Whisper Without Words

Disclaimer: I don't own Edward, Bella or any other characters except my own . . . yeah you know the rest.

Chapter 8: Decisions

I sighed as I wandered down the hallway, trying to find some solace. It had been four days since Bella came to live with us, and it all seemed like a blur to me. I loved being able to spend time with Bella, but I was sick of being cooped up in this dankly old house. I talked with Carlisle, and much to my disappointment he told me it was my decision to make if I wanted to tell her. That's exactly what I was doing for four days: trying to decide if I should tell her or not. She had told me her secret, forced or not, and I thought maybe I should show her the same courtesy. The problem was, I didn't want to scare her more then she already was, and I didn't want her to hate me. . .

But, I knew it wasn't fair to be her friend without her knowing. So, I would have to tell her. The only problem was I didn't know how to do that. I opened the back sliding doors, and slipped out of the house. I plopped down onto the grass, letting the wind blow through my hair, contemplating different scenarios in my head. I heard uneven footsteps approaching the door, that I instantly recognized as Bella's.

I wanted to go for a run. I wanted to feel light and care-free. Then, she slid the door open and sat beside me. She didn't say anything as she stared at the falling sun ahead of her, rays of golden light glowing warmly on her hair and face. I couldn't help but feel entranced by her. Her hair, how it blew out behind her, like a dolphin jumping in and out of the water. Her eyes, beautiful and big, and sparkling like the sun hitting the water. Everything about her amazed me.

"You want to go for a ride?" I found myself asking, not even paying attention to what I was saying, but rather what her answer would be.

"A ride?" She questioned, looking at the garage where my Volvo was parked.

"Not in the car." I chuckled, pulling her to her feet and leading her to the dense patch of trees.

"Where are you taking me?" She laughed and hopped over a branch as I tugged her along, clutching her hand in mine.

"Do you trust me?" I teased, looking back to wink at her, not hiding my excitement of what she didn't know was coming.

"Of course." She answered confidently. I stopped when we were out of sight of the house, and crouched down in front of her.

"Uhhhh. . .She muttered.

"Just get on." I grumbled, knowing if I could I would be blushing slightly. She reluctantly slipped her legs in the loops of my arms, and enveloped her arms around my neck. I secured her calves in my hands before taking off at a human pace. I could tell she was confused as to why I was doing this, so I quickly sped up so that I was only a blur in the trees. She gaped in awe at the wonders around us. We were locked in our own little bubble, immune to time and the world around us. She giggled and hugged me the best she could, and I could hear her breathing calmly. For a moment, I forgot she didn't know I was a vampire and the fears the she would hate me once I told her. My heart soared and my body wanted to as well. My legs moved on their own accord, springing us into the air. We flew over the trees and time seemed to slow down as we soared higher then the ground. And I wouldn't want to be with anyone else. She slowly released her death grip on my neck, which would have nearly suffocated me if I was still alive, and swept her arms out beside her. I grinned, knowing she was enjoying this just as mush as I was. I screamed a cry of joy, feeling the best I ever had. As I felt us descending toward the forest, I did a little spin as we entered the trees. She giggled as we landed and I decided to stop. We both couldn't stop laughing, and I knew it was the most I had laughed in my life by a long shot. She threw her arm around my shoulder, leaning against me while she tried to catch her breath.

"That was. . .amazing." She gushed breathlessly. "How did you do that?" she inquired, excitement and amazement obscured in her eyes. I sighed. I had been trying to prolong this, but I couldn't avoid it anymore.

"I have something really big to tell you." I started, sitting her down on a large rock.

After a long talk, and many questions, we sat in silence once more.

"Edward." She said. "I have something to tell you too." Fear gripped me and I was scared she would run away screaming.

"I. . .i love you." She admitted, looking away shamefully. Those were the exact opposite words I was expecting to come out of her mouth. I was struck speechless, and she took my silence for rejection. Hurt, she abruptly stood up and sulked into the house. I sighed and pinched the bride of my nose. Of course, I loved her too, I was just too shocked to say it. Just then, I heard light footsteps heading towards me, that I knew belonged to Esme. I lifted my head and turned to meet her, trying to mask my pain. She sat on the rock next to me and put a gentle hand on my shoulder.

"What's wrong, honey?" She asked sweetly.

"Nothing." I said blankly, not meeting her curious eyes.

"You know you can tell me anything, right I'm just trying to help you out." I sighed, looking up at her and trying to put my felings into words.

"It's complicated." I finally answered, putting my head in my hands.

"Just try to explain. I'll understand." She reassured me. I sighed comteplating telling her the truth or not. Giving in, I comlied and spilled my guts out to her.

"Bella told me she loved me and I was too shocked to say anything. She took my hesitation a rejection and thought I didn't feel the same, and now she probably hates me." I explained, my head spinning, trying to figure things out.

"That doesn't sound that complicated." She scoffed.

"But she shouldn't love me! I'm a monster! A monster that doesn't deserve love, and could kill her at any second. I don't know if I should be happy, or angry, or if it's best she thinks I don't love her. We could never be anyway. . ." I sad sadly, wishing desperately it wasn't true.

"Don't say that!" She scolded. "I have some advice for you. One, never ever think you don't deserve love Edward. If there's anyone in the world that deserves love, it's you. You are a magnificent person. Two, accept yor feelings. Don't feel what you think you're supposed to feel. Feel how you want to feel. If you want to love her, then love her! And third, anything can happen. If she loves you and you love her, it will out work out. Trust me." She smiled, patting my leg before getting up and brushing the dirt off her hands. She strutted back over to her garden, humming the whole way. I sighed and ran a hand through my tousled hair. Suddenly, a plan came to me and I sat up abruptly, plans formulating in my mind.


I sat in my room on my bed, sobbing uncontrollably as rejection washed over me. I thought he felt the same way, though it wouldn't surprise me if he didn't. Music drifted in through my door, and I shut up immediately, trying to figure out where it was coming from.

Never knew I could feel like this
Like I've never seen the sky before
Want to vanish inside your kiss
Every day I love you more and more

Listen to my heart, can you hear it sings
Telling me to give you everything
Seasons may change, winter to springBut I love you until the end of time

I rose from my bed, going to the door and following my ears to the source of the beautiful music. They led me to Edward's room, where his stereo was loudly playing this song, and candles were glowing.

Come what may
Come what may
I will love you until my dying day

Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
Suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
Suddenly my life doesn't seem such a waste
It all revolves around you

I felt arms wrap around my waist, as different tears came from my eyes. I couldn't believe what I was seeing and hearing. How could something as wonderful as love happen to me? Edward, turned me around me wiped my tears away, leaning ever closer to my awaiting lips.

And there's no mountain too high
No river too wide
Sing out this song and I'll be there by your side
Storm clouds may gatherAnd stars may collide
But I love you until the end of time

He broke away from our first kiss ever, staring me deeply in the eyes, never letting go. He started singing the words, bringing my heart to new extents.

Oh, come what may, come what may
I will love you, I will love you
Suddenly the world seems such a perfect place

I smiled, the happiest smile in a long time, and leaned in for another kiss.

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