Hello, it's been awhile huh? TWO YEARS! Time sure goes by fast. I do apologize for my lack of activity. I hope this chapter will suffice you for now though it's not much at all. I couldn't think anymore and didn't want you to keep waiting so here.
The song i used is Fucking perfect by Pink.
I was at a loss for a song. I hope it's alright..I was thinking first love by Utada Hikaru but I wasn't sure.
Now when Hinata finally sings, she'll have a flashback and her own point of view so it'll be confusing if you don't know which is which.
This means flashback
this is when Hinata is singing or when a character reveals his or her thoughts.
"Why do you like flowers so much? They're so weak and dependent on you. They'll die by themselves."
"I don't know. But they sure are beautiful right? I'd do anything to be like that."
It was evening. The sky was a blazing topaz glittering like worn piece of gold as it started to rest on the gray clouds resting somberly near the horizons. The sky surged violently with violets and pumpkins with the tiniest hint of blood red roses that seemed to just seep out from within the cracks of the clouds and leave everyone awe struck. If Hinata could reach up, her fingers would prick on the jagged clouds but that didn't stop her from staring at it.
There was an air of excitement everywhere now. She shivered in her short yet showy kimono and rubbed her arms to keep her warm from the autumn air.
"Mom's crazy for making me wear this when it's so cold!"
The clock was ticking closer to her performance but when she reached Kohona Central, she didn't go straight to the stage like she was supposed to. Hinata let her legs take her to all the beautiful distractions, glowing lanterns, eye catching games, beautiful paintings, delicious food, and there was still so much more!
Hinata gasped when she spotted a part of the architectural garden donned with the most heavenly flowers she had ever seen. She picked one up and gently took in its scent, her lips lightly brushing the velvet white petals that tasted just like honey.
All these distractions were good for her.
So she can take her mind off of Gaara, even for a moment.
"Kuso!" Temari panted, pumping her legs onto the concrete floor, "Hinata! Hinata-chan?"
She followed the almost invisible trace of chakra left behind by Hinata. If Hinata had to worry about her defense, Temari would have no clue on how to find her. Gaara had trained her too good. At the thought, Temari's eyes narrowed as she spat onto the floor. "That idiot!"
Why must she be surrounded by fools?
Temari slowed down when she spotted some lanterns and decorations hung around the city, spiraling from the buildings to the trees. It was like a glistening web above her. Temari gaped in awe.
"Wow, Kohona festivals are pretty sweet." She chuckled and sighed, her blue eyes dimming. "How am I supposed to find Hinata-chan here?" It seemed like everyone but her brother was here. They all laughed and screamed in joy, and it was so contagious that Temari ended up smiling too.
"Too bad Gaara isn't here." Temari gasped as her eyes spotted a beautiful lantern floating towards a stage. The red and green paper on it shimmered like translucent crystal and Temari quickly followed it out of awe. She pushed her way through a crowd and didn't notice that she was at a stage until she bumped into someone.
"Ah-Shit! Watch it!" Temari scowled, brushing off some invisible dust from her skirt. "Some bastard is just looking for a way to die today," she mumbled under her breath quietly.
"O-Oh I'm sorry….Temari-san?" At the mention of her name, Temari looked up curiously.
"What time is it? Kami!" Hinata jumped, her golden eyes widening in wear as it fluctuated from violet, to white, and back to shimmering gold. "Moms are going to kill me!"
Hinata spun around and right when her eyes landed on the stage, she bolted for it.
"Where is that brat!" Tsunade flared her nostrils as Shizune paced worriedly behind her.
"She's coming." Shizune answered yet it sounded like she was trying to reassure herself. "She will be here any second."
"Her performance is in exactly 7 minutes! She better be here now!" Tsunade roared and the people backstage fled to cower in the back, as far away from the hokage as possible. Shizune appeared paler than ever yet she looked determined in her daughter.
"She's coming, Tsunade-sama. She's-"
"Here!" Hinata broke through the crowd and jumped on stage ungracefully as she fumbled through the thick red curtains, revealing herself to her moms. They stared at her incredulously at her disheveled appearance as she gave them a nervous smile.
"Gomen?" Tsunade was the first to react.
"Gomen? GOMEN! LOOK AT YOU! YOU LOOK LIKE A FREAKING DONKEY WEARING A FUCKING KIMONO!" Tsunade fumed and Hinata paled.
"Tsunade! She does not!" Shizune pointed a finger at the hokage disapprovingly, "don't you dare say something like that."
"Well…fine. She looks like a hobo-" Tsunade grumbled under her breath but then quieted under Shizune's glare. The ebony haired woman sighed as she swept her fingers through Hinata's hair.
"Don't mind her," the woman whispered to Hinata. Shizune giggled, "She just cares about you but has a hard time putting it out there." Hinata laughed as her mom winked at her.
"I know." But then she appeared sheepish as she straightened out her kimono. "But I'm sorry about how bad I look. I ran here as fast as I could when I found out was time it was. I suppose I got a little carried away out there by the stalls and decorations." Hinata blushed, "You guys did a good job." Tsunade's ferocity faltered and she sighed long and distantly like a fire that's just been put out.
"Yea well it's okay kiddo. You made it anyway." Tsunade huffed, placing her hands on her hips. Hinata grinned. "But would you mind telling me about your behavior with the kazekage?" Hinata froze. "It was uncalled for. You never act like that."
"What do you mean? It was nothing." Hinata smiled as she gladly accepted a microphone headset from the stage manager. Tsunade frowned and sighed as she quickly fixed her daughter's hair.
"Uh huh…" Tsunade pursed her lips and paused before tilting Hinata's face up her. "Hinata, you know we're here for you. So….so if you feel….uncomfortable…or if something happened…" Tsunade got awkward, fidgeting her feet as she took in deep breaths. "Well, we're your moms so spill it when you need someone and we'll handle anyone's ass!" Finally the hokage blurted it all out and Hinata couldn't help but laugh despite the anxious feeling nagging at the back of her head.
"Hai okaa-san." Hinata smiled and it turned wider when Shizune hugged her.
"Well good luck kay Hinata?" Shizune patted her on the shoulder and left after flashing an encouraging smile.
"Yeah, go out there and show them who's my daughter." Tsunade grinned and slapped her roughly on the back. "Don't be a baby and suck it up." Hinata coughed, rubbing her back slowly in disdain.
"Well at least I know who the supportive one is." She whispered wryly as straighten out her kimono again. Her backup dancers came on stage and they shouted each other good luck. Through the short time Hinata had come to really like her new friends. It'll be just like walking to sing in front of them. The curtains pulled back slowly and Hinata's stomach dropped to the floor.
Butterflies were rampaging inside of her as she suddenly felt lighthead. But singing in front of all of Kohona is a different thing.
"I never talked to this much people, nor do they know me, and now I have to sing in front of all of Kohona?" Hinata took in a deep breath, her golden eyes shifting into a shimmering shade of moonlight.
Her eyes scanned the entire crowd to find at least one comforting face, any, "Oh what am I going to do?" She closed her eyes and took a deep breath in. Thank goodness the lights aren't on yet.
"Temari-san it's nice to see you!" Sakura bowed graciously as her spring green orbs twinkled in pure delight. "How come I wasn't informed of this?" Temari's eyes narrowed as a thought lingered in her head, because I just don't like you.
"Well-" the blond was suddenly cut off by another blond.
"Temari-san! What's up? Where's Gaara?" Naruto grinned, "Sorry about klutzy Sakura. She just loves getting people pissed!" Temari blinked slowly, completely haven forgotten that he was there the whole time and couldn't help but laugh. She liked this kid after all.
"Shut up Naruto! I DO NOT!" Sakura's face flushed red as she seethed at him, "And who the hell are you calling a klutz?"
"Ah- DON"T!" Naruto turned covered his head but it was no use to Sakura's fist.
"Delightful."Temari sighed, her teal eyes wandering aimlessly on the crowd for a certain shinobi.
"Gomen Temari," Sakura blushed as she bowed her head apologetically. She looked up and scanned the people surrounding them; she tucked a pink strand of hair behind her ear shyly as her face turned redder. "Ano, is Gaara-sama accompanying you?"
When Temari heard the way she pronounced her brother's name, Temari whipped her head around and glared at the pink nin.
"My brother?" Temari mused as she watched the girl squirm under her gaze, "He will not be gracing us with his presence for a while." Sakura appeared crestfallen.
I did not like this girl one bit. Not only was she annoying and loud, I know her secret.
HELL, it's amazing how no one does!
Naruto appeared to be a bit interested in his friend's behavior but brushed it off.
"Hey Temari-san, have you seen Hinata? We're supposed to meet her at this time but we can't seem to find her." He scratched his head as his sky blue eyes scanned behind them. To my surprise, a light blush trickle across his face.
"I don't want to mess this up either." Oh kami. Kuso my life!
"Yea well she'll show up. She wouldn't just leave us." Sakura shrugged ad turned to me yet again. She grabbed my hand as she giggled excitedly, "And how have Gaara been?" She faltered right after she said it and quickly added in, "and you too of course."
My skin crawled at her touch. Damn, if she just wants to know how Gaara's been doing then just say it! Damn this little brother of mine!
"Fine." I responded curtly but she didn't take my coldness as a hint.
"C-Can you tell him I said hello? I mean it's been awhile and i-it's only polite." Sakura blushed crimson as her emerald eyes fell to her fidgeting feet.
I felt something boil inside of me.
"Sure." I fought the urge to roll my eyes. As if I would! Sakura smiled thankfully and I just smirked.
I was feeling something.
The curtain pulled back and the crowd hushed. I didn't take my eyes off her until she turned away to awe at the little spectacle in front of us.
I was feeling jealous for Hinata.
I'm not going to let this girl ruin it for her or for Gaara.
The lights flashed on and I had to blink, turning my head to the small group of people standing on stage. Some music started playing and I had to smile. Man, I love this song.
Then suddenly I noticed something. Someone with their back turned to us was wearing a kimono that strangely looked like Hinata's earlier. It was a bright crimson red with gold and silver swirling dragons intricately woven on the silk. There were a few petals of royal blue that shimmered beautifully and contrasting the red perfectly. The kimono sleeves stopped at her elbows and the rest of folded fabric fell to her above her midthighs. As for the band to tie the kimono together at the waist, it was made of see through silk that twisted delicately to the floor. I gaped.
Its freezing yet that girl is wearing a kimono that barely reaches her mid thighs. Speaking of which, I stared at those pale legs, they…well I think I know someone who has pale legs like that.
The dark kimono contrasted amazingly on her ivory skin. The girl had jet-black hair pulled into a classic Japanese half bun. Half of her hair was twisted into a bun and pinned by a jaded flower pin while the rest of hair swung on her back in a graceful yet loose braid.
"I-I that-" Naruto stopped in mid speech with his mouth agape. I looked over at Sakura and she appeared speechless too.
"What?" I quickly looked back right when the backup dancers twirled across the stage. The girl slowly turned around, her wide pearled eyes ramming me breathless and utterly shocked.
"HINATA?" We nearly screamed, unable to believe our eyes.
The lights flashed on, first in the front but it had nearly blinded me after having been in the dark for a complete two minutes. The music started thumping and I swallowed the lump in my throat down painfully. It felt like I had just ate a rock. Swell.
I panted when the dancers swept front. I was next! A couple of them smiled encouragingly at me and even two or three of them softly patted me on the shoulder.
I can't let anyone down! I gulped and when I looked up I saw Tsunade and Shizune, both giving me a cheesy smile and a thumbs up.
I chuckled and tried to pushed away the butterflies and all the bad thoughts. I can do this! I waited for the dreaded cue and turned around, lifting the microphone and well just letting whatever happens.
Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
My voice was a bit hoarse but I ignored it and walked right out there into the spot light.
Welcome to my silly life
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Miss "no way it's all good"
It didn't slow me down
Always second guessing
Look, I'm still around...
My eyes scanned the crowd and immediately I spotted Naruto's large blue eyes staring incredulously at me. Why is he staring at me like that? I tried not to giggle at how idiotic he looked. I had to admit though, he was still cute like that. Oh and right next to him was Sakura. She was wrapped cozily in a pink sweater that matched her hair, her forest green eyes wide and on me. And then I saw Temari. She towered easily over the two next to her, her always confident stance was there too. Her dark teal eyes was looking up at me with astonishment. I held back the smile.
Is it really that surprising that I'm doing this?
Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
You're fuckin' perfect to me
The words felt foreign on my tongue. It all meshed together like some gloop that burned my throat somehow. Why did Tsunade pick this song?
You're so mean
When you talk
You are wrong
Change the voices
In your head
Make them like you
Look how big you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred
I twirled and let a dancer catch me. Their fluid movements never ceased to amaze me. They surrounded me, pretending to yell and shout as I shrunk, holding my head.
This…seems familiar. Finally they left, and I staggered up.
I lifted the microphone back up to my lips and caught Temari's eyes again. Out of all of the faces…hers.
Such a tired game
I've done all I can think of
Chased down all my demons
See you same
Pretty, pretty please
Don't you ever, ever feel
Like your less than
Pretty, pretty please
If you ever, ever feel
Like your nothing
I tried to look away from her but I just couldn't. Something set my mind on her. The sight of her made my cuts burn,it hurt. I was remembering Gaara. What he said to me this morning keeps on repeating in my head.
"I love you? Come on. I was in the moment. Haven't Temari told you about me yet? How I really am? Listen…you're cute," He smirked as he cupped her face, "But you're not good enough for me. I already found someone more beautiful and fit to fulfill my desires. Not to mention someone that is actually strong and can protect someone's life in a battle! You're weak!" Hinata pushed his hand away, not believing any of it. Her heart pounded heavily in her ears from the impact of his words. It pierced her like a knife as it brought up the memories of a certain someone.
"Are you saying that the whole thing was an act?" Hinata asked hoarsely as she tried her best to hold back the oncoming tears.
"You were so innocent and trusting, it was easy to use you. And I was getting tired of the useless hoes Temari kept bringing me. I wanted to see what fresh meat really was. I thought that maybe when I come here I can finally get a taste of it but someone else came along. She was willing. You were just too damn slow and stupid. All you did was waste my time." He glared at her.
"And now that I finally told you everything…leave me alone you wrench! I have a better prize in my hands now."
My voice was breaking. I shouldn't even be so upset! I felt so mad at Temari for leading me on, Gaara for playing me, and even more…myself. We had only shared one kiss, my first kiss, and that was it. I shouldn't be so stupid. I didn't even say I love him and I don't. I don't.
You're fuckin' perfect to me
The world stares while I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and I tried tried
But we try too hard, it's a waste of my time
Done looking for the critics, cuz they're everywhere
They don't like my genes, they don't get my hair
Stringe ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that?
Why do I do that?
Why do I do that?
The words suddenly made me feel stronger. The dancers started to surround me again but this time I pushed them back and walked past them confidently.
Ooh, pretty pretty pretty,
Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like you're less then, fuckin' perfect
Pretty pretty please if you ever ever feel
Like you're nothing you're fuckin' perfect, to me
Pretty, pretty please don't you ever ever feel like you're less then, fucking perfect
Pretty, pretty please if you ever ever feel like you're nothing you're fucking perfect to me
I breathed heavily, and the music clicked to a stop, the dancers panting as they bowed their heads. The light turned off for a moment and we all lined up, excited and relieved that it's over. The curtains closed and we got ready for the ending bow.
"What do you think?" I whispered softly to Naomi as she linked arms with me.
"I thought you were amazing!"She smiled at me and her brown eyes twinkled. I laughed.
"Hopefully they think so too!"The curtains creaked as they pulled back, the red velvet looked like a waterfall as it rippled and folded back into the dark. The crowd all stood still, unmoving, and completely quiet. My heart thudded loudly in my ears.
"Was I that bad…?"I whispered softly, my mind crumbling. O god, I made a complete fool out of myself. Suddenly, right when I was about to turn and make a run for it…I heard a familiar WHOOP!
"WHOOOOO! YEAH, HINATA-CHAN!" I saw a yellow and orange blur jumping up and down excitedly and couldn't help but feel my heart warm up when I realized it was Naruto with his big baby blue eyes shining on me. Then the next person surprised me. It was Temari.
"YEAH! THERE"S MY GIRL!" Temari screamed as she threw her hands in the air. Sakura laughed and followed suit.
"That was AWESOME!" Then the whole crowd followed just exploded, erupting into claps and enthusiastic yells. My shoulders fell as a wave of relief just washed over me.
"See, you just rendered them speechless."Naomi giggled in my ear. I squealed and hugged her in joy.
"We did it!" I let go of her so her friends can now glomp her. I approach Tsunade and Shizune who hug me as soon as I'm within reach.
"GOD that was awesome!" Tsunade grinned.
"Arigato,"I giggled and froze when I realized Shizune was crying.
"Shizune!" I gasped, mortified at the sight of my mother sobbing.
"That was so beautiful! And the way you sang it…was just perfect!" She smiled at me proudly. "Good job Hinata." I laughed, yet somewhere there was a dull aching. The pain was still fresh.
"God, if a guy ever gets your heart, I don't know what I'd do." Tsunade sighed. And immediately I saw Gaara. The tears were beginning to fall. Why am I so pathetic?
"I uh…got to go." I mumbled as quickly as I could and bolted out of there. I didn't want anyone to see me cry anymore. And I just couldn't understand why i was feeling this way. Maybe...i just need to let it out.
I saw it, in the middle of the song, I saw how she looked at me. How her eyes glistened and how her voice almost broke. People might think it's just to go with the song…but…I know why. I see her leave out back, almost too quick and I immediately follow her.
I ran around the stage and end up in the back, undetected and there she was. Oh kami, my heart broke at the sight in front of me.
There she was leaning on the stage as she bent forward, her arms dangling numbly at her sides. Her ivory skin was glowing in the sunset as the red silk glistened like water that wrapped her figure perfectly. Her elegant black hair tumbled down her shoulders like delicate ribbons, free of the bun and braid. She looked so bruised and broken alone there. Her beautiful face held a pained expression no matter how serene it also looked. Silent tears slipped its way down her cheeks as she bit down on her luscious lips to keep quiet.
Even when crying. She didn't want to bother others.
This was enough. She was like a sister to me. She has to stop hurting now.
I approached her silently but when her shoulders stiffened, I knew she knew I was with her.
"Temari." Her voice was desperately hoarse yet when she looked at me, her sun kissed orbs were startlingly fierce. It made me stop out of surprise but then now that she knew I was here, I took another step but with care this time.
I know Hinata won't hurt me, no matter how distressed she is but…I can't help but still feel a bit threatened. I am a shinobi after all and I know what this innocent little girl can do.
"Hinata." I answered back curtly. She straighten herself up and wiped away the tears quickly.
"What are you doing here?" Her eyes didn't leave mines. They were untrusting of me. They didn't want me. They were uncaring. They made me pause to stare at the lovely stranger in front of me. She was closing me off. Her beautiful golden eyes stared sharply back until I was forced to turn away and stare instead at the dusty brick colored ground. It felt like a slap to the face.
I felt guilty. Remorse.
Where's my Hinata?
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