Title: Salt in Your Wounds

Author: Kirstie ( lullabylucky)

Characters/Pairings: Bella. Jasper. Edward. Cullen gang.

Rating: R

Summary: Jasper's eyes bore into mine. Hatred shone brightly but something underneath that was what caught my attention. Need, want, lust.

Spoilers: All the series I guess.

Notes/Disclaimers: Nothing's mine. Even though I have a strong desire to own Edward and/or Jasper and Emmett. This is in an AU future where Bella is a vampire. And it's in her POV. Also, it's important to know that Bella's power, as a vampire, is that she absorbs other powers; and then keeps them. It'll be mentioned without explanation in this fic.

Prologue.

I had been turned into what I am about thirty years ago. Edward bit me the day after my nineteenth birthday. The day after our wedding.

I went kicking and screaming but I went through with it. From that day on, I was looking forward to being with Edward forever. It was the one thing I wanted more than anything.

Our forever lasted twenty-seven years.

Three years ago Edward and Alice were killed. We had been forced into a fight with a nearby clan over the issue of what they intended on hunting. We won the battle but lost two of our own.

Jasper hasn't said a word since that day. Esme is still heartbroken. Carlisle is at the hospital more than necessary and when he's home, he's in his office. Emmett's voice and booming laughter no longer ring through the house. And Rosalie has turned to me for a sister that I can't be. Not now.

I'm sitting on the couch when the door slams against its frame. I look up from my seat in the living room to see Jasper coming through the front door.

Jasper's eyes bore into mine. Hatred shone brightly but something underneath that was what caught my attention.

Need, want, lust.

Before I could decipher it more, he was up the stairs and even in the living room, I heard the click of the lock.

It's been three years to this day since we lost them. Jasper lost Alice and I lost Edward. We lost them in the same fight to the same person. Both Jasper's and my own dead hearts did more than break that day. They shattered.

Jasper blamed me for their deaths and I blamed him.

So when I saw the need in Jasper's eyes, I knew this wasn't going to end well.