Summary: (Set during New Moon) Laurent lingered at my neck and before the black heaps that I saw behind him could move, he had carefully bit down on my neck, leaving the venom inside my body. I closed my eyes and fell into hell.
"And I won't be far from where you are, if ever you should call. You meant more to me than anymore I ever loved at all. But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you. This is what I have to do. 'Cause I don't know who I am, who I am without you. All I know is that I should. And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you. All I know is that I should. 'Cause she will love you more than I could. She who dares to stand where I stood. Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood." – Where I Stood by Missy Higgins
Thursday – 1:00pm
Welcome to Forks, Washington.
I looked up blankly at the sign and then to the right of me where Riley was standing. He did a double take of the area and then turned towards me, his eyes boring into me. "You've been here before," I remarked nonchalantly and he nodded, his eyes widening before returning to their normal size. "What do you think of it?" I asked and he shrugged. James, Irina, and Victoria decided not to come with us, but had Riley to make sure that I would return home, although I had promised that I would.
Butterflies were roaming in my stomach; I couldn't contain my happiness, although I knew that I had to go back, back to Victoria, James, and Irina. Even though I didn't want too, I knew that I had made a promise too, that I had to live up to my promise as hard as it was to live up too. I couldn't wait to see Alice, to see the whole family… but to see Edward most of all. It had been far too long, over two years and my emotions were coming back to me, like my life actually had a meaning all of a sudden. I moved quickly, my powers still not intact, but that was fine. I was immune to not having them anymore, Riley followed quickly beside me.
"Are you excited, Isabella?" Riley asked quietly, I nodded. "Well you shouldn't be."
Thursday – 1:00pm
Ashlyn and I lay side my side under a tree on our property.
"School is such a drag," Ashlyn commented as she looked at her perfect nails, Rosalie had done them up for her and she was obsessing over them like no other. "I hate all the homework and everything; I was thinking that I would take a year off a school. I have eternity to do school, so you know, why waste the time?"
"That's true," I commented thoughtfully. "I didn't go to school for the first few years after my transformation." Although I didn't comment about my past, it wasn't something that I was open to talking about.
Ashlyn smiled at me lazily. "Today is such a pretty day," she said softly as she put down her hand only to pick it up and look at it once more. "Oh shit, I think I chipped one of my nails. Great now I'll have to ask Rosalie to paint them again, maybe I should ask her for the bottle of nail polish, do you think that that would be easier, Alice?" Ashlyn asked and I shrugged as I looked up at the tree.
"I don't know."
"Are you okay? You seem kind of distant." Ashlyn remarked. "Is something wrong?"
"Then what is it?"
"I don't know, I was just… thinking, about some stuff that happened in the past few years," I tried to think about something else, but Bella invaded my mind. It was nice having somebody who would shop with me—but I still missed Bella deeply. "I lost my best friend two years ago."
"Really? One of us?" Ashlyn asked intrigued.
Edward had told me that I shouldn't talk about Bella that it was better to just move on, but the thoughts of her wouldn't go away. "Yeah, she was a vampire as well."
"Really?" Ashlyn said again. "How come I've never heard of this Bella? You guys have been hiding her from me! So where is she now? Did she just decide to go off or something? She can't be that far from here, do you think that we can go get her? We can probably get Edward to drive us down to get her—"
"She's gone." I stated clearly. Sorrow was clear in my tone. "Been gone for a long time, and she's not coming back, Ashlyn."
"Oh." Ashlyn emitted.
I shook my head, shaking my shoulder length hair out and fanning it around my head. "I wonder where she is sometimes," I said thoughtfully. "Edward and her loved each other so much and I wondered how she could just leave that all behind, you know what I mean?"
"She was the one that you were talking about when I first came?" Ashlyn asked and I nodded.
"He still loves her very much, Ashlyn." I declared and Ashlyn nodded, her eyes trained on me. "I just wish that she could come home and explain what she did, you know? She was the quiet and timid one, the human that I loved to spoil until it was too late to save her. A vampire, Laurent, changed her. She was friends with Jacob, the werewolf that you met awhile ago, he's a nice kid, and he loves Bella as well. Always have, and always will. I don't think he ever got over the fact that she's… gone."
"She's very—erm—popular," Ashlyn laughed. "I would have loved to meet her, been friends with her, Alice."
"I know," I said sadly.
Ashlyn shook her head and brushed her angled bangs out of her face. "Sometimes I wonder if I should branch out on my own, maybe go and visit the Denali coven and do something sufficient. But then I realize that you guys are my family and I love you guys," she choked, sobs stuck in her throat. "I never even remember to tell you guys how thankful I am that you found me."
I reached over and took her head in mine gingerly. "Don't worry, Ash, we all know how thankful you are."
Ashlyn smiled slightly. "I wished I could have met her," she said softly and I nodded embracing her hand in mine and she squeezed back happily. "I'm sure that she was a wonderful person, but do you think that Edward will ever get over her?"
"I know that he will always love her," I said. "But that part of his life is over for now, I do not know what he thinks of the situation now. It's been two years."
"He's so nice," Ashlyn said and she sniffled slightly. "I think I might be falling in love with him Alice," Ashlyn confessed and I looked at her—not completely shocked because I knew that it was an easy thing for girls to do. I stared at her and turned my head sharply to the approaching car that was coming. "What do you think I should do?"
"I don't know," I admitted.
Ashlyn shook her head. "He'll never get over Bella, will he?"
"I don't know," I said slightly irritated as I saw Edward descending from his car. He smiled at me and walked over to us. "We'll talk about this when we're alone," I said and Ashlyn nodded as Edward joined us.
"How are my two favorite ladies?" He teased.
Ashlyn giggled. "Flatterer," he chuckled and looked at me, about to say something, Ashlyn filled the space. "We were just bonding; Alice is the most wonderful person ever, Edward."
"Don't I know it," Edward stated and I hit his arm playfully.
"Where were you, mister?"
"I actually went out for your husband, Alice." He replied and looked towards the house. "Jasper just needed something from the store and I decided to be nice and go get it for him, aren't you all supposed to be at school or something?" I knew he was joking, but Ashlyn looked at him with doe eyes.
"We don't have school today since it's so sunny outside," Ashlyn explained innocently.
Edward laughed. "I know, Ash, I was kidding around with you." She laughed nervously and then started to look around as if she heard something that neither of us heard. "Is something wrong, Ashlyn?"
"Nothing," she said quickly and smiled. "Nothing's wrong."
Thursday – 3:00pm
I looked up from the book I had been reading and smiled crookedly at Ashlyn as she walked into my room. She hadn't knocked, but that didn't matter much anymore. "Hey Ashlyn, what's up?" I asked as she sat down next to me on the couch.
"Nothing," she grinned. "I was hoping that we could go out today."
I looked at her and closed the book that I had been reading. What was she talking about? "You mean, just us? Or all of us?" I asked and she looked down at her entwined hands. She looked slightly nervous and I had no idea why she would so nervous. "Hey," I told her encouragingly. "You can tell me, Ash."
"Just the two of us," she mumbled.
I stood up, extending a hand to her and smiling. "Where would you like to go?" I asked and she looked up at me in surprise.
"Yeah, why not?" I asked and she shrugged, taking my hand.
I led her to the car and opened the passenger door open for her as Alice walked over to us. I smiled to her as she asked where we were going. I closed Ashlyn's door, hoping that she couldn't hear whatever Alice was going to talk about. "Where are you going with her?" Alice repeated in a hushed tone.
"We're just going out, Alice."
"When are you coming back?"
"Since when have you been Ms. Police Officer?" I asked her teasingly and she shook her head. I knew that there was something wrong. I tuned into her thoughts. 'Do you want me to come with you?' She was questioning in her mind. I shook my head. "It'll be fine, make sure to inform Carlisle and Esme where we are, okay Alice?"
She nodded and bid us a good day together.
I slid into the drivers' seat and smiled at Ashlyn. "So where do we plan on going?" I asked her and she shrugged as she fiddled with the seat belt that was restraining her.
"I think that we should go somewhere far away from here, I haven't been like anywhere since I came here," she retorted and I shook my head as I listened to her. It was true; Ashlyn wasn't really allowed that much out of the house because of her being a newborn and everything. It was getting better and better, but not by much. I backed up the car and I could have sworn I saw a familiar face, walking on the side of the road with a boy, but when I looked back, there was nothing there.
Thursday – 3:00pm
"Where is Edward, anyways?" I asked my husband as I walked around our room, searching for something to wear. Emmett looked over at me and shook his head; he didn't know where Edward was. "I went around looking for Ashlyn as well, but she was gone. Could it be possible that they went out together?" I pondered, more to myself then to Emmett.
"I think that they might have," Emmett inputted. "But should that matter?"
"Well I don't know," I said as I placed my hands on my hips, searching for the perfect top to wear. "I just think that Edward shouldn't get so close to Ashlyn, she's great and all, but what if she turns out to be like… Bella?" I said the name tentatively, not knowing how Emmett would react.
"I'm sure that Edward isn't in love with Ashlyn," Emmett declared.
"I just think that Ashlyn is in love with him," I told him in confidence and he shook his head as I threw a shirt over my head and zipped up my jean skirt. "I'm ready to go, are you?" I asked and he nodded. We walked down the stairs together in silence; Alice was waiting patiently at the end of the staircase.
"What's going on?" Emmett questioned.
Alice shrugged and moved a piece of hair behind her ear. "I have a strange feeling that something is going to happen today," she muttered and I looked at her curiously. "Something that might change our lives forever."
"You're starting to creep my out, Alice," I told her sincerely.
The curves of Alice's mouth quirked into a smile. "Sorry, I was just thinking out loud. Edward and Ashlyn just left."
"Well. I just worry about him sometimes," Alice admitted. "Ashlyn told me yesterday that she really liked Edward more then a friend, but I don't really know if he feels the same way… I mean it's been only a little while since… she left and all, but still. He doesn't seem tog et over her disappearance easily." Alice explained and I looked at her dumbfounded.
"Ashlyn likes Edward?"
"Yeah!" Alice said and then shrugged. "I wonder what would have happened if—"
I cut her off. "Don't Alice."
"I won't," she promised.
Thursday – 1:01pm
"Are you excited, Isabella?" I asked quietly and Isabelle nodded. "Well you shouldn't be."
Isabella looked over at me and then turned away. "What is that supposed to mean?" She asked bitterly and I shrugged as we sat down together on a bench and she turned towards me. "What is that supposed to mean?" She asked again, more forcefully.
"I don't know," I said plainly, although I really did know what was going on.
Isabella hissed under her breath and leaned against the bench. "God, you're so annoying, all I wanted was a good weekend so that I could just go and see my family and you're ruining it for me, Riley, why do you have to do that?" She questioned and I shrugged, tapping my foot against the pavement. "So annoying."
"I'm sorry, okay? I shouldn't have said that. Do you want to go see your 'family' or what?" I asked, clearly irritated.
"I think I will!" Isabella countered.
She stood up and started walking farther into Forks, Washington. I followed slowly behind her. I watched as she slowly made her way towards the familiar buildings and everything that she knew that she had left behind when she was hunted down by Laurent, Victoria, and Irina. I shivered at the thought that she had lost everything in this very town. Somehow, I felt sorry for her. I didn't know what she was feeling, but I was sure that we were thinking the exact same thing. It was sorrow, I had left everything once I had been changed and it barely meant anything to me anymore. How I wished that I could just go home, but I couldn't control myself around humans easily, making it difficult for me to connect with them.
"Are you coming?" Isabelle questioned from far ahead, I ran to catch up with her. "That's better, now I don't want you attacking any humans while we're here, Riley, do you understand me?"
"Of course," I said through clenched teeth.
"I'm serious," Isabella deadpanned. "If you attack somebody, I'll probably know them and I don't want you doing anything to them."
"I won't," I promised—only half sincere.
Isabella saw through my façade. "I'll get you if you do something to hurt anybody in this town," Isabella threatened. "They're my friends and family, I can't have you hurting anything around here." I looked at her, really looked at her, and I realized that she was just trying to protect the people that she loved.
After tonight, she wouldn't want anything to do with Forks, Washington or the Cullen family.
Thursday – 3:30pm
"Okay you guys are so sketchy."
Alice looked over at Edward and Ashlyn who were sitting underneath a tree in the meadow. Ashlyn was leaning back against the tree while Edward was sitting down next to her, his arm just a centimeter away from her hand. I looked over at Alice who was looking at them disapprovingly. She giggled as she made her way over to the two of them, as I fell in tow with her, seating myself down across from Edward and Ashlyn.
"Hey you guys," Ashlyn said nonchalantly. "I didn't know that you guys were coming to the meadow as well, we should have planned something fun to do today."
Alice laughed. "I just came to see what you guys were doing," she chirped. "I was thinking that we could talk about the vacation that we've wanted to take. We should go somewhere totally new because then we could have more fun." Alice said and Ashlyn shrugged.
"I'm up for anything," she looked over at Edward.
"Yeah, anything's good for me," he said as he looked over at me.
I held up my hands defensively. "You know I'm passive, Alice." I told her and she nodded before placing one of her tiny hands on my thigh and turning to talk to Edward and Ashlyn.
"I was thinking that we could go to Mexico," she muttered.
"Mexico?!" Ashlyn sputtered. "I am clueless at foreign languages, I can't even speak English that well," she chuckled.
"Don't worry," Alice soothed. "Edward is fluent in like all the languages of the world and he could get us around Mexico or Spain just fine." Alice said and smiled at Edward who rolled his eyes good naturedly.
"What about Singapore?" Ashlyn suggested.
Alice thought this over in her mind and then shrugged. "I guess that would be fine, I heard that the malls are great and there's no sales tax! That equals mega shopping, Ash!"
Ashlyn squealed and jumped over to Alice, hugging her tightly. "That would be so much fun! We could literally shop until we drop!" Alice nodded fiercely.
"I think that's a bad idea," Edward piped in. "I don't think that you guys need anymore stuff."
"That's debatable, Edward," Alice mumbled and frowned. "I always need new stuff, you know the saying goes: out with the old, in with the new!" Ashlyn nodded, totally agreeing with everything that Alice was saying.
Edward looked over at me for reinforcement. "Alice, do you really need more stuff? Our room is already packed."
Alice frowned. "You're seriously going to deprive me of shopping, Jas?"
My eyes widened and I shook my head. "Of course not, we can definitely go there so that you, Rosalie, and Ashlyn can shop," Edward looked over at me and started to glare and I shrugged, she was my wife, and what else could I have done?
"I am so excited! We should go tell Esme and Carlisle!" Alice stood up and pulled me up as well. "We'll just leave you two alone for a little bit while I go and talk to Carlisle and Esme about this trip, I can't wait to get everything booked and the plans finalized and everything. I'm super excited. Oh… I have to talk to Rosalie and Emmett as well." She frowned. "Oh well, I'll get everything done somehow."
She waved and we were off.
Thursday – 3:31pm
I smiled as Alice waved and they ran off to the car that they had come in. I smiled and turned to Edward. "Now, seriously, where were we before they came and started chatting us up?" I joked and Edward just laughed as he looked into my eyes.
"I don't know, Ash," Edward muttered.
I looked at him and then looked at the woods, where I could hear sounds coming out from it. "I just want to know where I'm from," I said remembering that we were talking about where I was from before Alice and Jasper came. "When I was changed, I lost most of my memory for some reason, I don't even know why. Carlisle said that he didn't know why I lost most of my memory either."
"That's weird," Edward inputted. "I've never heard of a vampire that has lost their memory after they've been changed."
I looked at the woods and then looked back. It was coming. "I just wish that I could remember, you know? It's hard not knowing where you're from or where you're going, etc. But I am super excited for the future."
"Excited for Singapore?" He teased.
I nodded furiously. "I am so excited! It's going to be my first 'family trip' with you guys and it's going to be amazing!"
"I can tell," he laughed.
"I am going to go shopping with Alice for hours and maybe Rosalie will come along with us. I don't know, it just doesn't seem that she lives me too much," I stated and Edward shook his head.
"She likes you," he said.
"No," I moaned in despair. "She definitely doesn't, I care that she doesn't like me and stuff, but sometimes I wonder why she doesn't like me?"
"She's doesn't really like new additions to the family, so they say." Edward stated and shrugged. "I don't know, Rosalie has had the hardest time adjusting to the vampire life, that sometimes—do you hear something?" Edward questioned as he stood up. I followed him to my feet.
"Are you sure? I swear I heard some footsteps or something like that."
"I'm sure, I don't hear a sound, you must be hearing voices or something again," I teased and Edward rolled his eyes good naturedly at me.
"Is something wrong? You have the weirdest look on your face. Are you sure you aren't hearing the same sounds that I'm hearing because I could have sworn that I heard some footsteps somewhere." Edward looked around and I shook my head, to reassure him that there was nothing wrong. I had to keep everything under control otherwise he would figure out what was really coming.
Just as another pushed the branches aside, I lifted myself to my tiptoes and pressed my lips soundly against Edward's, making sure that the person there saw the whole thing.
Thursday – 3:35pm
They were there.
I could sense that Edward was there in the meadow with somebody and I got into hearing range, I heard Edward, Alice, and Jasper, but also a new vampire. I looked at Riley who shrugged and suggested that he should stay back and watch for anybody that was coming. I walked a little faster, but made sure that they didn't hear my footsteps, hoping that they wouldn't know that I was coming. I walked stealthily towards the opening where my meadow was and frowned when I heard the new vampires' voice.
It was a girls'.
But why had they taken in a new vampire?
Could it possibly be that they were trying to replace me? It hadn't even been that long in vampire years. It had only been a few fleeting years. I looked around and saw that Riley was still hanging back, a far distance away so that Edward probably couldn't hear his thoughts. If I had a heart, it would have been pounding. I was overjoyed to see Edward, Alice, and Jasper, but I wasn't too thrilled to see the new vampire there.
I wandered closer, noting that Alice and Jasper had left and started driving away and that Edward and the new vampire were standing up and Edward was looking around in my direction while the new vampire was shaking her head. She was a brunette. Were they trying to completely replace me?
Edward said something to the girl, facing her instead of looking around at me, just as I pushed the branches away so that I could get a clearer view. I noticed that she was reaching up and lifting herself up on her tiptoes. My eyes widened as she placed a kiss soundly against Edward's mouth.
And I completely snapped.
End of Chapter 11
There really isn't any excuse for me disappearing for over like four months, just that I'm really sorry that I haven't been around and I have been having writers block for forever. I don't really know where this story is going anymore, but finally I got my bearings together and decided to write the 11th chapter. So, go me! I was thinking about re-writing this story because some of you have said that this is getting stupid and stuff, or maybe that was something else? I don't know what I'm going to do.
Just expect another update from me maybe next week? Two weeks? Three weeks? Four weeks? Five months? I'm not quite sure, whenever I get my bearings together again, I will post another chapter. I am a tad bit annoyed that the line breaks aren't working for me, but that is about it for my annoyance rate. LOL.
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