Her soft brown hair blew in the wind as she sat down on the rock gracefully. She wound her arms around her knee caps and placed her chin on top.
She had a elegant smile on her face that was only described as heavenly.
I walked closer to her, but yet kept my distance.
I needed her, wanted her, grieved for her day by day. Like I had imprinted on her from the very first time I heard her light voice.
She tucked a lock of hair behind her ear and closed her eyes.
Oh what I wouldn't give to be hers. To hold her and protect her. I would love her, and always be with her.
I leaned crouched down farther behind the tree but kept watch on her.
That stupid blood sucker left her unprotected. How cruel.
I sighed and watched her eye lids slowly slide back open. She looked around the place till she looked at the woods….were I was hiding.
I sucked in a sharp breath and froze. She caught sight of me.
Her face scrunched up in curiosity. As if she wasn't sure she saw me or not.
I hid lower behind the tree, but it was no use.
"Jacob?" rang her sweet voice.
My heart raced at the sound. I grabbed my chest and tried to slow down my breaths.
I could hear her loud footsteps fall off of the rock and walk slowly towards my direction.
"Jake, is that you?" she asked.
I scooted behind the tree as slowly and as quietly as I could. It killed me not to peak around the tree just to see her face.
Her foot steps were getting closer and my heart pounded like thunder.
What I would do to turn around and have her in my arms again. Just to have her, that's all I ask. She is my life, my soul, my curse, my everything. Without her I'm a cheap painting. A nothing. Just a boy in a mans body that turns into a furry creature when agitated.
I tried to hold back the tears by slamming my fist in my eye sockets.
Jake, come back. I heard Leah say.
I held back a grunt.
"Jacob, please." Bella whispered.
I knew she would never love me the way she would to that bloodsucker. I knew I would never be good enough. I knew that I was too late for anything. And I knew she doesn't want me.
So why am I here?
"Bella?" I heard a voice call.
She swiftly turned to look at the voice.
"Edward!" she breathed.
"What are you doing here?" he asked. I could sense him aware of my being here.
I tried not to think. Which was hard when all you ever think of is right behind you.
"It felt good outside today so I thought I'd come down here." she told him.
I put my fist in my mouth from screaming out to her, then slowly and yet again quietly tried to stand up.
"I'm sorry I didn't tell you." she apologized.
JACOB! Leah hissed.
Shut it! I'm coming! I growled.
"You're fine, love. Besides, I think you did a very good job of coming here." he said with a smile.
I finally stood all the way up so my back was to them, or, the tree with me behind it.
"Is that so?" she said with her head cocked.
"Alice had a vision you'd be here. So I decided to bring something for you." he said.
I held my breath and waited a little bit longer. I had to know what was going on.
"What?" I heard her footsteps getting closer to him.
My ears were opened to the fullest. Like I was hunting for a vampire.
"I thought you might want to have a picnic with me." he said lifting something up.
I let out a silent cry of pain. That should be me saying that to her. Not him.
I heard her softly chuckle, "You are going to eat with me?"
I swallowed hard and stood on the balls of my feet.
JACOB BLACK! Leah screamed.
SHUT UP LEAH! GO TRY TO WIN SAM BACK OR SOMETHING! GO KILL EMILY FOR ALL I CARE RIGHT NOW! I screamed.
I knew I was going to pay for that.
You think you're the real stuff for her don't you? Huh? Because you can protect her and love her. You really think you can? WELL THINK AGAIN! She chose her path now you choose yours! You'll never be hers! Why cant you see that?! Oh! Wait, maybe because you're an emotional dog! Leah said.
I growled mentally, YOU HAVE NO ROOM TO BE TALKING ABOUT AN EMOTIONALL DOG! At least my father is still living! I didn't kill him!
Leah rarwed, YOU KNOW WHAT SAM SAID ABOUT THAT! WE DIDN'T INTENTIONALLY KILL HIM! HOW SARE YOU SAY SUCH A THING! YOU FOWL MOUTHED STOCKER FURRY INFESTED IMMATURE LOW LIFE DEPRESSED PUPPY WANNA BE HOT SHOT CANT GET SOMEONE TO LOVE BECAUSE HES A SORE LOOSER HATED DOG! THIS IS REALITY JACOB! NOW GET A LIFE! she said.
I had to admit, I deserved that. I never knew I could be so cruel about a tender subject like that.
My life is over and has been over ever since I became this!
LIVE WITH IT! LIKE I, A GIRL!, WANTED TO BE A WEREWOLF! I HAD OTHER EXPECTATIONS! AND THIS WASN'T ONE OF THEM! AND LOOK HOW MUCH IM DEALING WITH HERE! she cried.
I took in a deep breath and tried to stop shaking. Blowing my cover wasn't part of the plan.
I shut her out of my memory and focused on Bella.
"So? What do you think?" Edward asked.
Bella made a sound of pleasure, "It's wonderful. Who knew a vampire could cook?"
I shook so hard the leaves of the tree trembled.
I had enough. I took off into the woods and back to the Sam's in wolf form. Wouldn't this be wonderful news to Leah?
I couldn't stop but keep thinking about Bella. That image of her, so peaceful, and beautiful as she sat on the rock was stuck in my memory.
The only thing that bothered me was knowing that my thoughts weren't blocked like I had hoped. Edward knows I was there, and he knows what all I was saying. And yet, he didn't fight me off and away from her.
I stumbled back to the house and transformed back.
Sam was waiting there with a pile of new jeans.
"Here." he said holding them out to me.
I gladly took them and walked off into the woods and changed behind a bush.
After I was through I walked back out and meet up with Sam.
He walked with me into Emily's house.
As soon as I got in there someone pounced on me in human form. Her teeth her showing and curled back. She growled fiercely.
"Off Leah!" Sam directed.
"Not till I get a hunk out of him!" she said.
I growled back. Her eyes were blazing with fury and hate, and everyone knew why.
"Now Leah!" Sam ordered.
She slowly backed off but never took her eyes off of me. She still growled though.
I jumped to my feet swiftly but kept my eyes on her.
"I have news." Sam said grabbing a tuna sandwich off the tray.
Embry looked at me with sad eyes, like always. He isn't sure whether or not to talk to me.
"We have decided came across a new path of were wolfs. Now, I'm not exactly sure, but Billy said they weren't too far away." he said. He took a bite of half the sandwich and swallowed.
Paul chewed and stared at him, "And?"
"And, they will be joining us." he said.
Paul slammed his fist on the table, "Absolutely not."
"Why not?" Jared asked.
"Because we have more than enough as it is! I mean come on! Emily will have to move out soon if we have more joining." Paul said.
"Its not like they're living here Paul. Just eating." Seth said.
I quietly chewed my food in the corner were Leah kept glaring at me.
"You're not the leader here Paul. Now I saw we let them join. It would be better. We could have even numbers. Besides, the more, the less." he said not having to say vampires.
"I don't know, what do you think Jake?" Jared asked.
Everyone looked at me. Even Emily stopped cooking and stared at me.
I looked angry, "Its not my choice."
"You're the second in command, you have a saying." Leah hissed.
"Everyone has a saying Leah, not just me." I said throwing down the last bite of my sandwich.
"Why don't you let them join?" Emily asked once she turned back to cook.
Sam walked over beside her after realizing they're distance and placed his hand on the small of her back.
"First we don't know who they are or what they do." Paul said ticking them off on his finger.
"They are brother and sister and they do nothing but guard at nights." Sam said to him.
"How old are they?" Jared asked.
"They are both Jacobs age. They are twins." Sam answered.
"Okay, are they newborns?" Embry asked.
"They've been a werewolf as long as Seth and Leah has." said Sam.
"Were are they from?" Embry asked.
"I heard they were from the coast somewhere."
"I still don't-"
"Look, lets just let them join for god sake. What harm would they do? If they even did we are twice as stronger." I growled.
Everything was silent after my speech. I scanned everyone's face, they were shocked.
Sam cleared his throat, "Well then, I agree with Jacob. Let them come."
Everyone started back up with eating their food.
I threw mine away and walked out to the porch steps.
I sat down on the first step and burried my head.
I heard the door open and slam shut. Naturally.
"Hey." Leah said.
I looked up at her and crossed my arms over my knees, "What do you want?"
She sighed, "Look, I'm sorry I said all of that stuff back there. I guess I was just.. blowing off steam. Now I didn't come out here to start anything, so don't get mad." she held up her hands.
I looked at her once and then sighed. I scooted over a little to give her room to sit.
She took the spot and sighed, "Nice day huh?"
I lowered my head, "I never noticed."
She looked at me and frowned, "Cant you be a little decent?"
"Look things haven't been going perfect right now. I'm not in the greatest mood." I growled.
"Okay, okay! I'm just saying, maybe your going over the top. Just, try to look at life in another view than what you see. Move on…I mean, look at me. I lost someone I loved to my cousin, my best friend. I thought I'd never get over it, but I did."
I looked up at her and saw her expression, saddened.
"And now I'm here, wound up as a werewolf, the only girl were wolf to be exact, and watching someone I loved be with my cousin. Day by day."
I straightened up a little and looked at her eyes. She was serious.
"Just, please Jake. Don't waste your time sulking over your loss like I once did." she said finally.
I stared at her for a moment, trying to figure her out. Was a female were wolf bi polar?
She swiftly got up and walked off into the woods.
I sighed and watched her disappear. I know I will never love her, but I will always guard her.