Chapter 6

Secrets

"Please, please, please, please, please go on this date with him, for me!" Lilly exclaimed and I shrugged.

Lilly was trying to persuade me to go on a date with Jake, and she even said she and Oliver would be there, but I didn't want to go. It's not even her freaking problem and here she is, trying to get me to go out. How pathetic.

"Lilly, I told Jake I'll think about it and it's already Saturday. You think he'll want to go? He asked me yesterday and the date is tonight!" I exclaimed to Lilly as I walked out to the balcony of my room.

Lilly followed behind and walked up to the railing with me. She faced me as I faced out to look at the sky. Why can't I have one good day by my self instead with a girl trying to force me to do something I don't want to?

"Trust me Miley; he'll want you to go." Lilly grinned and put a hand on my shoulder.

I shrugged it off and turned away from her. "Only you would do this huh?"

I shook my head and felt Lilly move. I looked over my shoulder and saw Lilly leaning against her back to the railing.

"Well, I want you to be happy. I want you in a relationship and so far, it just seems like you're rejecting every offer Jake gives you. He really likes you and I'm still surprised you haven't kissed." Lilly chuckled.

I rolled my eyes. "There are more things in a relationship than kissing honey." I smirked.

"Haha… ahh." Lilly shook her head. "What happened to you?" Lilly asked and I tilted my head as I stared at her.

"What?" I questioned. What does she mean by that?

"I mean, you used to be so up and perky, but lately it's like you're a whole different person. What's bothering you?" Lilly asked and turned her head in my direction.

I shrugged and dropped my gaze. It was all because of her and I can't admit it. I never thought my emotions were changing while this whole crap was going on.

"Nothing's bothering me, I'm fine." I said and started walking back into my room.

I hear Lilly's footsteps and I suddenly felt a sharp sting from my chest. I don't know why, but for some reason, it felt like all my feelings for Lilly would suddenly come out. I don't know, it's like, I'm accepting this and yet I'm not. I change my mind with everything and I'm in a relationship I don't want to be in just because I want to make these feelings go away.

"Come on Miley! You're my best friend, why can't you tell me?" Lilly asked.

Of course she knew something was wrong with me. I just don't know how she can let go me groping her and kissing her so easily! I'm in shit because of that whole incident and yet there she is, being happy, ignoring what I did to her a week ago.

I shook my head. "Fine I'll go." I replied.

"What? How is-"

"I'll go on the stupid date with Jake, only if you bring Oliver!" I told her.

At an instant, I felt Lilly hug me from behind and for some reason, it felt good, like when we were hugging two days ago on my bed. Why can't these feelings escape me? I only hope this date would help me figure out what's wrong with me.

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I've decided that I'm desperate. Yep, totally desperate to find out what is wrong with me. Gosh, I don't even think anything is wrong with me, but then the thing is the feelings for Lilly and its stupid!

I shook my head and sighed.

Gosh, when will Jake do something that will make me… not me?

I groaned and shook my head.

Concentrate on the freaking movie Miley; Lilly, Oliver, or Jake might realize that I'm not even paying attention.

I sat in the movie theater on a double date with Jake, Oliver, and Lilly. It was boring; I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Here we are, watching a scary movie, but I can't even pay attention, let alone be scared and enjoy it because of the situation I'm in.

If I didn't let Lilly talk me into this double date in the first place, I wouldn't even be here, but I let her. Gosh, I let her do this to me and I'm in the most awkward position ever. I'm in between Lilly and Jake. Jake, being the smooth boy, put his arm around me and I can't help but feel stiff. I mean, I've done this before, but it's just weird now.

I side eyed Jake and he caught my eye and grinned. I rolled my eyes and sighed. This is stupid.

Suddenly I hear a loud shrill come from the screen and there, Lilly screamed aloud and took a hold of my hand. She tightly gripped it and moved to press her face into my shoulder.

I felt my heart beat fast and I side eyed her, just seeing if she was alright. She had one hand holding my hand with a death grip and her other hand covering her eyes as her head lay on my shoulder.

I could feel the palm of my hand sweat as Lilly's nails dug into my skin. It hurt, but I felt numb. I was nervous, too nervous. Lilly was close and this is public, oh gosh, I need help.

I bit my lip, I wonder if she could sense me getting nervous. I sighed and leaned more toward Jake. Jake shifted and leaned toward me. I felt his hot breath near my ear, right at the side of my neck. Oh boy, this is not what I was looking for.

"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked.

I shrugged and shook my head. "Nothing I'm fine." I assured him and he grinned.

"You look beautiful tonight." He said as he put his hand over mine. He rotated his thumb on the back of my hand as he slipped his fingers between mine.

I bit my lip and nodded. "You look good too." I moved back at my same position and eyed Lilly. She caught my eye this time and I looked over at my hand. Her eyes followed mine and at an instant, she pulled her hand away.

"Sorry!" She whispered out loud.

"Don't worry."

I smiled and stretched my fingers out before I put it on my lap. I looked back at the movie and sighed. I think its time for me to have a bathroom break.

I glanced at Jake and leaned toward him. "I'm going to use the bathroom."

With his eyes glued to the screen, he shifted in his seat to make room for me to leave the row and I got up from my seat. I felt a hand on my arm and looked down at Lilly. She gave me a questionable look and I mouthed out 'bathroom' before leaving my spot. I got out of the row and went up the aisle.

When I got out of the theater, I took a deep breath. It felt like there was so much tension in there, it was just weird. I never thought I would survive, but with, what, 35 minutes left of the movie, I don't think I can last long.

I shook my head and headed out toward the bathroom. When I got in, there was no one there so I went over to the sink and looked at myself. Here I am, dressed in a jean skirt, tank top, and jacket, as if I'm not on a big date, and bored. Very very bored.

I sighed and started fixing my brown curls. I just needed time to stall, I didn't want to go back to the movie or watch it. Hell, this movie we're watching, I don't even know the title of it, so much for a date.

"Gosh, will this ever end?" I told myself and sighed.

I dropped my hands to my sides and stared at my reflection. I'm pretty, kind of smart, and nice. Why am I having these 'feelings' for a girl when I have a totally hot boyfriend and people who like me? For a change I just want all of this to end this instant, especially my screwed up feelings for Lilly.

I hear the door of the bathroom swing open and I looked through the mirror to see who it was and it was, to my surprise, Lilly. Great, right when I wanted to be alone.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Lilly asked walked and stood behind me. She looked straight at me, through the mirror, and put her chin on my shoulder.

I shrugged. "I'm okay, I'm totally fine." I forced a smile and she kept her frown.

"Honestly Miley, tell me what's wrong. I haven't forgotten the issue we talked about earlier today, you still haven't told me." She said and put her hands on both of my arms. She softly moved them up until they reached my upper arms and squeezed them. She looked at me and tilted her head toward my neck, allowing me to feel her warm breath there.

Crap.

I shook her hands off and twisted so that I faced her. I put on my best smile and placed my hands on her shoulders.

"Gosh, will you let it go? I'm okay; I'm just… confused with Jake." I lied.

Lilly's eyes grew wide and she gasped. "Not even!" She said and I shrugged.

"It's nothing really, I just," I sighed. I'll never hear the end of this. It's a lie after another and I really do need to stop this. If only I didn't make such a stupid move then, I wouldn't be going through these stupid changes.

"Yes?" Lilly asked as she slipped close to me.

I blushed and shook my head, "Never mind, let's finish the movie before we decide to do anything stupid." I grinned and took a hold of her hand.

I walked toward the exit of the bathroom and glanced at Lilly as she held a confused look on her face.

If only it wasn't so hard to keep this a secret. A secret I'll have to keep to myself because no one would understand. Hell, I don't even understand myself so I don't know why I even think of it like this. Then again, this would probably be my biggest secret ever-the fact that I might be falling for Lilly Truscott.

A/N: Sorry if this was a little short. Longer chapter next one, hopefully. Anyway, hope you like this chapter :D