain."

Then you never should have left, I thought and almost gasped at the cruel words. Why had I thought that?

"I'll get over it soon," I reassured him.

Edward looked at me in disbelief and I bit my lip. What had I said wrong?

"Amazing, you're the one that's troubled and hurting and you're trying to make me feel better?"

"I don't like to see you in pain Edward; it hurts me more than anything else."

Edward looked at me with so much kindness that for a moment I felt myself melting. He leaned in so that our foreheads were touching and whispered "Unbelievable. You really are an angel Bella. My precious angel."

I tried not to scoff. Yeah right. Edward was the angel. So perfect, so beautiful, so kind; how could I ever be worthy of such a gift?

"I love you."

I smiled, feeling my heart warm at those three words.

"I love you too Edward, I always will."

And with that said our lips met in a kiss so tender it left me breathless. I could never give this up, not in a million years. Nothing could ever compare to a love like this.