This is sort of a weird, angsty chapter on Sasori's part, but at least I've got something up...Soon, I shall update more often. 3

Also, I believe that this shall be some odd manifestation of my current situation with my boyfriend, Dei-chan. Seeing as how it is inspired by that, and all.

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It's beginning to get colder here, and we're obviously affected. Deidara and I, and all of our friends, have been...well, to put it plainly, goofy, of late. Even I find myself laughing at their jokes and wandering the streets in hyperness. Though it is not all so much fun.

I admit that the week I was ill was utter hell. I couldn't get anything done for work or pleasure, and I wasn't able to see Deidara. It depressed me so.

But now that I am healthy, and I use that term lightly, I am enjoying life again. I cherish every moment with my love, yet our time together does not seem to be enough. My heart aches whenever we are apart, and even sometimes when we are together. I do not remeber feeling so lonely before he came along...

...Then again, I also do not remember feeling so warm or alive before him.

With the holidays fast approaching, and my time with him likely to be cut down to half soon, I speak with him often. Every day I scan the halls for him, if only for a glimpse of the one I care most about. I fear it has become an obsession. Will he think less of me if he knows...?

I have been pondering such things for weeks, and I worry I am getting little sleep. Even now, tapping notes into this most secret journal, I am wearied. Oh, Deidara, I pray for your safety and, if necessary, pity. What shall I do...?

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NOT-so-private journal, Sasori-chan. XD -insane and/or hyper-