Who to Belong With
Lark watched Luke's X-wing fly out of sight from on board the Falcon. As she kicked herself again and again.
You stay behind in a life or death situation for Luke and then you don't even tell him how you feel. Now if that isn't the lamest thing ever… Lark shut off the voice in her head. She really wasn't in the mood for it.
"I guess your parents will be glad to see you." Lando said.
Lark nodded, the edge of her mind tickling her as it always did when she talked to Lando. There was something about him she couldn't put her finger on.
"If they don't kill me for all the stupid things I've been doing." She said.
"Falling for a boy who's in love with… someone else." She stopped herself from saying 'his sister'.
Lark nearly burst out laughing. "He would never go for me; we get along too well. And it's not you either; not that you're unattractive."
"Well thank you. If you had to pick between me and Han, who would it be?"
"Oh, you all the way."
"I know you're just saying that. And since there are only three males in this party, I assume you were talking about Luke?"
Lark nodded ruefully.
"He'll be back soon."
"Yeah, he's said that a couple of times. Somehow whenever he goes somewhere he gets delayed." Lark frowned. She should be with him. The problem was, he didn't need her help. At the beginning he'd been just a dazed farmboy with a crush on a beautiful princess, and she'd been the one with the Jedi parents, but now… Lark shook her head. Ever since she'd seen him on Tatooine, coolly facing off Jabba, things had been different. She'd been an idiot to think he would need her around.
Maybe it's a good thing I didn't tell him. She decided.
Bob paced back and forth in his quarters trying to figure out a way out of this mess.
I can't train a girl; I barely started my training myself.
"Is that really the reason why?"
Bob snapped around. "I don't need you butting in."
"Really?" Kitch said nonchalantly. "You underestimate yourself, Bob. You can train her."
"No, I can't."
"I don't know enough."
"You have the skills to use the Vapaad, you built up enough mental control to keep your thoughts completely shielded at all times, and you have the ability to see the past under the right circumstances. You're a skilled strategist, you look for new ways of doing things instead of remaining trapped, but you still respect the old ways of doing things. Bob, you are a Jedi to be respected."
"Maybe. But…" Bob stopped.
"Kitch, I can't sleep. Every time I do, I dream I'm drowning in the dark side. I'm… I'm tainted, and I don't know how to become clean again. I can't teach her about the light when I'm trapped away from it myself. Every time I try to break free, I get stuck."
"So do I." a small voice said. Bob whirled.
"Um, are you talking to yourself?"
"No. There's someone there; you just can't see him."
"I am too."
"Not sleeping." Lor stepped forward, more serious than Bob had ever seen her. "All I know is the dark side, and when I try to do what you did when we were fighting, I keep losing my grip on the Force. I don't know how to grab hold of the light; it keeps getting washed away." Lor's voice trembled. "What if I can't?"
Bob swallowed past a catch in his throat. "If there's hope for me, there's hope for you, and I haven't given up hope yet."
"Bob, please train me. You're the only one who won't condemn me."
"Jesse and Kimmy won't."
"Please, Bob." She begged.
How could he say no? After all, they were in the same boat. And if there was help out there, one of them would be the ones to find it. He nodded.
Jesse waited impatiently as the ship landed. Kimmy smiled beside him. Technically he should greet Princess Leia first, but she knew that the second Lark was off the ship she'd be the only one he'd notice. And it would be the same with her.
Leia was the first off as per protocol, and then Jesse sprang forward. Lark felt herself caught up in a pair of powerful arms. She swallowed hard.
"I'm ok." She said, stepping back a little so Kimmy could join in the group hug. As she looked over their shoulders, she saw Bob standing off to the side with a slight frown on his face as he waited his turn. She knew how he felt without even trying. No matter how close he was to Jesse and Kimmy, they would always be her parents first. She pulled back and went over to him.
"Glad you're safe." She murmured as she hugged him. "I was terrified for you."
"Same here." she could hear gratefulness in Bob's tone. "Jesse told me you stayed behind with Luke. Where is he?"
Lark dropped her gaze. "Don't know. All he said was that he had a promise to keep, and he would be back as soon as he could."
Lark perked up. There had been a lot of understanding behind that oh. Suddenly she remembered that he and Luke had disappeared together. Her eyes bored into his. "Where is he?"
Bob shifted, but he figured if he didn't tell her Jesse or Kimmy would. "he went back to Dagobah to finish his training with master Yoda."
Dagobah. Lark did some quick thinking. Their journey and Luke's had been about the same distance, and the Falcon was faster than even an X-wing. If she left now…
After just getting back? Lark automatically glanced in Jesse and Kimmy's direction.
"What are you thinking about?" Bob asked.
"Is there a fighter ready to leave?"
"Do I want to know why you want to know?"
"I kicked myself the entire trip back for not telling Luke how I feel. I may never see him again." Lark said.
"Are you planning on telling your parents that you're leaving again?"
"Can you keep them occupied?" Lark looked at him with pleading eyes.
"Tell them, Lark. If you want to be treated like an adult you have to act like one."
"Fine. But you don't know them like I do." She muttered and went over to where Jesse, Lando, and Han were talking. A light flashed in Lark's mind, and she whirled to face Bob. Then she turned again. Bob, Lando, Bob, Lando. It finally clicked. The reason Lando had seemed so familiar to her. They must be related somehow. She stepped up beside Jesse.
"Can I talk to you and mom?" she said in a low tone.
Jesse looked wary. "Sure."
"Two things." Lark said when they were together in a corner. "First of all, I need you to find out about Lando's past, Dad. I think he and Bob are related."
"What makes you think that?" Jesse asked.
"Luke and Leia's presences are similar in the Force, kind of like the same type of pattern, and when they're together, particles of it pull toward each other. Bob and Lando do the same thing, only it's not so strong, so they must be farther apart." Lark explained. It felt weird having to explain something to her parents, especially something that came so easily to her.
"Ok, what's the second thing?" Kimmy asked.
Lark took a deep breath. "I'm going back to Dagobah to meet up with Luke." She held up a hand. "I would have gone with him in the beginning, but I knew you wanted me to come back, and I didn't think he needed me. But it doesn't matter anymore. I have to go. He doesn't need me, but I need him." she waited, surprised at how calm she was. No matter what they said she was going. She had to. They must have sensed it.
"You grew up so fast." Kimmy said. "Especially in these past several months."
"I know." Lark looked at Jesse. Please don't try to stop me.
He didn't say anything for a long time, and then he cleared his throat. "Let's find a ship and get you prepped."
Lark jumped into his arms. "Thank you."