CHAPTER TWELVE: breathe

Alex's bus left at twelve o'clock and it was already eleven thirty. Of course, Marissa didn't know this, so she took her own sweet time. When Alex was getting into her car, waving goodbye to Alyssa and Kate, Marissa was going outside, lying to Summer about gas and ice cream. They drove right past each other, so intent on getting where they were going, that they didn't even notice. Marissa's mind was on other things. She would know what to say to Alex this time, she would tell the truth. She could feel Alex slipping away and didn't know how to stop it.

i played the fool today

and i can see us vanishing

into the crowd

Alex drove slowly, taking her last views of Newport. But everything seemed to remind her of Marissa. Finally, when a fire hydrant had her thinking of Marissa's nose, Alex sped up. She was going home, she told herself. 'But home is with Marissa', her traitorous heart told her. Alex only went faster.

longing for home again

but home

is a feeling i buried in you

that i buried in you

Marissa pulled up next to Alex's apartment and took a deep breath, trying to ease the ache in her chest for Alex. She got out and walked up to the door. Marissa had only just knocked when Kate opened the door.

"You just missed her", Kate said, a little sadly.

"Going where?", Marissa asked, wanting to follow Alex. Kate frowned.

"Didn't she tell you? She's going back to Reno." Marissa felt her heart stop for a second and spun around to go back to her car. "Bus station!" Kate called after her.

i'm all right i'm all right

it only hurts

when I breathe

Alex parked her car in an empty spot. Alyssa and Kate were supposed to drive up the next day and then sell her Jeep, since Alex had another car in Reno. Alex made sure she had everything she needed and got out. She walked toward the doors, her mind racing. She really wanted to turn tail and run. Run back to Marissa and tell her she was sorry. But Alex couldn't do that. Everything was to screwed up now.

and i can't ask

for things to be still again

i can't ask for you

to offer the world in your eyes

Marissa sped through traffic, trying to as fast as she could to get to Alex. She didn't want to think about what would happen if she was to late. If Alex was gone and there was nothing Marissa could do to get her back.

longing for home again

but home

is a feeling i buried in you

Alex gave the lady her ticket and watched her punch a neat hole in it.

"Through gate 3", the lady said, monotone. Alex nodded and walked through the gate and onto the bus. She glanced back and gave a silent goodbye to Newport.

i'm all right i'm all right

it only hurts

when i breathe

Marissa swerved into the parking lot and into an empty spot. She jumped out, racing to get to Alex before she left. Marissa glanced up at the board. Newport to Reno Now Leaving Gate 3 it read. Marissa ran to gate three, trying to reach the one person who made sense to her.

my window through which nothing hides

and everything sings

Alex watched the tourist beaches of Newport fly by. She tried to push Marissa from her mind, but the other girl lingered there, dwelling in every single thought. Alex sighed softly. 'These rides always take forever.' She thought.

counting the signs

and cursing the miles in between

When Marissa finally reached gate 3, the bus had already left. She stood there for a second, trying to convince herself that it was one big joke, a nightmare. It wasn't, of course, she knew that. She knew it because it there was the bus, speeding away with the one thing she might havereally wanted. She took a deep breath and on a bus a couple miles away, Alex did the same. Neither girl could force the other out of their mind or the ache off their chest.

i'm all right i'm all right

it only hurts

when I breathe

THE END.