DISCLAIMER: I do not own One Tree Hill, or any of the characters, except the made up ones.

AN: So here's my new story. It's different from my other stories but i hope that you like it. The first chapter is really long and will set up of the rest of the story. It's rated T for now but will be rated M for later chapters. Please just give it a chance and please review.

I need a sign to let me know you're here
'Cause my TV set just keeps it all from being clear
I want a reason for the way things have to be
I need a hand to help build up some kind of hope inside of me

By: train

6 months gone

"Lucas honey, it's time to get up," Karen yelled into his room. Minutes later a very dressed Lucas walked into the kitchen.

"Hey mom," Lucas said walking up and giving her a hug.

"I thought that you were going to sleep the day away Luke," Keith said with a laugh.

"So what are your plans for this lovely Saturday?" Karen asked her son. He looked at her with sadness in his eyes.

"Mom, you know where I'm going," Lucas said. Karen just looked up and smiled at her son as she put a hand on her pregnant stomach.

"Well then I'll stop buy for lunch," Karen said kissing his cheek.

"Did someone say lunch, because I'm there," Keith said sitting at the table.

"Yes Lucas me and my husband will be there," Karen said with a big smile.

"You guys are such dorks," Lucas said looking at the two. "Been married for four months and still acting like teenagers."

"Now is that any way to talk to your parents?" Keith said with a grin.

"Yea, when they're dorks," Lucas said with a chuckle.

"That hurt's Luke," Karen said smiling. The room grew silent as they ate there breakfast.

"Luke, I know that this is a difficult time right now and I just want you to know that me and your mom are here for you," Keith said putting his hand on Lucas's shoulder.

"I know," Lucas said standing up and walking to the door. "I love you guys."

"We love you too," they both said at the same time.

He walked down the sidewalk that he did so many times, going to a place that had become like a second home to him the last six months. He could walk there with his eyes closed, he was sure of it. Six month's of walking back and fourth to the same place. He felt the wind pick up and decided to make a turn and see if a friend would like to join. He walked right into the house and right up to her room.

"Hey you," Lucas said sitting on the bed as she turned to face him from the computer.

"Is something wrong Luke?" Peyton asked.

"Just seeing if you wanted to come with me today?" Lucas said with a smile. "I could use the company."

"Sure, of course I told you that I'm here for you," Peyton said standing up. "Besides I was going to go visit today anyway."

"Now we can go together, strength in numbers," Lucas said.

"Do you think that he will be there?" Peyton asked as they walked out of her room.

"If he's not still drunk from last night, then yeah," Lucas said as they walked outside.

"We can take my car," Peyton said.

"Actually can we walk? It helps me clear my head, before I get there," Lucas said.

"Sure Luke," Peyton said taking his hand. They walked in silence as the world moved around them. With every step that they made brought them closer to there destination and Lucas felt his stomach become weak. He was used to it though. Six months of something happening and you just get used to it. You would think that it would be easier for him, but each day it got harder.

"Luke are you sure that your okay?" Peyton asked as she saw his whole body frame look like it was weakened.

"Yeah, just trying to deal with the pain, the only way I know how," Lucas said.

It had been six months and she watched the boy that she was in love with lose his spirit. He wasn't the same cherry Lucas Scott that she had once known and had stolen her heart. He was a sad and miserable person. She watched each day as he lost the person he was. She shouldn't be surprised, it was happening to every person that she loved now a day's. It was even happening to her, how could it not. They had to experience something that people go a life time without dealing with.

They finally made it to their destination; they walked down the familiar halls to the room that had part of their hearts and souls in.


getting it off my chest

Brooke Davis woke up to her cell phone ringing in her ear. She opened her eyes and eyed her phone like she wanted to make it disappear with just the look she gave it. Seeing who it was she quickly sat up and answered it.

"What do you want?"

"I just want to talk."

"I have nothing to say to you."

"Please Brooke, it's been six months."

"Yeah you don't have to tell me, I've been living these very painful six months."

"I'm sorry."

"Are you? I don't think that you are one bit. Because of you everyone's life's changed. Everyone has been suffering, because of you."

"I really am sorry, I didn't mean it. I was just hurt about him not wanting me."

"Well thanks to you, we are all miserable."

"Brooke please we used to be friends."

"Yeah you got that right used to be."

"Is there anything I can do to make this up to you?"

"Do you hear yourself? I'm not the one that you should be having this conversation with, you ruined his life. Do you even care?"

"Of course I do."

"You ruined everything. And now everybody's life is worse because of you. Doesn't it even matter to you, a little bit? Are you going to change a single thing because of it?"


"No I don't want to hear it, you're a bad person, and because of you everyone that I love is miserable. Don't call here again."

Brooke hung up her cell phone and threw it across the room. Six months of not hearing from her and she finally had the nerve to call. Six month's of waiting to tell her off and it was finally over with. She could forget about her, but never forget about what she did. But they all knew every single one of them knew that it was her that caused so much pain, pain that she could never take away. She got out of bed and went straight for her shower. Six months and Brooke Davis was not the same person. She walked around her one bed room apartment everyday wishing that it would feel like home, the way it used to but it never did. Everyday she would walk into her living room and see photos of the way that things used to be, but things change. People change, things happen that you have no control over. Good people suffer because of the bad ones. Tragedies happen, that's life, what are you gonna do give up stop fighting. No you deal with it, you take on the pain each day at a time and pray that there's a miracle still left out there.


Dying with guilt

Nathan Scott stood at the Melina Bridge looking into the water. He took the bottle of scotch and chugged another sip into his mouth. It felt the hard liquor pour down his throat, and move down his body. He loved drinking and over the last six months he had gotten used to it. He needed it. It numbed the pain, it made it go away, and the way his life was he wanted the pain to go away. Here he was yet again standing in the middle of the Melina Bridge looking down, if he moved a single step closer he would be gone, lost into the current of the river that ran underneath. He hadn't slept the night before; the dreams were driving him crazier than he already thought that he was. The things that would happen felt so real. He looked to the side and saw her standing there. Of course it wasn't her, but she sure as hell looked just like her. But this was not her, this was the mean evil her. She taunted him, tormented him. She was always next to him in her stupid black gothic clothing making him miserable. Saying things that the real her would never say.

"You actually gonna jump today?"

"Shut up!"

"It's a question Nathan, are you going to do it today."

"Please just leave me alone."

"I'm here because you want me to be Nathan."

"What I want is for you to leave me alone."

"No you don't, because you think that if I went away then that mean's that she's not coming back. Isn't that right Nathan."

"Don't act like you know me."

"But I do Nathan."

"Sure you do."

"You've been coming out to this bridge everyday for the last six months with one thing on your mind, and that's to jump."

"It won't take away the pain."

"It might."

"I just want it to end."

"It can, just let go."

"No your not her, she wouldn't be saying this."

"Yes she would. Look at you. You're a pathetic alcoholic."

"I lost everything."

"See that's where you're wrong Nathan."

"She's never coming back."

"That's what makes you weak. You have no faith."

"It's been six months."

"She's been gone longer."

"This isn't the same."

"You're afraid."

"Whatever just leave me alone."

"I'll go for now."

With that she disappeared into thin air and left him all alone again. People certainty thought that he was crazy walking around town talking to someone that clearly wasn't there. Everyone wanted him to get some help, but he wasn't the same Nathan Scott that listened to what people had to say. For six months he had been dying inside slowly. Most men wouldn't have survived what he went threw, but he did. The great Nathan Scott did, and he hated himself for it. She was right, he did come to the bridge everyday to jump, but something always stopped him. He wanted too, he really did, and this is after all where he lost everything. The wind picked up and his once short hair was now long and uncut. It flew around his head as he lifted his arms and closed his eyes like he was about to jump and end it all. End all the suffering that he was going threw.


i'm not letting go

Lucas and Peyton stood hand-in-hand outside of room 223. He slowly opened the door and led them next to the bed side. They both took a seat next to the lifeless body.

"He should be here," Lucas said coldly.

"I know," Peyton said softly. To have to see someone that you care about with more tubes and monitors that you could count being a life line for them, is really hard. Lucas took her hand in his and placed a soft kiss as he closed his eyes.

They sat there in silence. Peyton brought herself to look around the room. Flowers were everywhere, pictures that Brooke had set up hoping that she would wake up.

"Hello you two," the nurse said walking into the room.

"Hey Brent," Peyton said with a smile.

"Don't mind me, I'm just changing her IV," Brent said moving to the side of the bed. He looked down at her and it brought a smile to his face. "Isn't she beautiful?" It wasn't a question; they all knew that the statement was true.

"Yeah she is," Peyton said looking at her friend.

"I feel like today is going to be a good day," Brent said changing the bag.

"Oh yeah how's so," Peyton asked.

"I can feel it," Brent said with a smile. He had been her nurse for the last four months, and he was very hot. He had blond hair, with these beautiful green eyes. Peyton liked the way that he was with her friend. He took special care of her, always checking on her making sure that she was okay.

"Yeah well it's been six months," Lucas said bitterly.

"She can still wake up ya know," Brent said.

"Would you quit saying that," Lucas yelled. "Everyday you say that, and guess what nothing's changed."

"Luke," Peyton said taking her hand in his.

"I'm sorry Brent," Lucas said.

"It's okay man, I don't know how I would be dealing if I was in your shoes," Brent said. "I'll leave you two alone." He walked out of the room.

"I just want her to wake up," Lucas whispered.

"We all do Luke," Peyton said squeezing his hand.

He smiled at her before turning his attention back to his friend. He felt a tiny pain in his heart as he saw the tube sticking threw her mouth keeping her alive. The heart monitor was beeping steadily like it always did. Lucas picked up her hand and gently kissed it again, as if trying to heal her broken body.

"Please Hales wake up," Lucas asked pleading. The beeping monitor stopped beeping and had one long line run across as the beeping dragged out. They both jumped out of their seats in tears as she flat lined in front of them. Her heart literally stopped beating as they were in the room with her. They jumped when they saw Brent and some doctors burst threw the door and immediately started working on her. Lucas thought that he would have a heart attack, and was thankful that he had taken his medicine that morning. He felt Peyton trembling as he held her as they both cried in each other's arms.

"Charging, clear," Brent yelled as he shocked Haley's body. But nothing happen, her heart still didn't have a beat. They did it again but got the same result, they looked at Peyton and Lucas.

"I'm sorry," Brent said softly.

"No! You try again," Lucas yelled as he let go of Peyton. This was his bestfriend he couldn't just give up. She couldn't, they couldn't survive without her.

"I'm sorry…"

"I said please try again," Lucas yelled louder. Brent did as the hopeless man had asked him too. He watched her friends come everyday for the last six months but she never woke up. He felt sorry for them. They all seem so lost without her. He looked at them and he felt like he had to give it another shot of them.

"Charging, and clear," Brent said as he shocked Haley's body again. The heart monitor started beeping slowly. Brent checked her pulse and smiled. "I got a heart beat."

"Thank god," Peyton cried into Lucas's chest. Lucas just closed his eyes and let out a breath of relief. She came back to them.

"She's still here," Lucas whispered into her hair.

"Guys can you leave the room, while we check a few things," the doctor asked. They both nodded their heads and left the room, going to the waiting room down the hall.

Brooke walked down the hospital halls, and stopped when she saw Lucas and Peyton in the waiting room crying. Six months ago she would be hurt by such a thing, but now things were different. She and Lucas weren't together anymore, they were friends. She rushed into the room.

"Hey is everything okay?" Brooke asked.

"She um….just flat lined," Peyton said letting go of Lucas and hugging Brooke.

"They brought her back right?" Brooke asked as tears started forming in her eyes. Her roommate, her bestfriend had to be okay.

"Yeah, they are with her now," Peyton said. Lucas walked up to the two of them and they all held each other. Six months ago this wouldn't have been possible. The three of them, hugging like everything was fine. But things happen in life that changes you; it makes you realize what's truly important in your life. And for all three of them it was friendship.

Six months ago Brooke told Peyton that their friendship was over, not even an hour later they were holding each other crying. They both loved Lucas, this was true. But that didn't stop them from needing each other. Lucas loved them both he couldn't deny it, everyone knew it. He was a completely different person with each of them, but over the last six months he only wanted to be one person, and that person was Haley's bestfriend. He watched as everyone around him died a little inside without her in their lives. Whether anyone believed it are not, she was a part of them, and without her they didn't feel whole.

"Is Nathan here?" Brooke asked. Lucas just rolled his eyes, angry that she would even ask. Of course Nathan wasn't here; he was off drinking his life away. Six months ago Lucas and Nathan were friends and brothers, now they barely even said a word to each other. They all let go of each other as Brent walked into the room.

"Is Mr. Scott here," Brent asked already knowing the answer.

"No he's not," Brooke said with a smile as she saw him.

"Just tell us," Lucas said getting annoyed. He didn't know why everyone always asked for Nathan, he was hardly ever here.

"Well as you know she flat lined, but we brought her back," Brent said. "But she didn't have a heart beat for a few minutes there."

"What are you saying?" Lucas asked. He saw the concerned look in Brent's eyes and it scared him.

"We won't know if it did any damage to her brain until she wakes up," Brent said.

"Thank you for bring her back," Brooke said.

"Don't thank me, thank Lucas. If it weren't for him, I wouldn't have tried a third time," Brent said walking away.

"I'm going to go find Nathan," Peyton said. For the last six months she watched Nathan self destruct. He became a raging alcoholic who didn't even talk to anyone. He shut everyone out, didn't even let Lucas help him threw this. It killed her to see him this way, she knew that he felt alone but he wasn't they were there. They would never leave him, they needed him just as much as he needed them.

"He's at the bridge again, I saw him on my way over here, bottle of scotch and all," Brooke said as Lucas walked off. "I'll make sure that he's okay."

They both watched as the once best friends and brother's become estranged again. The very force that had brought them together was lying down the hall in a coma, and without her there it's like they couldn't get along.

losing it

Peyton left the hospital and made her way to the Melina Bridge. She arrived and saw Nathan standing over the edge of the bridge looking like he was about to jump.

"Plan on jumping hotshot?" Peyton questioned. Nathan's eyes flew opened as he heard her voice.

"Maybe," Nathan answered honestly. "I wish that I could go back and change it."

"I think that we all wish that," Peyton said looking out into the water. "How much have you had to drink?"

"Not enough," Nathan said taking another swig. It would never be enough to make the pain go away.

"We almost lost her today," Peyton said. Nathan didn't even move he just kept looking into the water.

"I wish I could take it all back," Nathan whispered.

"This isn't you're fault Nathan," Peyton said.

"I just want it all back," Nathan said.

"Nathan," Peyton said as he moved closer to the edge. She was scared that he would do something stupid.

"I keep replaying that day over and over in my head," Nathan said as tears fell. "For the last six months, it just plays over and over again. I knew that something bad was going to happen to her, I told Lucas. The whole day I was worried that I would lose her that I couldn't even see that it was my fault it happened."

"You're not the person to blame Nate."

"It was supposed to be the happiest day for our lives, but it turned into the worst."

"I know," Peyton said softly.

the reason


6 Months Ago

"Don't say I never gave you anything," Haley said with a giggle as she put the crackerjack bracelet that he had given her around his hand. She looked over and smiled at him, as he smiled back. He put his eyes back on the road; Lucas would kill him if he let something happen to his car.

"There's something that I have to tell you," Haley said with a smile. Nathan took his eyes off the road and glanced at his wife. Before Haley could have a chance to speak she saw the limo coming straight for them. "Nathan look out!"

Nathan stomped his foot on the brakes as the car flew out of control, the limo hit them from the side sending both cars off the Melina Bridge and into the river.

Lucas, Karen and Keith were on there way to meet Nathan and Haley to give Haley her purse when they came up to the Melina Bridge. One side of the bridge had clearly been hit, and Keith quickly pulled the car over as they all got out. Lucas was the first to notice the end of his car sticking out of the water.

"Oh my God," Lucas said. Without even thinking twice he took off his jacket and dove into the river with Keith following. Lucas went straight to his car to look for his brother and bestfriend. He saw nothing and quickly came to the surface looking around as he saw Keith dragging out Rachel to the shore where Karen had ran too.

"Call 911," Keith yelled as he went back into the car.

"I can't find Nathan and Haley," Lucas screamed.

"Luke they have to be in here," Keith yelled as he dove back into the water. Lucas did the same but he saw nothing. He came back up for air minutes later as saw Keith carrying Cooper to the shore. He turned his head and finally saw Nathan and Haley on the other side of the shore.

"Keith I found them," Lucas yelled as he started swimming as fast as he could to them. They both were lying on their stomachs and Nathan had a protective arm around Haley, and Lucas could tell that Nathan had brought her to the shore. The sirens soon came and took every one to the hospital.

They stood in the waiting room waiting to hear about anyone of the four of them. Brooke, Peyton, Deb, Skillz, Bevin, Junk, Mouth, Fergie, and Dan had all shown up. It felt like hours of them waiting as a doctor finally entered.

"Mrs. Scott," the doctor said walking up to Deb who stood up.

"Is my son okay," Deb asked as the tears fell from her eyes.

"We don't know yet," the doctor said. "This is about your brother Cooper Lee."

"Please tell me he's okay," Deb said as Karen took her hand.

"We did everything we could, but we lost him," the doctor said with sorrow. Deb collapsed into Karen's arms. "Does anyone know how long they were all under the water for?"

"No sir we don't," Keith answered.

Everyone cried as the doctor left the room, for the loss of Cooper. An hour later they were told that Nathan was wake and that nothing was wrong with him.

"Oh thank god you're alright," Deb said as they all crowded the room.

"Where's Haley?" Nathan asked confused. He remembered her screaming for him to look out, but after that it was all a blank for him.

"She's with the doctors Nate," Lucas said.

"How is she? I need to see her," Nathan said trying to get up. His whole body was aching in pain, but nothing compared to the aching in his heart for her.

"Nathan they will let you know when she's better okay son," Dan said. The doctor walked into the room.

"Is Haley okay?" Nathan asked.

"We still don't know," the doctor said. "I just wanted to let you know that Miss Gattina is okay."

"What about my Uncle Cooper?" Nathan asked.

"Nathan honey he didn't make it," Deb said as more tears fell. Nathan cried in his mother's arms at the loss of his uncle and the uncertainty of his wife's fate.

Hours had passed by and still no word on Haley. Everyone was back in the waiting room including Nathan waiting for anything. Nathan jumped up as the doctor walked into the waiting room.

"How's my wife?" Nathan asked.

"Can we speak in private," the doctor asked.

"We are all family," Nathan said.

"Your wife suffered a server trauma to the head, she has two broken rids, a broken leg. Now we just got out of surgery but she has slipped into a coma," the doctor said.

"Well when will she wake up?" Nathan asked.

"That's really up to her, it could be hours, days, weeks, and even months," the doctor said.

"But she's okay?" Nathan asked.

"We did everything that we could for her," the doctor said. "We tired to save the baby but your wife was our main priority. I'm sorry Mr. Scott but we lost him."

"Baby?" Nathan asked. "What baby?"

"I'm sorry Mr. Scott but your wife was pregnant," the doctor said before walking out of the room.

Nathan fell in his brother's arms as they both cried. "She was pregnant Luke." Nathan said in between sods. "She said that she had something to tell me right before the crash."

"It's okay," Lucas said hugging his brother.

End of Flashback

needing you

Peyton held Nathan's hand as they walked down the dark halls of the hospital. They reached the room and walked inside finding Lucas sitting next to her holding her hand. He got up and walked over to where Brooke was sleeping and put a cover over her. Nathan walked next to the bed and took his wife's hand in his as he sat down.

"Thank you for coming back," Nathan said as he kissed her hand. "Please wake up, I need you, we need." No truer words could have come out of his mouth. He was right; they all needed her in some way.

She was fighting it, they all knew this. Why else would she have held on for this long? She was strong, she didn't let go. Even in a coma Haley was fighting. She was fighting for her life and the lives for those people that she loved so dearly. She wasn't giving up and neither were they. Giving up wasn't even a possibility. He was right they did need her. They need her back so that things could go back to normal. So that they could be normal seniors, well as normal as they could be.

He squeezed her hand as he looked at her face, with all those tubes coming out of her, and it made him cry harder. He was supposed to protect her and he failed. He didn't deserve her. He closed his eyes wishing that he could take her place, and he felt her hand move in his. He opened his eyes and he saw her fingers moving.

"Guys, she's moving her fingers," Nathan said looking over his shoulder as they came running to the bed.

"Oh my god," Lucas said watching her.

"I'll go get the doctor," Peyton said leaving the room.

"Please come back tutor girl," Brooke said as Lucas took her hand in his.

All three of them looked on in tears as her eyes slowly shuttered open. When she finally had them open, she looked at them in fear as she couldn't move, so let go of Nathan's hand and brought it to her mouth, where a very large tube was in. The doctors rushed into the room making everyone leave. They stood out of her room waiting for the doctor's to say that it was okay to come in. It wasn't until an hour later that they finally sent them back in.

"Okay you can go in and see her, but I got to tell you she wasn't talking while we were in there," the doctor warned them before they walked into the room.

Haley was sitting up in the bed with her head against the pillow looking out the window next to her bed. The tube was removed from her mouth, as she clearly was able to breath on her own now. She had picked her hair up into a ponytail. Nathan rushed to her side and took her hand in his.

She didn't turn her face to look at any of them.

"I miss you so much," Nathan said with a soft smile. His voice was shaky. She finally brought her face to look at him, and he did like what he saw in her eyes. She pulled her hand out of his grasp.

"Who are you?" Haley asked. They all looked on like it was some kind of a joke.

"Haley are you okay?" Lucas asked moving closer.

She looked at them trying to say something, looking for the right words but nothing was coming to the surface. She was reaching in her mind, grabbing for anything but there was nothing it was blank.

"Who's Haley?" Haley asked looking at the four strangers. "Who are you people?"

AN: Okay so here's a little info. Everything happened in season 1-3 but the shooting, so Keith is still alive. Of course the crash is different, but the rest is pretty much the same. Keith and Karen are married and pregnant. Lucas is not with Brooke or Peyton, and I don't really care who he is with so you pick, tell me if you want Brucas or Leyton. This is a Naley but they will have a little of the other's character's but it's mostly about Nathan and Haley. It's rated T for now but will change to M for some chapters. Please review and let me know what you think.