If any of you were really thinking that these characters were mine I feel sorry for you. They are stephenie's and I just do what I can to keep myself entertained until she graces us with more...
Chapter One: Parents
We were headed to my house and I was very scared. Edward said he would go in first and tell him alone but I couldn't let him do that. Charlie was my Dad and I needed to tell him myself. After a silent car ride home we walked up to the door. I opened the door and went into the family room where I was sure Charlie would be watching some sort of sports program on the television . Edward squeezed my hand tightly and I took a deep breath.
I just decided to go for it. " Hey Dad."
He looked a little taken aback when he saw Edward and I walking in, hand in hand. He already seemed like he was on the defensive. Tentatively, he asked " Hey Bells, what's up?"
"Well Dad, I want you to know Edward and I have put a lot of thought into this and we would really like your approval."
Charlie look scared. "Bella, I will try to have an open mind. What is it?"
I hurried on before I lost my nerve. "Dad …. Edward and I would really like to be married before we leave for college in September."
Charlie's face got really red and he looked like he was going to explode. He glared at Edward and yelled " Are you crazy? How are you going to take care of her and go to school ?"
I cut Edward off. I am sure he had already prepared a beautiful rebuttal due to the fact that he could read Charlie's thoughts but before he could say anything I screamed back. "Dad, I don't need Edward to take care of me. I am a big girl and this is my decision, however, I would love for you to be happy for me. I love Edward. This is real and there aren't any good reasons to wait. We love each other, Dad. Can't you see it?" There, I tried to say it in a way that he couldn't easily argue with me but he wasn't buying it.
"Oh, I can think of a few reasons." Still glaring at Edward he said, "What are you thinking?"
Charlie was clearly blaming Edward for all of this. This time Edward grabbed my hand to throw me off so he could get a word in.
"Charlie, I love Bella more than anything in this world and I will always take care of her. I would never put her in a bad situation. I want her to finish school. When my parents died they left me a trust fund. She doesn't have to worry about paying for school if she is my wife, what's mine is hers. We have enough to be able to start our lives together."
Charlie looked surprised. I could see that money and school had been the focal point of his argument, though it didn't take long before he found something else. Looking directly at Edward he spewed, "So what happens when you change your mind again?"
I couldn't believe my Dad. I gasped out, "Dad how could you? You have no idea what happened."
He shot back, "I don't have to know Bella, I saw it. I saw what his leaving did to you."
Edward knew it was coming but I saw the pain in his face. It was making me ill. I had to find a way to make my Dad stop. "Dad, you don't understand. Please don't. It wasn't Edward's fault." My emotions started getting the better of me and tears started rolling down my face.
Edward grabbed my hands, looked into my eyes, and then turned back to Charlie. "Charlie, leaving Bella was the worst decision of my life. I will never forgive myself for the pain I caused her, or you. I have never thought I deserved her and I really thought that she would be happier without me. I was a mess. I only tortured both of us. That experience has taught me that no matter what, I will never leave Bella again unless she asks me to. I can't live without her. I love her. "
Edward finally paused for a second so I jumped back in. "Dad, I know you are upset and worried, but last night you told me to let you know before I just run off with Edward. Well, I am telling you now, and all I want from you is to be happy for me. I just want you to walk me down the aisle and understand that this is what I want."
Charlie took a deep breath and I could tell he was beginning to give in to the inevitable. "What did Edward's parents say about all of this? "
So I tried to make them sound normal and said, " Well Dad, they are worried but they trust us and they want us to be happy. They want to have the wedding at their house and Alice is so excited that she has practically planned the whole thing already." At that, Charlie finally smiled a little.
Now that we could see we were winning Edward winked at me and said " Well Charlie, I hope that you will be okay with this. I will give you guys some time to talk." He said, "Goodnight" as he kissed the top of my head. "Charlie, thank you for hearing what I had to say." Then he walked out the door.
Of course, as soon as Edward left Charlie tried to talk me out of it and began asking over and over, "Are you sure that this is what you want and not Edward pressuring you into this. Bella, are you sure? Aren't you scared to trust him after what happened before?"
That was really a low blow but understandable so I took a deep breath and said, "Dad, we are a lot alike. Imagine that Mom came back into your life again and said she had made a mistake, that she had been wrong. Would you have taken her back?"
He didn't have to say anything I saw the look in his eyes and knew that I had won. He finally understood. "Dad, please be happy. We love each other. It will be okay."
He smiled, " Bella, I will try. Believe it or not I just want you to be happy too and by the way, you are the one telling your Mom."
I laughed, "Oh, I know and on that note, I'm going to bed. I'm going to need all my wits about me for that conversation."
He laughed too and said, "Good night and good luck tomorrow."
The last few days had been mentally and physically daunting and that was an understatement. I just wanted to go to bed and be with Edward. So after saying goodnight to Charlie I headed upstairs.
I was so worried that he was going to be upset. I just wanted to reassure him. When I got upstairs though, he was lying on my bed with a big smile.
He whispered, "We did it!"
He looked so happy and so adorable. He held out his arms to me and I all but ran into him. " I thought you would be upset."
He just looked into my eyes and said, "Bella, how could I be unhappy right now? You told your Dad that we are getting married and for once it really sounded like you were happy about all of this. It feels real now. You sounded so convincing like this is what you want."
I couldn't help but smile at him. He really did look so happy and so beautiful. "I've been a wreck lately worrying if I had pushed you into getting married. I don't want to force you. I just wanted you to choose to be with me in some sort of tangible way before I ... before I changed you."
I looked at him and he could still literally take my breath away.
"Bella, changing you is so permanent. I needed you to be sure."
I just gazed into his beautiful eyes. "Edward, I have always chosen you and you will always be what I want and what I need to make my life worth living. There really is no way I could live without you. I've tried and it didn't go so well." He looked down at my ring and pulled me so close that I couldn't breathe.
Then he whispered into my hair , "I love you Bella, my Bella".
Then he kissed me so tenderly that I couldn't help but shiver as he pulled away.
"Go get ready for bed. I'll be right here when you get back."
I raced back as soon as I had changed into my pajamas and brushed my teeth. He was there waiting for me in the dark. I felt his cold chest as I snuggled up close to him. We didn't speak, he just kissed my hair and hummed my lullaby until I fell asleep.
Today Charlie was handling things rather nicely. It did help that Alice had been their this morning. She has been telling Charlie all the wedding details and even asked for his input as if anyone was allowed to have input except Alice. Charlie as usual fell all over anything that came out of her mouth. I think she has started him thinking and though he might still think that it is too soon, he really is starting to enjoy the idea of walking me down the aisle.
Well it was truly happening, I was getting married. For some reason becoming a vampire didn't seem near as big a deal as getting married. I had been the most worried about my parents' reactions. Thank goodness Charlie was done. I feared Renee was going to be much worse. For one thing, it will have to be over the phone and Edward won't be able to tell me what she is thinking.
"This is going to be painful but I've put it off for way too long." I spoke the words out loud not even realizing it.
Edward jumped through the window before I even had a chance to pick up the phone. "Bella it's going to be okay, you can do this. I'm right here".
I flinched slightly. I was expecting him but it still freaked me out sometimes how he could always sneak up on me like that. I went to take a seat at the desk and picked up the phone and dialed my mother's phone number.
After exchanging a few necessary pleasantries, I began. "Mom I know this will probably shock you and I know you are probably going to be angry but try to hear me out first."
There was complete silence on the other end so I continued, "Edward and I, are getting married before we go away to school."
Still silence, but I wasn't sure if this was good or bad. Well really it couldn't be good. "Mom, say something."
"Well I would but I was trying to wait and hear you out first".
She sounded calm. Well I wasn't expecting that I had to admit.
"Well my plans haven't changed I'm still going to school and you will be happy to know that Edward and I were both accepted to Dartmouth. Which is great, right?"
I waited still silence on the other end. I don't think I had ever witnessed this kind of shock from my mother, the kind of shock that rendered her completely speechless. "Mom?"
"Oh can I speak now?"
Uh oh, this did not sound good.
"Bella are you pregnant? …. because there are other options. Phil and I can help with whatever you need you don't have to do this."
I can't believe she actually said that. I expected it in a way but I still couldn't believe she went there.
"Mom, believe it or not I am not pregnant. I am actually marrying Edward because I love him and want to share the rest of my life with him." There, I said it. That wasn't too painful.
I looked over at Edward and I could tell he really wanted to sympathize with my plight but a smile just kept edging to his lips every few seconds. He actually looked like he could start laughing. I gave him an angry glare.
"I should have seen this coming. I knew what was happening when you came to visit. I just can't believe you would set yourself up for … for …"
I had to cut her off before she began comparing my life with Edward to hers and Charlie's . "Mom, please don't. I know what I am doing. I am not you, and Edward is not Charlie."
Okay, that had to be the understatement of the year.
"We are going to do this whether you are behind it one hundred percent or not. Please trust me and know that I am making the right decision for me."
There was silence and then finally she began again. " Bella, I just love you and this just doesn't sound like you. I just don't want you to be unhappy later."
"You are right it isn't like me but have some faith in me. I don't just fall in love with anyone and want to just marry them. We have both thought a lot about it and it is what is right for us. Trust me, Mom."
I knew she was caving and I started to feel like it was almost over. "Mom I am happy now and I will be happy later I promise you. Please Mom, I want you to be a part of this. Can you please come out early? Alice has pretty much planned the wedding but I really want you to be here. She is throwing a wedding shower for me and I'd really like you to be here for it all. I want you to meet the rest of Edward's family too."
I was hoping the "fun" idea of a wedding would help to snap her out of the idea that this was a big deal. She did start to get better and I think by the end of our conversation I had just about talked her into the idea of me getting married. I hung up feeling pretty proud of myself.
I looked over at Edward who had the biggest grin on his face. "I am so proud of you, you did it."
He picked me up off the chair and laid me on the bed and kissed me. "You are doing great. The hardest part is done."
Of course, I couldn't say that the hardest part had already been done. When I had had to face telling Jacob the truth. That was the hardest part. Seeing Jacob so unhappy and knowing that it was only because of me. Only because I was a selfish jerk who was unable to be honest with myself. How could I have been so stupid to hurt them both so badly, especially Jake. Edward would never hear any of this from me. I swore to myself no matter how much my heart aches for Jacob's pain I will never let Edward see it again. I've chosen Edward and I have to let go as much as I possibly can of any feelings I have for Jacob Black.