A/N: Dear, dear readers,
I'm very sorry I didn't update for such a long time! There were three reasons for that:
School started after I came back from my holiday… And yeah. The homework (so much even this early in the year!) took up all my free (and write-) time.
I didn't have much inspiration at the moment…
And… Well, I don't really… want to end this story. I mean, I began to love it in the time I wrote it. Somebody knows what I mean? Probably not. I'm a little sappy now…
Still, I also didn't want to disappoint all of you people that read my story. You don't know how grateful and thankful I am for all your reviews, and storyalert/authoralert/favourite-author or –story adds!
I wish I could hug you all! X3
Special Thanks: to Bubblegum Head, my very first reviewer, who gave me the courage to go on with this story. Thanks! I owe you! XD
And Thatz, who reviewed ALL the chapters. I love you, darling! This story is sooo dedicated to you! X3
And Captara , who also reviewed a lot on this story and my other stories. You make me so happy, sweetie!
And also Silver Tears 11 , who always makes my day with her funny and cute reviews! XD
Of course also my other sweethearts ; Erinicole 12 and ShadowKillsOrange . (you both totally rock! XD )
And all the people who put my story on their favourite or alert list!
I love you all people, just so you know!
And now… Let's get on the road with this last chapter… (cries in corner silently, then walks over to computer and begins to write again)
Well… Uhm… What can I say more? Maybe another little speech?
Axel: "I'm gonna miss you Roxy!" (runs over to Roxas with spread arms)
Roxas: (takes step aside so Axel misses and crushes to the ground) "Take it easy, already."
Demyx: (watches the two of them and then turns to author while hopping up and down impatient) "Can we get on with it now?"
Me: "But… My speech…"
Axel/Roxas/Demyx: "GET ON WITH IT!"
Me: "…………………..Okay." (sobs)
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The Comic of Life's Love –
Bright daylight peeped through the half closed curtains. My eyes felt thick from sleep and I yawned silently.
Goddammit... Is it already morning?
I tried to stretch my arms, but suddenly noticed something was blocking my way.
Slowly I opened my eyes, still sleepy from the long night that I couldn't seem to remember anymore, and watched what was in front of me.
Then my eyes turned as wide as possible and I felt my cheeks heating up bright red.
Ohhh My God.
Next to me, his face only an inch away from me, laid the scariest guy I'd ever seen. Bright red hair and eyes closed. Under his eyes were these strange, triangle-ish tattoos.
And he had his arms folded around me, so I was pinned against his chest,to way to get out for me.
And not only thatwas bad, the first thing that came into my mind as I saw him sleep was;
Well good morning, my hot, sexy, sleeping beauty.
Immediately I banned that thought out. In a flash the previous night came back to me.
This isn't seriously happening, is it?
I… Didn't… slept with this guy, did I?
I know I did.
And, that thought was so freaking scary that I just wanted to get away from there and have some thinking about this, or rather, forget this ever happened.
So I tried to release myself out of his grab, but didn't succeed.
Damn he's strong. Holding me like a kid holds his plushie or something.
Finally, I escaped from his arms, but not before he mumbled a few words in his sleep sounding like "Roxy…Stop it, you little idiot…", and hugging me tight, almost crushing me as he did so.
When I was released, I stood up from the bed as silent as I could. There's no fucking way that I want to wake him up, since he then might ask what I'm doing or ask weird things as… Well, I don't know. Just the weird things that he always asks.
I looked at myself in underwear and shivered all over. Not just because of the cold, the fact that I slept with him in my underwear was horrifically enough.
Quickly I putted my jeans over my legs and pulled my T-shirt over my head. Shit, it was inside-out.
Oh Hell. I don't mind already! Just get outta here!
I stepped in my shoes and grabbed my jacket that laid somewhere on the floor.
Then I almost dashed towards the door, but stopped dead in my tracks when I heard Axel groan.
I turned my head to the redhead on the couch, and was relieved when he turned around and began to mumble again.
But then a sudden regret showed up inside me.
I can't just leave him here…
Hastily I shook my head.
Of course you can, idiot
Finally my regret won it from my instincts, and I found a piece of paper and a pen and began to write a small note;
I woke up earlier this morning than you, and I left.
I had to go somewhere and-
Oh shit, what am I lying for?!
It's just, I can't do this.
I can't, okay?
Please don't try to make any contact with me, okay?
Just- forget about me or something, okay?
Dammit. I'm so bad at this sort of things as saying goodbye. I read over the whole note and sighed to myself.
Damn – I wrote it down like an emotionless asshole. If I would ever get a note like this from someone, I'd probably beat him up if I ever saw him again.
Oh well, I guess it can't be helped.
I laid the note on the small table next to the couch, and stared at Axel for a moment.
Before my mind could follow my actions, my hands already reached out to touch his cheek and I bended forward and pressed my lips on his forehead.
Quickly I backed away.
Oh Crap. Did I do that?
I quickly walked to the door, but couldn't help to look over my shoulder at the redhead.
"Sorry, Axel." I whispered, before closing the front door behind me and pressing the elevator-button.
While in the elevator, I felt something that I never felt before – Suffer.
Why? That's so damn weird.
I mean- I'm just leaving a psychotic guy that somehow brainwashed me so I began to act strange and…
My cheeks began to heat up again. What happened to me back there? Why did I give in to him?
Oh, come on – That's not true.
I'm going home and forget about all of this. I'm going to make my homework, tell my bro he's a jackass for not picking me up, call Hayner and talk like we always do, read a comic and forget this ever happened.
I'm going to forget I ever met Axel.
Suddenly I felt something wet on my face. Tears. I quickly wiped them away with the sleeve of my jacket and bit my lip.
This is stupid. I'm just gonna live my usual life before this happened. No hard feelings.
Come on, Roxas, keep it together!
At that moment, a high beep sounded through the room and the elevator doors parted. I walked through them, now standing in the long hallway.
Quickly I turned around and faced the front door of the building, at the other end of the hall.
I began to walk to it.
The door. My saver. I have to get to it. I don't care what happens after; I just have to get out of this building.
But suddenly I felt a pat on my back. I turned my head to look over my shoulder, but no one was there.
Huh, must have imagined it…
I returned my thoughts to my walking feet again. Almost… There…
I looked behind me, again to find nothing was there.
"What the-?!" I said out loud, getting angry now. I turned around while walking forward, the next second almost bumping into someone. I sure wasn't expecting that.
"HOLY SHIT!" I cried, before looking up in electric sea-green eyes.
"Heya Roxie!" The cheery voice exclaimed.
Oh- It's that Mohawk-boy.
What was his name again?
"You remember me from yesterday? I'm Demyx!" The boy yelled at me far too enthusiastic. I twitched at his hard voice.
"Oh, um- yeah." I said meekly. "Don't scare me like that, next time!" I continued then, an angry undertone in my voice.
Wait - …Next time?
"Oh, I'm sorry!" Demyx replied, grinning. He took one step more to me, so we now almost stood right in front of eachother.
"I just wanted to thank you."
I blinked my eyes, then pointed at myself.
Demyx nodded wildly, his blonde hair bounced up and down as he did so.
"Uhuh! You!" Then he pointed at me, his expression all cheery like a little kid that did a good job.
"Why?" I asked.
The blonde cocked his head to one side, smiling brightly.
"Because you made Axel happy!"
I felt a bright blush creeping up my cheeks. "Wha- What?!" I stammered. "What are you talking about? I wasn't-"
"…I was worried." Demyx interrupted me. I fell silent and looked at him. He looked quite serious now. A somewhat sad smile appeared on his lips.
" I haven't seen Axel smile for a long time, but when he was with you… It looked like he was happy again."
I stared at Demyx with confusion.
Then his eyes studied my face with that same, insane glance of him that he also aimed at me with our first meeting.
"I can understand what he sees in you though." The blonde continued. "You do look like him. The way you act, I mean. From the outside, you are very different. But I can see the same courage and determination in your eyes…"
"Same as who?" I heard myself ask.
Demyx smiled and poked my right shoulder.
"The same as Riku."
I frowned at him in confusion. Demyx arched his eyebrows.
"His lover. The one that committed suicide?"
Upon hearing that, my eyes turned wide.
Right at that moment, I heard loud footsteps. Someone stood in the hallway.
Demyx looked behind me and smiled. "Look who's there."
Loud panting, someone gasping for breath.
"Roxas!" The voice exclaimed, a strange longing hidden in it.
I turned around slowly. Everything felt as if it happened in slowmotion.
My eyes met the most beautiful person in the world.
A guy, with flaming red hair and emerald green eyes, standing there awkwardly in only a baggy pair of jeans, his naked chest going up and down desperately gasping for air, as if he made a life-depending run for it, in his right hand a crumbled piece of paper that must've been the small letter I wrote him.
He stood there, his eyes wide while looking at me.
And, as he stood there, I felt tears burning in the corner of my eyes.
That asshole – He didn't tell me at all. How much he suffered, how lonely he must've felt.
I felt a rush going through my body when my feet ran forward. My steps made slow, hollow sounds echoing through the whole hallway.
I saw the stunned glance in his eyes, when a tear escaped my eyes and streamed down my face.
He didn't tell me. That this guy wasn't just his friend.
It was his lover.
The one he cherished so much, whom he longed for all the time when they were apart.
And that boy committed suicide, while Axel was in love with him
How lonely must he have felt.
How much must he have suffered.
I approached him. I threw my arms around him and hid my face in his bare chest.
His voice, his beautiful, gentle yet stunned voice got me back into reality.
"Roxas?" I heard him ask. "What in the world is-"
"You idiot!" I screamed. Axel fell silent, just as Demyx.
I couldn't help the loud sob that escaped my throat.
"Stupid idiot!" I made my hands into fists and drummed them up and down onto his chest.
"Rox-!" Axel squeaked. "That hurts, yanno!"
"Why didn't you tell me? I would've understood!" I yelled. I felt the wetness of my tears on my skin as I sobbed again.
"Rox, what are you-?" Axel questioned, but didn't continue what he had to say.
"It all makes sense now…" I said more to myself than to the redhead.
"What makes?" Axel asked.
" I didn't understand myself at all." I said, my eyes looking at his chest.
"I don't even know you. Yet, I have these feelings everytime I'm around you. Like I can show my real self. Like you really know me. We only met a day ago, and you already…" I finally took my courage together and looked up in his bright, beautiful green eyes, which always amazed me with their different glance very time I looked at them. He stared at my teary eyes with concern.
"I know now." I interrupted. I blinked my eyes, causing them to let more tears escape.
I rose up, and pressed my lips on his. A single kiss, which felt as an eternity, but in fact it was only a couple of seconds, maybe minutes. How the hell should I know.
Before Axel could react, I pulled away and looked into his eyes.
"I love you." My mouth said in a passionate tune.
Axel looked at me, he didn't blink. Not at all. He just kept staring.
After a while, he began to laugh.
"W-What are you laughing about?!" I yelled at him, the heat in my whole body glowing up in my face now.
"Sheesh, some sappy romantic scene this is! You sure are weird, Rox!"
"What-? You think I'm weird? What about you, for example?!" I exclaimed outrageous, but Axel probably didn't hear me because he was laughing too hard.
I dropped my head and leaned against his chest.
"Aww!" I heard a voice behind me.
"Axel, that totally broke the lovey-dovey seriousness of this scene! At that moment, you were supposed to say, 'I love you too, Roxas' or something like that!"
My jaw dropped and I looked over my shoulder. Demyx waved at me and giggled.
Crap. He saw my whole little love confession.
"Oh, is that so?" Axel said, grinning amused and looking down at me.
"Shall I bring you a serenade, then, little Roxy?"
I bit my lip as I felt my cheeks warming up and gave him an angry look.
"Shut up, bastard."
"Phew," Axel sighed dramatically while pulling me in a bone-crushing hug.
"I thought I'd lost my little sarcastic Roxy, but you're still in there, phew, am I relieved!"
"Goddammit, Axel…" I muffled into his chest, trying to keep breathing.
"Hey, Demyx…" I heard a sudden, deep voice. I couldn't look who it was, since I was hugged and couldn't escape.
"Hmm, what is it?" Demyx asked the voice.
"Come help cleaning up. Everyone left, and you're the one that made the most mess at the party after all."
"Oh! I'm coming, Zexy!" Demyx exclaimed in a sing-sang voice, and I saw him dashing past me, still giggling.
"Oh," the hollow voice said. "You have to pay for a new table, since you jumped drunk on ours and broke it."
"Ahhh no fair, Zexy!" Demyx whined, before the door closed and I only could hear quiet mumbling behind it.
"Who's that?" I asked Axel's chest.
"Zexion. Demyx' boyfriend."
"Huh? He too is-?"
Axel chuckled. "Couldn't you tell? The way he acts should say enough!"
"Well, yeah, I just… wasn't really expecting…"
"By the way…" Axel interrupted, finally releasing me enough to breathe. His fingers traced up and down my shoulders. He grinned shyly at me.
"I love you too."
"Heh..." I found myself smiling back at him.
Suddenly Axel leaned in, only some inches away from my face.
"Since you confessed you like me too, why won't you stay another mind with me and-"
"PERVERT!" I screamed and drummed on his chest again. Axel began to laugh.
"Okay, okay! I get it! I was only joking, yanno!"
"You wasn't!" I replied mad.
Axel pouted at me. "You don't believe me?"
I folded my arms and shook my head. "No, and I want you to bring me back home."
"Aww Roxy- "
"But not yet. I wanna stay with you a little longer." I smiled my sweetest smile.
Axel's face became all cheery and I shivered as I saw the strange Demyx-glance in his eyes.
"Drop that face and I let you kiss me." I said monotonic.
Axel grinned. "Shoot. Looks like that only works for Demyx with Zexion."
I poked my finger in his cheek. "Just be yourself, asshole."
And with that, I closed my eyes and felt how his lips touched mine.
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A/N: I finished it… (smiles)
I'm so happy the way this chapter turned out! It was a little angst-y in the middle of it, and then I decided to let Axel do some retarded line of him to lighten the whole thing.
For the ones that think of Riku and Axel as 'eww'. So do I. Riku just seemed right for the part as depressive-suicider, lol. I mean, Roxy and Axie are meant for eachother, ne?!
Oh- Xita14, thanks for your correction at my "Suicided" thingy. I really appreciate it that you took the time to take a look at my bad grammar! (giggles)
And I made Zexion appear! Yay! I felt bad for Demyx who's been looking at the whole AkuRoku scene without some love for himself… So there was Zexion to the rescue! ( and a broom for Demyx to clean up the mess he made at the party when he was drunk XD )
For all of you, there's so much that I want to say, I just can't find the words to tell you how much I love you all… :3
Roxas: "Thank you people!"
Axel: "Wish there was some more quality time for us two, Rox..."
Roxas: "Shut up, PERVERT."
Axel: "I'm not a pervert!"
Demyx: "You are, Axel." (hugs Zexion)
Me: (sniffles) "UWAAAH I'm gonna miss you guys!"
Oh, wait. I just got an AMAZING idea!
What about… This story with a Axel POV ? Huh, isn't that a nice plan!
Me: "Tell me your opinion in your review!"
Bye Bye for now!!! Love you all:D