Title: How Can You?

Warning: Slash. RemusXSirius. Very bad, crude humour.

I do not own Harry Potter and never will (much to my disappointment)

I watch as he wraps his arms around her waist and draws her closer to him.

I watch as he whispers in her ear and she giggles in delight.

I watch as he kisses her with his soft supple lips.

I sit across from them in the common room, pain throbbing in my body, my arms folded and my face frowning.

His first girl and he flaunts her in front of me, showing her off and enjoying the attention.

The quiet bookworm all over a girl in the common room.

He moves his hands down and she giggles uncontrollably as she slips a hand inside his shirt.

I can't stand it no more.

I get to my feet my face set and my eye's stormy.

I walk over to them and tap him on the shoulder, disrupting their kiss.

He looks at me expectantly and I feel my heart beating madly.

"Erm…I need help with some homework." it sounds so lame and I cringe inwardly.

He sighs a deep sigh before kissing his girl on the lips and shifting her from his lap.

I walk back to where I was sitting and pick up my stuff, James gives me a knowing look but he doesn't speak for which I am grateful.

I follow him up to the dorm where he sits on the edge of his bed and I sit next to him.

I turn to look him in the eye and open my mouth to speak but he beats me to it.

"What's this about?" his voice is soft and I play dumb.

"Homework" I try an innocent look but it doesn't work on him.

"Don't play dumb with me, you never do homework. What's this about?" he asks again and his eyes flash and I know he's not to be messed with.

"Last night." My voice is just a whisper but I know he heard me.

"What about it?"

"How can you?"

"How can I what?" I know he's playing me, he wants me to admit it.

"How can you kiss her after last night!" I refuse to say the name, my pride getting in the way.

"What about last night?" He's still playing with me, toying me, hurting me.

"You know." I tried to sound convincing but still his face remained impassive, he wants me to admit it. I give in. "Our kiss." Just saying it takes my breath away.

"Our kiss?" his voice is strangled.

"Yes. Our kiss." I say firmly and he makes a disbelieving noise.

"I kissed you. You pushed me away!" he says the thing I was dreading and the words rip into me.

"I know and I'm sorry." I know he won't forgive me.


"My feelings -" but he cuts me off.

"You made your feelings pretty clear last night!" I could not ignore the hurt that was in his eyes and the pain that echoed in his voice and I wince.

"If that's what you want to think!" I did not want to get angry, to push him away even more, but I did. How could he be so blind?

"Yes it is what I think! I've finally found someone who likes me for me and you're already trying to ruin it!" We have both stood up and I can feel the adrenaline rushing through my body.

"Do you really want her though?" I try to sound concerned but I just sound jealous.

"Yes. Yes I do." he says it defiantly but I can see the uncertainty in his eyes.

"Go back to her then! Go back and drape yourself all over her! Go back and humiliate yourself!" My fists are clenched and my voice is raised.

"Why do you care? You're always in the common room snogging some girl!" he says it bitterly and I wince again.

I do not answer and he walks from the room, slamming the door behind him.

"I care because I love you." Nothing but empty air hears me.

Can you guess who?

I'm currently writing the other perspecitive :P