Fluffy dance alert!!!
She was walking along the beach, Jude pressed against her. Jacob had made her a baby carrier from an old soft blanket that was his mothers. It tied around her back, covered the little one and nestled him against her chest in the exact perfect place. He always fell instantly asleep when she placed him there. She thought of how she had cried when Jacob presented it to her. He had been so proud and to know that it belonged to his mother, that she had probably swaddled her precious Jacob in it when he was a baby. It was too much.
She loved walking along the beach with her son. That's how they usually spent his naptime. Just to be in that place with her little one sleeping against her, well, there was nothing more special to her. The past few weeks had flown by in a state of dreamlike bliss. She and Jacob spent all their time just unable to begin to understand how lucky they were. Of course, her poor husband also had to deal with his wolf like territorialism. Every time someone came to see the baby, she would try and calm him but eventually just have to accept that he was going to be a trembling mess until they left. At least the growling had quieted a bit, she thought with a smile.
Of course, they both had to deal with the fact that her body still needed time to heal. Which was not going well…they had a relationship that existed on a whole other level from normal people. Jacob needed to be near her, touching her, almost every second of his day. She had grown accustomed to feeling like a magnet for his warm embrace, who was she kidding; she had grown more than accustomed. She had grown to crave him in the exact same way. All she ever wanted was to be with him. Of course, this was on her mind as he snuck up behind her on her walk. His arms, always instantly warming, wrapped themselves around her waist. His mouth, always so hot against her skin, found its ways beneath her hair and onto the back of her neck. She sighed, God he wanted her to just die, didn't he?
"What are you doing to me?" she whispered, her voice filled with want.
"Exactly what you do to me every time I look at you" he whispered back, his voice filled with the same want. "Let's lay the pup down and let him finish his nap…and we can…." He could barely form sentences.
"Mmmm" was all she could murmur as his hands began to wander.
There was a spot on the beach, behind some big pieces of driftwood; not Bella's driftwood Jacob had told her-as if that bothered her still, where they often ended up. She carefully removed Jude from her chest and laid him in the soft sand. He never stirred and
before she could turn around Jacob tackled her. He pressed her into the sand and she pressed back harder against him. Their bodies tangled and their kisses were everywhere. Oh God how she wanted him, needed to feel him everywhere but her body betrayed her.
So they lay there, their kisses and hands driving each other to the brink of insanity but the passion had to be quenched. He whispered, " I love you" as though she didn't know, couldn't feel how much. Finally Jacob stopped, always the protector, and lay beside her gently rubbing her back.
"How much longer?" he whispered, his voice strained with the pain of not being able to be with her.
"A few more weeks love…just a few more weeks" she whispered, and turned to face him. Pressing her face into his bare chest, sand scratching at her soft skin.
"How'd I get so lucky?" he asked; finally able to smile at her.
She just smiled back realizing she was in fact the lucky one. Then Jude cried out and they both grinned. Everything about him excited them. Even when he cried.
"I bet he's hungry…I'm always hungry" Jacob joked.
"I know, he definitely takes after you…." she smiled, and picked up the baby. She propped herself against the driftwood and let Jude attach himself to her. The instant he begin to drink, her eyes automatically closed. There was something so beautiful about these moments. Feeding her child from her own body as nature intended. God, she loved knowing that her milk was responsible for his growth that she nurtured him-filled his little belly. She opened her eyes eventually and found that as always, Jacob just lay there watching. So much love and wonder in his eyes. There were no words; there never were-they spoke to each other in silences in a way others couldn't understand.
When Jude finally finished Jacob reached for him. His eyes lit up at just feeling his pup in his hands. Hands, which swallowed the baby up, she thought with a smile. When Jacob held him, it was like watching every dream she had ever had come true. He whispered sweetly to Jude and proceeded to burp him. Those two had a bond almost instantly and when Jacob held him, they were in their own world. Jacob had said earlier, how did he get so lucky…. she had to laugh because sitting here watching this incredible man hold their incredible child she was overcome with just how lucky she was. Spending all those years in the woods alone, she had no idea. Now she's here, on this sacred land blessed to have a husband who is spiritually bound to her and a child who she loved so much she might indeed burst.
"Isn't your mama beautiful when she laughs little one? I think she's probably about the most beautiful thing in the universe when she laughs…what do you think?" Jacob asked Jude, and then looked over at her smiling. "He said he agrees"
"Oh did he now? Well, that's good news, isn't it?" she said, grinning.
"What's so funny by the way, am I not doing this right?" he asked, looking a little confused.
"Oh God no, you are perfect, you're both perfect "she said taking in their black hair and dark skin "that's just it. I was just laughing at how unbelievably perfect my life is…." She said, immediately feeling silly. Jacob reached over, pulling her close to him and kissing the top of her head.
"Do you know how it makes me feel to hear you say that?" he asked, his voice deep.
"Good, I hope" she said, her voice filled with love.
"Good doesn't even begin to cover it. To know that I make you feel like that…. it's just…. it's everything to me."
She just sighed and nestled closer against him, letting the warmth wash over her. The sun had begun to set and it was getting colder but right now, with Jacob holding onto her and Jude, she thought it felt like heaven.