DISCLAIMER: My name is not Stephenie Meyer. Therefore I do not own twilight. See? Simple.

Sorry it has taken so long for me to update my dad has been in the hospital and I have been really busy with school. Anyways here's Chapter 6. The song is Can't Get Over You by Gloria Estefan

Chapter 6: Can't Get Over You

Somewhere in Brazil, Edward sat in the corner of the dark attic of an abandoned house. He was looking out the window watching the sky struggling to think about anything but her if her thought about her too much his resolve would crumble and he would go back to Forks. But he just couldn't stop thinking about her, not for very long. There was no relief from the pain in his cold, unbeating heart. In all these months it hadn't faded, receded, gone away in the least. He ached for her; his entire body ached for her. If he could only see her one more time, she wouldn't even know he was there… NO! No. If I went and saw her again I wouldn't be able to stay away from her. It's better for her this way, with me gone. She's probably moved on by now. And even though that her moving on had been what he had wanted for her, the thought of her being with anyone else but him still pained him.

As he was once again fighting against the urge to go back to his angel, his laptop pinged on the desk a few feet away, signaling the arrival of a new message. Edward groaned. He hadn't even wanted the stupid thing; Alice had bought it for him when he had stopped answering his phone. The only reason he kept it was because sending an e-mail every so often kept them off his back. Somewhat. They sent a ton of e-mails begging him to come home, and lately Alice had been e-mailing him constantly, hinting around the Bella subject. He was starting to get angry. Why couldn't his family understand that he just couldn't do that to her? Going back would be pointless; it would just cause her more pain, going back when she had finally had a chance to get over him. Mumbling under his breath about people minding their own business he reluctantly got up to see what his family wanted this time.

When he sat down and looked at the screen he saw that the new message was from Alice. Again. He mumbled incoherently for a minute before opening it. She had just written a short message and there was an attached mp3 file.

Edward,

I'm not trying to hurt you; I'm trying to help you.

Edward, you're an idiot.

We all know that you made a mistake when you left Bella and you need to fix it and come back home. I know you think that she's better off without you Edward and that she'll be happier, but she's not. Just listen to this Edward, maybe it'll help you to understand.

All my love

-Alice

Reluctantly Edward clicked on the attached file and music began to fill the dark attic.

There's a part of me that's dying

Every time I hear your name

There's a part of me that's trying

To bring back your love again

There are times when I just want to run

But there's no place to hide

Even though my heart is breaking

In a million bits inside

I can make believe that none of this is true

Edward just sat there as still as a statue, mouth slightly open, not even breathing. If his heart had been beating, well it wouldn't be anymore. At first the voice had just sounded vaguely familiar; he just couldn't place it, maybe because he had never heard that voice sing before. He was amazed, could that really be her? His angel? Listening to the words he wondered for a moment if there was something to what Alice had written.

But I can't forget you

Can't break free

I've only got myself to blame

Nothing feels the same

Without you

Can't you see?

We can find tomorrow

What we lost yesterday

He could hear the pain flowing from her beautiful voice. Letting whoever listened to this song know that these lyrics actually meant something. He knew that his leaving would hurt her for a little while but he thought that she would be able to move on from it, leave it behind her. He wondered if this meant that she still loved him. He started to think about Alice's message more; maybe his leaving had been a mistake.

There are nights when I lay wide awake

Thinking how good it could be

Other nights, I don't feel worthy

Of the love you gave to me

I remember not too long ago

We were both here to stay

But it seems it happened overnight

When I threw it all away

I can't just walk away and find somebody new

How could he have done this to her? How could she think that she wasn't good enough? He had left because he wasn't good enough for her. He wanted to protect her. He wanted her to have a normal life, to give her a chance to love someone human, to have kids and watch them grow. He could never give her those things, he didn't deserve her. Maybe he should have told her differently, maybe he should have told her the complete truth… but no, she wouldn't have let him go if she knew he still loved her.

But I can't forget you
Can't break free
I've only got myself to blame
Nothing feels the same
Without you
Can't you see?
We can find tomorrow
What we lost yesterday
What we lost yesterday

His resolve was breaking down now. Everything he thought was right didn't seem so right anymore. She was supposed to be happy. His leaving was supposed to be good for her. He knew that it would hurt her at first but he had wrongly assumed that she would be able to get over him. The more he listened to her voice singing, the pain in it, the worse he felt. He had never imagined he could feel worse than he already did but listening to Bella sing tore a hole in him.

Hope that I can make you love me once again
'Cause I can't forget you
Can't break free
I've only got myself to blame
Nothing feels the same
Without you
Can't you see?
We can find tomorrow
What we lost yesterday
What we lost yesterday

Edward took a sharp breath as he continued to listen. Was what she said the truth? Was that how she really felt? Did she want him back, even after all this time? Was that even a possibility? And if she did, could he even bring himself to go back? Could he bear to go back to her, even though there was nothing in this world that he could possibly want more, could he go back to her knowing how much pain he's caused her? Would going back just cause her more pain? How could he have been such a fool? He should have listened to Alice, to his family. They had been so reluctant to follow his decision and yet they had been right all along. He had no idea what to do, what the right decision was. He wanted Bella, nothing would make him happier than to go back and spend the rest of her life trying to make up for this last year. Well he thought to himself, when in doubt go talk to the psychic. Oh won't Alice be pleased, after all this time I'm going home. He sighed and logged onto the internet starting to search for a plane ticket, Esme and Carlisle were in Maine so maybe he'd get lucky and Alice would be there to.


But I can't forget you
Can't forget you