There are some things we can't run away from, no matter how hard we try. For me, Iwa no Deidara is one of those things.

"I...I think I love you," the blonde said sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck and refusing to meet my gaze. My eyes bore into him and he fidgeted uncomfortably.

"You don't even know me," I growled. He was unfazed.

"I know it souds stupid, un, but...I feel like I've known you all my life." A blush spread across his soft features when our eyes finally locked. I could tell at a glance into those deep blue orbs that he wasn't doing this to mess with me. He was being honest.

...But I couldn't accept it.

"You'd be better off dead than loving me," I muttered, turning to leave. He gasped, and I saw out of the corner of my eye that his expression had become horribly desperate.

"Wh-what?! But, Sasori, un! I-"

"Go home, boy." I felt the edge in my own weary voice and winced inwardly. I didn't want to turn him away so coldly, but I also didn't want to cause him any more pain than necessary.

He was silent for a moment, and I listened to the wind. My ears picked up a new sound, and it was then that I knew he was crying. Crying over scum like me. It tore at my heart, but I did my best to ignore it and walk away.

"Sasori, please! I l-love you so much!" he sobbed. I bit my bottom lip, but I don't think either of us realized that I'd stopped my retreat. Somhow his pain had hitched a ride on the wind and blown over to suffocate me. My mind screamed in agony.

"I just don't wanna be alone anymore...!" It was barely a whisper, and my heart heard it before my mind could process the words. I turned back to him with tears of my own and a new discovery; With all of our differences, Deidara and I were very much alike.

I threw myself at him body and soul then. I know I shouldn't have. I knew then that it would be the death of us both. But I had been so alone for so long, and here was someone willing to spend the rest of eternity with me.

And I regret nothing, yet.


Yeah...Some weird, out-of-the-blue shonen-ai fluffiness and angst. I dunno. I may add on to this later, but I don't know what to do. So if you want me to continue, let me know, and maybe drop off some ideas to get me started. Thanks!!

P.S. I'm pretty sure that this is at least partially AU, so...yeah. Hope you enjoy.