Hello? Is anyone there?
((Ana ducks behind a random passerby as her lovely, amazing, loyal readers throw shoes, tomatoes, rocks, and the occasional small dog at her.))
"What the are you doing here?" y'all ask, rather disgruntled. "You've only been gone for, oh, over a year. What? No, we didn't miss you. Didn't even notice you were gone... What the hell is wrong with you?"
Yes, I know. I'm a horrible person. I have all of you wonderful people following me and supporting me and reading the stories I have written, and what did I do? I ignored you for a year plus a whole bunch of days. To this day, I still get people adding me to their favorites/alerts, and each time I get a new email showing me that you guys still support me even after all I've done to you, it makes me cringe. Seriously.
I know it's not really the same thing, but it's like when I go to a concert and wait around after the show in hopes of seeing my favorite band of the night, and they just never show up. I mean, I bought a t-shirt. I paid the extra 10 bucks for the meet and greet pass. I stood next to some guy who smelled suspiciously like fish, aftershave, and Mexican food all night, while he "danced" and ended up almost punching me in the face in the process. I got my ass grabbed more than once by the creepy guy behind me, and I'm pretty sure none of those times were accidental in spite of the fact that his girlfriend was trying to suck his face off the whole time. I freaking love this band, yet they can't even stop over and say, 'hi.'
Turns out, I'm just like that band of douches who cares more about getting paid for their gig than about thanking the fans who are the ones paying for them to play in the first place. I've taken all of your love and general awesomeness, and completely disregarded it.
And I'm sorry.
I know it's not much of an excuse, but I lost my love for the Twilight series for a while. To me, as someone who loved the books from the very beginning, it was the fangirls that did me in. It was so cool to know about Ms. Meyer's universe when it first started. I felt special being part of this little group who knew about this awesome thing, only to have supposed fans ruin it with their hype when the movie came out. Excuse the fact that I'm using another music example, but Twilight became like Fall Out Boy to me; it was amazing to begin with, knowing about something so cool even though it was so little known. But then the fan-base grew, and not for the best. Like Fall Out Boy, Twilight became trendy. Now, don't get me wrong - there's absolutely nothing wrong with following trends. I, myself, have fallen victim to the Silly Bandz fad. But what annoys me is when people only like something because it's popular. I can't tell you how many girls in school have come up to me and been all, "OMG, I love Edward!" or "OMG, Pete Wentz is sooo hott!" Normally, I just think, Is that so? Did you read the books? Or did you ever listen to Fall Out Boys' first well know album, Take This to Your Grave? No? Well, then, you can kindly just shut the f-ck up...
I really think that the Twilight movie was the worst thing that happened to the series, and that's not just because I disliked the artsy angle taken with it. It brought about a bunch of hype, and completely unnecessarily so.
That being said, New Moon kind of began to restore my faith. That movie wasn't quite so horrible, and by the time it came out, some of the fangirls had actually picked up the books and enjoyed those as well as the movies. Appreciated them, even. Then, Eclipse made me smile because it was pretty darn close to the book and made me remember what I loved so much about the series a year ago. I don't feel quite the same affection for Bella and her friends and family as I once did, but I don't abhor the books anymore, either.
So, the point behind all of this? First, I wanted to say I'm sorry for neglecting all of you. You truly are wonderful and I thank God that you all enjoyed what I wrote so much that you've put me on 166 alert lists, 155 favorite lists, and left me 264 reviews, in total. Compared to some authors on here, that's nothing. But to me, your support really is everything. I wouldn't have come back at all, had it not been for you guys. I read each and every review I get, and try to reply to all of them, too. I care. Really, I do. I just suck at showing it.
Second, I wanted to let you all know that I am going to edit/rewrite everything that I have up thus far. I'll be deleting the originals, leaving the first chapter so those of you who do have me on alert/favorite don't have to go find the new, updated version. Of course, I'll update that chapter, but you won't be getting an alert for it if you subscribe. Your best bet would probably be to wait for the second chapter to be posted then go back and reread chapter one first. That way you know it's been fixed. I can't tell you how long that process will take. I'm hoping no later than Christmastime. Then, depending on where my feelings on the saga stand after all of that, I may start to post new chapters. No promises, though. We'll just have to play that by ear.
Thank you again for all of your support! I really, truly do love each and everyone of you.
P.S. If you want to comment on this post, could you please do so in a PM, just for organization sake? It would be much appreciated. :)